by Nur Faiqah Shahri
HEY! Yesterday i went out with Family.Firstly, we went to search for Henderson Wave at Hort Park. And with the help of the map! We found Henderson Wave. LOL. Ok. so i took some pictures there and i love the wind.
It'll go brushing your face and hair, you tend to feel like you're in Heaven. Chey.
Like real. Hahha.
After that we headed for the KTM railway since it's gonna be closed in one month's time. I told Daddy i wanted to take pictures on the railway track but somehow they have restricted some certain places. So yeah :( Didn't get a chance to snap that much photographs cause the place itself was filled with lots and lots of people. Pffft.
The moment i reached there, it felt like a Deja Vu. But actually, i went there before when i was young. lol me.
Okie. nothing much though. Tomorrow's SCHOOL.
FUCK IT, :(
okie bye readers
down @ 11:32 AM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
hi. I'm so down today.
Nah i don't know, just the feeling i guess
THISISPUREBULLSHIT!
Library with Boyfriend @ 12:35 AM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
HI! I finally have the mood to blog! pffft. Youtube was being a bitch just now! I can't seem to listen to Ashley Simpsons!! So baby snapped this pictureeeeeeeeee.In the morning, I texted him and i woke up early in the morning at 11AM!
i tried recording some video post butttttt, it was all so trashy and ugly :( So i didn't manage to upload it up here. I texted Boyfriend but he didn't replied me >:-(!
The next thing i knew, I texted him asking what he was he doing, he said he's getting ready to go out. I was like, BLANK. Then yeah he's getting ready to meet me up. LOL.
The next thing i knew, I texted him asking what he was he doing, he said he's getting ready to go out. I was like, BLANK. Then yeah he's getting ready to meet me up. LOL.I only had maggi curry for Breakfast and i can swear that my stomach yearns for moreee! pffft.
Then baby reached under my void deck, we set off to Tampines. The air-con in the bus is seriously not helping at all due to the sunny day! >:-(! SMRT PLEASE UPGRADE YA AIR-CON FACILITIES.
(see what did he draw on his favourite purple paper?! ALIENS! LOL!)
Yeah, went to collect his clothes and then we went o the library but the seats were all taken and i wanted a table and a chair! :( But there isn't any so we headed for Woodlands then. We took 168. One scary incident today, while i was walking to the bus 168, there's a commotion that took place inside a bus i was passing by. An old man was shouting, much enraged over something and he's standing around only a few centimetres infront of the woman he was shouting to. Damn it, I was very scared when i watched but Boyfriend was giving me a look like, "don't be kaypoh."
Hahhhaa. so i headed for the bus. It was very scary. I wonder what happened. Hello! I'm Singaporean ok. LOL!
We took this video. It's very cute! hehehe. we argued after that though somehow :/ he suddenly remained so quiet and it bugs me. We argued for hours and i was frustrated much. :( But the anger in me didn't stay for long. I just can't be angry for too long :/ So i texted him just now.
Yeah everything's sort out and we're fine now :)
♥ Happy 19th Monthsary baby :)
I hope this chance i've given you, you'd make a full use of it cause this is the last straw :)
I don't wanna have us breaking apart again then get back together.
Might as well we stay as one and work things out together.
Thanks for making me happy most of the time.
I appreciate it so much.
Without you, my world seemed empty :(
I just hope you'd take good care of me this time.
And yeah, i hope we take a step further than this.
I love you so much boy♥ (:
Goodnite readers!
UPDATE. PHOTO SPAMZ> @ 12:50 AM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hi hi Just now had a tiff with boyfriend. LOL.
KK. i was so bored so i asked Nasirah and Ziiyh for a meet-up. Thank god they lived nearby. I mean Ziiyh lived nearby and nasirah was with her. ^_^
Met up with them at Shop&Save. From far Nasirah shouted my name and she came running to me giving me a hug. How cute. hehe.
Then we searched for a place to sit down :)
Spending time with them is a total laughter throughout, you see.
Then yeah, time flies when we were laughing around.
Boyfriend came.
First thing i was sitting with Ziiyh.
Nasirah: Is that Qifa? in pink?
Me: (cause i couldn't see) I don't think so, he don't wear PINK!
Nasirah: shouts* QIFAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
And it was him,surprisingly. pffft.
We, FIGHT?
It's only for awhile luh. Hahaha. when you put us side by side, we'll be ok already.
Ironic much eh. I know.
:P
Huhu.
