by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello ! :)
i was confused and entangled amongst two worlds. I remembered yesterday when i was super happy outside with my sister then received a text from somebody saying, "i saw your guy with some other girl outside, im at yishun and im otw back home now..".
I was like, WHAT THE FUCK,i raged with anger and i couldnt take it so i kept on texting and calling him but yet he didnt replied, i was very anxious! i didnt hesitate to keep on calling like GILA. haha. kay, then on the way back, i felt like, "uh give up luh, pek cek uh".
Then suddenly the person texted again saying, "ngah uatpe?".
OBVIOUSLY,he's trying to break us up sia, i was like what the hell luh so i didnt bothered to reply that dumb text.
Then i played the computer alone while the others all slept since its afternoon.
Then baby called, he asked me to go down and so i did.
I went out and saw him downstairs, somehow he wanna hide. :P
I can see him before he could hide :P Huhu, so we sat down and talked. We went up and i kissed him hard and hugged him tightly ! Then Grandma asked him to taste her cooking; Nasi Lemak. :)
So he waited outside and i gave him food and i went in to bathe while he sat downstairs till i got home from Nyai's house. Saw him downstairs and he hid again! Ugh,naughty baby! :P
Then we walked to Bubbletea and i kept on disturbing him with my tongue stick out :P
HUHU! Then now i missed him already.
I had a bad dream yesterday...
" i dreamt, Baby gave a letter and wrote down his last words, he told me he wont be living on this world for long and he would wanna be alone now so that i wont be missing him during his last days. lastly,he said iloveyou with a rose, I BURST INTO TEARS and i couldnt help it, i kept calling him but i couldnt get through,i got so UGH! Pick up the call, and he answered and asked me what more i want? I went like,"please,for the last time, spend your last moments with me before you leave this world" :( Then he said okay. He fetched me from school and sent me back home, He gave me a necklace and put it on for me and he said, "dont lose this and remember i'll always be loving you,takecare of yourself,dont miss me". He kissed me on the cheeks and i watched walked until he eventually disappear from my sight. ".
I woke up crying and i couldnt help it, I told him and he said, that's only fantasy, I promise you i wont ever leave you. I got so INTO this dream,i dont know why :( I hope so its NOT coming true :( oh god,please:(
Baby's sick now :( Boohoo, Maybe i'll be meeting him tonight or maybe he should just stay at home? I miss him so much :(
Rest well at home and get well soon my baby love :(
Uh shit,my prepaid low somemore, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
Kay bye!
Tomorrow holiday ! :D
xoxo!
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