oh well, i cant really sleep yesterday night.
so yeah, i told him bout it, i was disappointed luh.
How can he possibly do his homework for almost the whole damn day?
and yesterday was a freaking saturday.
i was reallyreally damn upset.
somehow, the words from his ex's friend's mouth really made me think twice.
Blinded by sweet words man, i didnt even know whether hes really busy.
damn, i wasnt even accusing.

and yesterday night, i came up with this poem.
You promised to be here when i needed you.
I sat here waiting for you,
To confide everything.
Yet, You didnt turn up.
All i know is that,
The promises you've made were just words that came out,
that meant nothing at all.
Recalling the sweet moments i had with the old you.
when i spent alot of my time with you by my side.
with your hands to my waist.
But now, Im like being put aside.
Not knowing what actually going on.
Why must i be so naive?
Since then, im left all alone
without anyone to confide with,
But just tears that could company me that sleepness night.

Tell me baby, If you're not faithful.
tell me straight to my face, I dont wanna regret without knowing a single thing thats happening right infront of my face yet i didnt know what was it.
You're so damn suspicious to me.
Why cant you let me have faith in you?
im trying but you dont let me have that chance to do so!
Till now, I dont wanna disturb since morning i woke up.
coz i know im such a disturbance to you.
thats the reason why, I kept my phone silent with no vibrations.
coz i know, there'll never be any messages received from you.
Just none of them.

I dont wanna talk bout it anymore, its just giving me no peace at all.
baby, its all to you to decide.
I dont wanna say nothing no more.
People kept telling me to let you go, but the question is, Whats even going on?
yes, people do notice whats going on , but i knew nothing at all.
even mummy told me, to let go of him.
I just ignored her and go to my room.
I dont wanna make a rush decision without even giving a second thought. somehow, i dont wanna repeat the same mistake ive made before.
I dont want history to repeat by itself.
No, i wont let it happen.
Oh god, Please tell me whats going on here?! ):


Hereby , Todays 8th February, Mummy's birthday
i wanna wish mummy a happiest Birthday ever!
i love you so much mummy!
Hell yeah.

i had western food today due to Mummy's birthday.
Its really great, but the beef steak is so damn thick!
I cant even eat it, and i gave it to grandma.
haha! :D
then i just ate the egg and wedges.
LOL.
and yeah, i pitied my sister, shes been fighting with her boyfriend since yesterday.
and another 3days, its there 1st ANNIVERSARY,
yes im proud of them but at the same moment, why must they fight over littlest things?
Sister, cool down alright?
I knew uve been giving in to him for almost every fights you had.
I know you're strong, somehow, you've been there for me whenever i cry.
You'll always offer a shoulder to cry on.
I thankyou so much on that.
and yeah, Cheerup sis, Keep the relationship going on.
I know you guys could.


Till now, i didnt touched my phone, except to take pictures and looking at the time.
I didnt even sms anyone, neither do i sms him.
coz i freakingly dont wanna disturb him, who knows he'll be busy, even on sundays.
hell yeah, i wasnt being sarcastic uh.
so yeahhh.

Tiill here baby! ;D
Takecare human-beings.
W/double loves!