Hello bloggy):

sigh, i was so so upset on what happened yesterday. let me write it all down. Yesterday, Brother was asked to helped out some things while Dad waited downstairs for him and yeah, Brother helped out unsincerely. It was unexpected as he straightly went upstairs when Dad went angry cause he was giving some look. Then sunddenly, i was ironing my school uniform when Dad stand infront of my door room and said, "you guys, dont ever ask me for anything anymore! Babi(pig)! Sial! ", i heard it all and it hurt me really bad inside. ): so i went out and asked mum whats going on and yeah, I did nothing wrong at all and i got all the blames): Then Dad went out from the house and kicked a few things): Then a few minutes, he came back in and suddenly say, "you guys, DONT ever touch my things anymore and dont even think you guys wanna eat, buy those food, YOURSELF!".. Yes , my heart shattered into pieces listening to my own Dad saying all those stuffs to me, his very own daughter. How can i not be upset? How can i not be disappointed? And how can i ever forget those hurtful words? It hurts, so badly. That wasnt the worst, He used to say that im such a burden to him and such. I cant forget those words,): Other than that, Finally i know all the things he had to say after all this years ): Then yeaaah, i remembered, everytime, I wasnt treated like a part of the family, im like an outsider. A stranger that knows nothing. Sigh. Everytime when i looked at the pictures hanging on the balcony, recalling those memories i had when i was a kid, when i was really treated like someone, someone special in the family, a daughter that he once dotes on. ): I dont see a thing now. In that picture, it just shows a girl, his daughter. Now im not. i dont seemed to be. sigh. Yes, i understand all this while , you guys (parents) has been concentrating on just one thing, Baby brother. I dont wanna be childish to say that they're biased and stuffs, in a real fact, yes. I was ignored. Nobody listens to me, except for my dearly friends out there and my siblings who are close to me. Other than that, Nobody): It brings me tears typing this down, knowing that it wasnt like the family/environment ive been before. Everything changed now.
and now phone's were confiscated yesterday night. everything's his's. Not mine. what a sleepless night yesterday thinking about all this stuffs rushing into me. Sigh.
Just yet, Im gonna miss someone badly): Sigh.
till here,
Lovves. ):