by Nur Faiqah Shahri

Well, after that morning, i woke up and received a text with a simple Sorry with a sad smile. I wasn't exactly contented seeing that text message but i felt somehow normal just that i do still believe i'm living in a lie. :( I remembered that night when i rest upon your t-shirt that you wore on our first day. I put my palm onto it and went into a deep sleep. I swear i was sleeping soundly as i traveled back to the old times when i was with him. The way his hand runs smoothly through my fingers felt so real. I swear at that moment i'd prefer living in fantasy than living in reality with full of changes i won't expect to be in. After that night, i woke up with tears cause i do, i do miss him (the old him). The one who always put me first above anyone else. The one that i believe could make me smile for a longer period than now.

Time passed without me knowing. what else can i say?

In the beginning, i've always have this sentence playing on my mind.

So tell me now, is it working? Nah i don't think so. I don't know for whatever reasons that i've done wrong to you that made you make me suffer this way. I completely have no say.

For now, this morning i was so sure you woke up earlier but you would'nt make an effort to call/text me. Its okay. I acted stupid so i kept calling your phone to so called, "wake" you up .

Things were okay, yes it is. But this little heart inside of mine remained wounded. I had enough doing all the talking and committing so much in this love story. I would wanna take a break.

Now, In two days is our First Anniversary. Are you gonna come late again? Or are you gonna make it early and special for us? We'll see,honey.

Sigh.

i love you readers.

xoxo.