by Nur Faiqah Shahri
ku bukan hanya mengharapkan kemaafan darimu, ku juga inginkan keikhlasan darimu.Hello!
So yesterday i slept around 2am after being onthephone with my Baby. He's head's kinda giving him some problems that made me him uneasy to sleep so i accompanied him. We talked and he told me about what happened during his 'kendarat' yesterday and i could see it's very tiring. I kept persuading him to sleep cause i dont want him to be fatigue by tomorrow cause he's got to go for 'kendarat' again at Jurong plus he didnt slept for two 'unwonderful' days. I am pretty worried about him :[ So yeah. I remembered yesterday, upon some moment, I felt like i'm choked with my breath, wanting to ask him something but i was reluctant much, so i started out with, "I wanna ask you something, but im scared luhh". Then he went like, "just tell me".
He repeated the same thing he said,
I breathed in and out and POP.
"are you sure that you stopped contacting with that girl?".
He replied, "no, dear, we're just friends.".
I was like, "oh uh."
He said, "why? you dont trust me huh? "
I went like, "I dont know, gimme time kay?".
He said,"oh,okay".
His voice went a little bit soft and i know he felt rather uneasy about that question.
Then i talked and described that the girl looked, "cute".
He went like, "please,dont talk about it anymore?"
Then like ya, Actually on that point of time, I began to feel that urge to cry. I dont know why:(
Then we talked till its 1am plus.
We hung up the phone and i remembered him saying,
So yesterday i slept around 2am after being onthephone with my Baby. He's head's kinda giving him some problems that made me him uneasy to sleep so i accompanied him. We talked and he told me about what happened during his 'kendarat' yesterday and i could see it's very tiring. I kept persuading him to sleep cause i dont want him to be fatigue by tomorrow cause he's got to go for 'kendarat' again at Jurong plus he didnt slept for two 'unwonderful' days. I am pretty worried about him :[ So yeah. I remembered yesterday, upon some moment, I felt like i'm choked with my breath, wanting to ask him something but i was reluctant much, so i started out with, "I wanna ask you something, but im scared luhh". Then he went like, "just tell me".
He repeated the same thing he said,
I breathed in and out and POP.
"are you sure that you stopped contacting with that girl?".
He replied, "no, dear, we're just friends.".
I was like, "oh uh."
He said, "why? you dont trust me huh? "
I went like, "I dont know, gimme time kay?".
He said,"oh,okay".
His voice went a little bit soft and i know he felt rather uneasy about that question.
Then i talked and described that the girl looked, "cute".
He went like, "please,dont talk about it anymore?"
Then like ya, Actually on that point of time, I began to feel that urge to cry. I dont know why:(
Then we talked till its 1am plus.
We hung up the phone and i remembered him saying,
"i akan sentiase tunggukan you."
"I will always wait for you".
"I will always wait for you".
As in, wait for me till i could really surrender my trust to him once more.
Then i looked through my old messages and somehow, I miss my bestfriend, I meant the old times, when we're still single and naive about love. We both always stayed together but now, we dont really spend much time except in school :( I miss her already. Boohoo~
I felt bad for not balancing my time between Boyfriend and Girlfriend. Maybe someday will go out with you like we did last time okay? I seriously miss those times,girlfriend:(
I love you so much<3
So yeah, I wake baby up at 6:55 in order for him not to be late! :D I woke up early today! wink wink! Then he's on his way when he called, he asked ab0ut Brother than he asked whther i would go back to sleep again. HAHA! I was like, okay, i go bathe luhhh. xD
Hehhehe, then soon, he reached, I met him outside,
And yeah, baby looked awesome today, Just that I missed him so much through those times when he so called, "played a game" with me, we dont usually spend time after that, we dont usually laughed hard like we used to, we dont talked heart-to-heart like how we used to, Oh god, i missed those times. I missed him so much, so much that i feel like bursting into tears now :( Sighhh.
I guess till here then,
I'm going to the supermarket at Admiralty with mum,
I shouldnt have been awake by now! xD
sial jer aku eh.
Kay bye!
Love you readers!
xoxo!
Then i looked through my old messages and somehow, I miss my bestfriend, I meant the old times, when we're still single and naive about love. We both always stayed together but now, we dont really spend much time except in school :( I miss her already. Boohoo~
I felt bad for not balancing my time between Boyfriend and Girlfriend. Maybe someday will go out with you like we did last time okay? I seriously miss those times,girlfriend:(
I love you so much<3
So yeah, I wake baby up at 6:55 in order for him not to be late! :D I woke up early today! wink wink! Then he's on his way when he called, he asked ab0ut Brother than he asked whther i would go back to sleep again. HAHA! I was like, okay, i go bathe luhhh. xD
Hehhehe, then soon, he reached, I met him outside,
And yeah, baby looked awesome today, Just that I missed him so much through those times when he so called, "played a game" with me, we dont usually spend time after that, we dont usually laughed hard like we used to, we dont talked heart-to-heart like how we used to, Oh god, i missed those times. I missed him so much, so much that i feel like bursting into tears now :( Sighhh.
I guess till here then,
I'm going to the supermarket at Admiralty with mum,
I shouldnt have been awake by now! xD
sial jer aku eh.
Kay bye!
Love you readers!
xoxo!
i seriously miss you,baby
eventhough my heart has been partially torn by you,
Part of my heart's still yearning for your presence,
I wanna fall back and be in your arms,
like how i used to when i put my whole trust on you.
I love you,baby :'(
eventhough my heart has been partially torn by you,
Part of my heart's still yearning for your presence,
I wanna fall back and be in your arms,
like how i used to when i put my whole trust on you.
I love you,baby :'(
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