by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello hello blogggy! :DSorrry my previous post was kinda irrelevant and very despondent and hard to understand. it was rather pushy for me. That night,i fell and drowned in my own tears. I was in dilemma, a feeling like letting go and live this world alone,all on my own despite knowing that my love's for him is too BIG and STRONG. Its rather hard to say Goodbye and its too early for a seperation. I cried myself to sleep and found myself sleeping only at 2am when i waited for his reply. Next morning, i was reluctant to wake up to know its SCHOOL~. sighhhhhh~ I was almost late for school and eyebags getting me looking really tired that morning. Then Mothertongue,It was my worst nightmare, He spelled out, BREAKUP on me. I poured tears in class and friends got worried of me but i do it cool, I went to the toilet,I screamed my fucking lungs out and fucking cursing my life and yes my life sucks! What can i say more? it kills, I finished every tissue roll and washed my face a number of times,i got my knuckles going on red and i really feel like running away from school but thank god,i got hold of myself. I went back to class. So yeah, I killed every moment i could to save this relationship,i did whatever i can, sigh, and we're okay after he apologized when school ended. I was relieved. I went home alone,again. Its been a routine already so im used to it already. Reached home and closed my eyes for a while and waited for him to come. He reached, i went out and met him. The first thing we did when we saw eachother was, We smiled and then Laughed. weird isnt it? I dont know. but everything were settled then and i'm uber happy.
So thats it,i was happy we were back as per normal :)
claps.
okay bye.
