by Nur Faiqah Shahri

Cause they KNOW me BEST.

Only them, my family. They were there when i poured tears out like a zombie, NO ONE ELSE.

Where are the others?

Ask them.

Today,

nothing much though, just that i was waiting for someone who vowed that he'd call me during recess time. I never failed holding on tight to my phone, scared i might not feel the vibration when he calls. BUT. He didn't call.

Nope.

I was kinda upset about it but i just gotta remain positive and then waited for after school to come.

I went to meet my teachers for my malay oral practice. My heart pumped so fast upon knowing that teacher's gonna record my voice when tested.

Pfft. I got a topic on Traditional Games. The topic sucks much, i don't even fucking know what to talk about it. I jerked a bit while on a conversation just now. Damn.

I was released shortly at 2pm sharp where i went rushing to the gate hoping to see that someone who vowed he'll see me at 2pm.

But he's not there.

I went down waited at the bus stop, hoping that someone would alight from any one of the 851 bus service. Seven 851 buses passed by me in an hour.

He's not there.

I'm so tired and i could'nt help waiting. The reason why i waited was because i was scared he would have to wait for me when he arrives later on.

A matter of fact, i was just lying to myself.

i went back home.

He's meeting his cousin at 4 then i knew the reason why he didn't turn up.

i wasted my time,yet. AGAIN.

Am i stupid?

Yeah. Stupid + Ugly = Me.

Tell me about it.

And who's that someone i'm referring to?

My boyfriend.

Ok bye.