by Nur Faiqah Shahri
hey.I can't sleep, headaches, cramps just won't leave me alone. :(
Baby called, yes i was waiting all the while by the phone. I was trying to catch some breath and i swear i can't breathe that smoothly :( Hm.
How disappointed when i saw those photos you were tagged in, when i thought you were really heading to your aunt's place to eat cause you're too hungry. I was worried so i hurried you to go quickly. I ate too much of your lies. I think positive straight ahead, thinking you would be going there and get your stomach filled up with protein but i was wrong. Tell me was i dumb? Tell me was i too humble? I don't know. I'm tired, honestly :'(
You promised me you'll never smoke again after what happened to you last two days. I thought you really controlled hard not to smoke and you did. Tears went pouring down my cheeks and i couldn't say a word. I'm speechless; Completely out of words. What's left for me to say when even saying won't change a thing? I'm disappointed in myself most of all. I couldn't change you. Sometimes i just think i'm not the one for you cause you would'nt listen to me and i can't change you for the better. I'm utterly disappointed with myself. Oh Allah, I've tried all i could, I couldn't do a thing. I wanted to relinquish most of the time but i couldn't get enough with thinking or even deciding. I'm too feeble for a new start of the day; Tomorrow.
Sigh.
What more's coming my way?
Goodnight :'(
