by Nur Faiqah Shahri

Hello. Have you ever been in a denial? Having something to tell but your words just got stucked in between your throat and simply only tears could represent those words? Thats what i currently feel now. Although, yesterday was a happy day but slightly in between something made me put up a white lie to defend my ugly feeling. Having to be left behind and felt somehow not important, not being prioritize and all you do was just following them by the back watching them laughed so hard and thinking you're there only by your own and you don't even know that current person? Indirectly,i was torn apart being like a nobody standing in between him and his friend. They talked they laughed, I was in a distance standing alone and admiring those laughters you guys shared. Who am i?
I felt so bitter, so hurt in some ways knowing that i can't tell what i feel, i just give in, let you guys be. It kills but its okay. =( I'm sorry because of me, you have to leave early and send me home. If i wasnt there, i knew you would have stayed much more longer. Sorry to be sucha disturbance. Sorry for everything. I know exactly who i am. i know,baby.
If only,

• a guy would leave out anyone just to let you feel like a somebody.
• A guy who texts you all the time even when he's busy just to not leave you out.
• A guy who walked beside you and hold you even when his friends are around.
• A guy who would listen to every advise you have to give and heed it well.
• A guy who always tells you that you're beautiful every single day without fail.

• A guy who always make you feel safe wherever you go.

Isnt it great having that kind of guy? Hahhaa, (dream on gituh heh).
I had my brunch just just now :) hehehe!I'm all bloated now, Dad's home from his fishing :)yeah im bored now, tell me about it.
Somemore i have maths homework :( I very lazzzy luhhh.
BYE!\xoxo.