Yes, Good afternoon.
He did apologized to me yesterday, but its fucking late,
coz i didnt even message him at all.
i switched off my phone for almost the whole day.
then yeah, around 8 like that, he did apologized, i replied.
I dont know why,
after learning my mistakes ive done in the past, really makes it hard for me to let him go.
I dont know why.
then yeah, he didnt reply messages AGAIN.
fine, i'll get over it.
then today.
Fcuk, ive forgotten to asked mum for money to topup my ezlink and hell yeah,
im left with 70cents of balance when i took bus from house to admiralty.
i was like, damn it sia!
then, used my allowance to buy a standard ticket.
I dont know, Brother seemed to be really nice to me,
he gave some of his allowance. and thats so sweet. haha.
i thought Baby and I could make it up like the pasts when we used to sms everytime in the train with smiles on my face.
But no, It turned out the same.
What the hell?
then yeah, around 7, still no sms-es except from fiona.
then yeah,
finally i getup and tried to give him some reflection on the way he used to make me fuckin pissed.
so yeah, i did.
I thought he wouldnt reply that fast, and yes he did,
then soon, he scolded me vulgar.
all kinds of things,
i dont know why must he blewup till he scolded me Bitch,Ass, faggot.
Sucks sia! i was damn fucking pissed off uh!
then i fought back asking him, "what about you then?".
but i managed to control myself and not to cry or scold him vulgar, at least.
and i didnt.
then soon,
i felt like crying, but no.
I cant kept on crying when he kept on making me fall!
i was about to ask him for a breakup just now,
I swear. i was about to,
On my second thought, I just cant do it!
then i turned off my phone,
not wanting to see anymore hurtful messages he has to send.
so yeah, Im late for school.
Two times for today.
so yeah,
ThankGod, teacher didnt caught my hair:D
saved.
then first period was CME.
i told shahidah bout it, shes super damn mad luh!
i mean like , whos not angry anyway?
then yeah,
she really made me laughed whenever i dont have the mood to.
thanks alot to her!
then had P.E.
whatever stuffs luh, then around 9plus like that, he sms-ed.
im like a friend of his.
"Hey, Are you asking for a breakup?"
hes asking as if, hes really asking for one!
then yeah, i said,
"umm no, but to be frank, i was about to. but i just cant do it"
he replied asking what i treat him as now.
i was like, you should know yourself.
and somemore, i still cant forget those vulgars he put on me!
damn pissed, still!
then now, not a single messages from him,
i was like thinking uh,
Are you Busy almost 24hours until you cant sms me whether you finished school or not? thats so plain nonsense uh!
so now, people told me to do the same thing.
so i freaking wont sms him or whatsoever,
he wont care de mah.

Seriously, Just now when i reached home,
I looked through the sms-es we had lately.
its so different compared to now.
i realised he started to change from the 26th Jan.
i remembered when i called him that night,
i asked him why he changed and stuffs,
he told me that he suddenly changed when he getta know bout a guy who added me in friendster, sent me a comment.
I was like..
I didnt even know him, and yet uve changed coz of that, ONLY?
i swear ive got nothing to say.

I wasnt even in the wrong, But baby, whatever it takes, i wont ever let this relationship fell apart.
Theres ups and downs in everything in life, so ive gotta face it and make the change to it.
im trying my best to do so.
so here i go!


and ohoh yes! Finally, Sister was chatting with her friend,
and her friend's friend, once been in a relationship with baby,
i didnt know thattt. then yeah, we asked her what kind of boy was he?
a type which dumped girls around? then she said, Kinda.
i was like, once i heard,
i went confused and went to my room, I cried.
so far, i just cant resist,
i find it really so real,
as if hes really doing it to me!
That pressure kept pressing onto me, im down.
then i sms-ed him,
told him how i felt.
then yeah, soon after that,
he actually called.
so, we talked it out slowly.
soon, i realized, my thoughts were against me.
he wasnt that bad afterall.
ohmy!
then yeah, soon, we get along,
just liked we used to be, last time.
Im glad. Ive sort things out with him everything.
then he kept on asking,
Do you love me?
Alot of times, but i did answered, yes i do.
I felt relieved. so relieved,
that i could barely smile so wide.
ThankGod, im once again happy with him.
seriously, i dont want us to end.
God answered my prayer.
I love you as always baby,


So yeah, Till here people.
w/Double Loves(: