Hello blogg. Life's been a bitch, a trash, a nightmare that im never gonna ask for. and it happened. sighs. Its been so bitchy, Its been about two days since i used the technology, oh well, i may say, the computers and handphones. And fuckingly yeah, the old bitch still hasnt grown up to be more mature in handling stuffs like this. Some people may know whom im referring to. (: Suckish way of life. Every night i prayed, but somehow my prayers arent answered yet. Plus, Ive been having such hopeful dreams for the someone that Ive been missing lately ): sighs, Ive been missing that guy for long and've been spending my whole time writing on a piece of blank foolscap with I miss yous plus I like yous. You know, bored. Plus, sunday was the worst, Thought it was supposed to be a family day, i would call it Doomsday. LOL. dont laugh its not funny. Plus its been a misery for me being at home like ive never lived. -.- I hate everythings thats going on now, May it be Dad, oh school stuffs, oh the PASTS. I suddenly came up with the pasts. Like oh well, When he used to sent me home and yeah, the first time we met with his pink earstick ): Sigh, im sheding tears every night hoping after a tear i would sleep soundly, but i hardly did so. And yesterday was one. sigh, I kept listening to the voices of the past when he called me, Baby. Again and again. Its been a nightmare, its been horrfying me like deadly. I cant bear seeing him moving a step. i cant bear SEEING someone I LOVED to be with someone else. I cant. I cant accept the fact that he slipped off my bare hands when i cant reach out to him! Urghhh, Its been so haunting, Its been too scary, its been too hard for me to adapt with this new life im heading to. OH fuck, shit ass. I wanna move on, someone please move my damn ass. ): sighs. This morning, went to school alone, like i swear, im all alone. Its been so dark. plus its so early in the morning, I cried out that morning. sitting down alone at the living room. sighs. I was visualising the pasts when it starts rushing through my mind, I felt a tear flowed down slowly as i looked at the mirror and realised im hurt ): I never wanted this to happen to me, But it did. And the question is, What did i do wrong? What went wrong half way through our lively love journey? ): Cries. I'll continue right after school. I need to do some calculations for maths now. catch ya later,and psssst, I missed you, B ):
