by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hi im bored. I can't sleep or maybe i am sleepy but Boyfriend asked me to wait so i am currently waiting for him but he hasn't come back for half an hour already :( Guess he's asleep?Sigh i don't know.
Can i share something?
Ever had a feeling that people who were there for you actually stood there only for secrets?
Yeah. Nah just random ya know.
I noticed nowadays. Oh well.
Skip from that.
I wanna talk about insecurities/things i do to getaway.
Insecurities suck BIG time. LIKE BIG, ENORMOUS.
Cause it does. You know when your boyfriend suddenly replied you so damn late and you'll be throwing your phone all over the place just for a stupid reply? And when you knew, the reply was a simple, "oh ok i miss you too" that kind?
It sucks doesn't it?
I'd always go around telling myself. "nah its fine, he can't be texting me all the time right?"
Sometimes i'd wish to do back but i can't.
You know, i really hate doing bad things to others cause from the start, my mindset is fixed that the word "karma" would literally BOOMED into my mind like some projection.
Then i'll go, Ok i can't do this to him/her cause if i do,i'm gonna get back twice of that shit.
Yeah i refrained.
But do you think by doing something nice would make you feel better?
Ask yourself.
Maybe it would, literally. But not for long as the feelings start to bottle up and then you tend to feel like shit. Utter shit.
Just an advice,
Don't be too nice to people, some will appreciate and take note of the good things you do but others don't . cause why? They're simply that way, you can't change them.
Yes you can be nice, but don't be TOO nice cause people will tend to take advantage of you since you won't complain,get mad or whatsoever.
Humans.
And plus, Don't be too independent on an individual.
You'll get a hard time if they were to betray/leave/ignore you.
Please don't. Just have some time and try to be by yourself without the need of having someone to be around me.
You have to learn to stand on your own. BY YOURSELF.
Cause at the end of day, YOU die ALONE. nobody's gonna be buried with you in your grave.
No way. My dad always tells me, "don't be afraid to lose friends now cause you have yet to enter the real world when it comes to job in years to come."
At first i didn't wanna listen but thinking back, its true. I'm still young. There's more to come.
What happens today meant nothing at all compared to the future.
Ok done.
True that my boyfriend fell asleep. Know him well enough.
I'm turning in now, gonna peee and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
I HAVE TO DO MY HOMEWORK TOMORROW.
FML.
Goodnite lovely readers (: do tag!
