Whats actually Love?
From what i see now, i see none of it from you, bby.
None.
yes, You were so sweet when we first met, then after about two months then you turned so bad towards me? whats that? i understand you have to sit for ur N Levels this year. The reason why now is that, Why must you have a Girlfriend when all you do was having no time for me? I realise, You shouldnt have one now if im always a disturbance.
thats what ive been thinking, like always.
then we finally were in good terms.
then suddenly today, Big fuck luh.
again, he said he had to sit beside that Shahirah.
i was like, tak perlu sia if it was about that Girl.
then i replied uh, "If you Love her, Let me go, Im serious"
yes, i was really serious about that, what for? Holding on to this love when its only one-sided when i see is that you do have a heart for her?
might as well, you let me go rather than let me cry all day long right?
You used to say that your exes were all the one who dumped you and were all unfaithful.
and now, Im being wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too faithful to you, yet you didnt appreciate.
seriusly i dont know why guys are always this way.
then yeah, I off-ed my phone all the way till after school.
hes just apologizing.
i ignored everything, tell me whos not angry?
whats the point being honest when it comes to Shahirah?
My friends kept telling me to let him go, But NO!
Im not that heartless , You may do all those things to me, but i wont ever let you go.
Ive promised, and im holding on to it.
But somehow, its you that didnt hold on to those promises you;ve made before.
You kept telling me to be faithful and all, yes ive been faithful all the way.
but i was asking, were you?
Baby, whatever things you gonna do or did, I wont everever stop loving you.
But if one day, i wont hold on to this love, i would let it go for YOUR happiness, not for Mine. somehow, I always have a second thought when it comes to breakingup.
i will think, are those months we had, left just like that, wasted?
thats the reason why, i wanna keep this love we had for as long as i could.
If God's willing to give me that patience to settle this fights that we had these days.
Im sure, we could.
its about 6days till our 3rd month/
Baby, i kept thinking, will we fight till our 3rd month?
i dont want that to happen.
I kept staying calm, controlling those emotions that cant be controlled. And its really hard for me.
coz i cant bear to be mad at you for long, i just cant.

so baby, how i wished you could accept me the way i am, be faithful to one and APPRECIATE me how i appreciate on having you right now.
thats all i gotta say.

Nothing lasts forever, i know.