I'm bored. I SPAM MY PHOTOS HERE> BAZOOOOOMZ
K BYE! do tag :P
GOODNITE!
so this is your way? @ 2:36 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hi, second post can? I'm pissed now. LIKE, VERY PISSED. Lemme ask you, what if someone ask you to accompany him/her and you guys thought of the timing already. After that, you went to get prepared, put on your favourite dress/blouse and then waited for that someone. Then when you texted him/her, he/she never reply you at all.
Then you'll go all patient and waited.
The next thing you knew, he/she texted you, "can we go much later?"
And then when replied showing just how much you were pissed off.
They'll go, "i'll go by myself,nvm"
Pffffffffffffffffffft.
I mean like, "hey! I got all ready and you dare to say that to me?!"
Damn it.
So this is your way to make me happy? thanks.
vlog @ 1:12 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Instead of Blogging, I Vlog. Ok lol maybe cause i don't wanna type much so i summarised it in a video. I'm ugly i know. Ok that's it. My tagboard dead, TOLONGGGG. LOL.
K bye, love you readers!
Another post. Insecurities. Independence @ 1:26 AM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hi im bored. I can't sleep or maybe i am sleepy but Boyfriend asked me to wait so i am currently waiting for him but he hasn't come back for half an hour already :( Guess he's asleep?Sigh i don't know.
Can i share something?
Ever had a feeling that people who were there for you actually stood there only for secrets?
Yeah. Nah just random ya know.
I noticed nowadays. Oh well.
Skip from that.
I wanna talk about insecurities/things i do to getaway.
Insecurities suck BIG time. LIKE BIG, ENORMOUS.
Cause it does. You know when your boyfriend suddenly replied you so damn late and you'll be throwing your phone all over the place just for a stupid reply? And when you knew, the reply was a simple, "oh ok i miss you too" that kind?
It sucks doesn't it?
I'd always go around telling myself. "nah its fine, he can't be texting me all the time right?"
Sometimes i'd wish to do back but i can't.
You know, i really hate doing bad things to others cause from the start, my mindset is fixed that the word "karma" would literally BOOMED into my mind like some projection.
Then i'll go, Ok i can't do this to him/her cause if i do,i'm gonna get back twice of that shit.
Yeah i refrained.
But do you think by doing something nice would make you feel better?
Ask yourself.
Maybe it would, literally. But not for long as the feelings start to bottle up and then you tend to feel like shit. Utter shit.
Just an advice,
Don't be too nice to people, some will appreciate and take note of the good things you do but others don't . cause why? They're simply that way, you can't change them.
Yes you can be nice, but don't be TOO nice cause people will tend to take advantage of you since you won't complain,get mad or whatsoever.
Humans.
And plus, Don't be too independent on an individual.
You'll get a hard time if they were to betray/leave/ignore you.
Please don't. Just have some time and try to be by yourself without the need of having someone to be around me.
You have to learn to stand on your own. BY YOURSELF.
Cause at the end of day, YOU die ALONE. nobody's gonna be buried with you in your grave.
No way. My dad always tells me, "don't be afraid to lose friends now cause you have yet to enter the real world when it comes to job in years to come."
At first i didn't wanna listen but thinking back, its true. I'm still young. There's more to come.
What happens today meant nothing at all compared to the future.
Ok done.
True that my boyfriend fell asleep. Know him well enough.
I'm turning in now, gonna peee and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
I HAVE TO DO MY HOMEWORK TOMORROW.
FML.
Goodnite lovely readers (: do tag!
Today @ 12:21 AM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hi. I wanted to blog ALOT today but it seems that the mood has changed overtime. :/Guess its gonna be a short post. :-O
I wonder who's reading my blog. i bet no one :/
Ok. First thing, i was so lazy today. Just Lazy. I woke up at 1PM. Boyfriend texted me in the morning telling me that he's going off to JB.
The moment i woke up, he reached there alr. Lol.
Nothing much, i tried doing homework. I sat infront of a thick file of papers.
I tried doing the English paper. But i only answered two questions.
Damn it, i got no mood at all to do any theories.
Hm. I went to my Aunty's place at Vista Point. There's two babies over there.
And i swear i love them so much. So cute and mushy-mushy! Grrrr.
Oh well. Then reached home. I massaged Mum. And slowly we came to a topic whereby it includes me and boyfriend. Mum was like saying, "Make sure you guys are just friends eh, no steady-steady or whatever eh, later he ask for break then you go crazy. "
Lol,i was shocked that she wasn't mad. lucky me.
I miss boyfriend so much since he was away for so looooooooooooooong.
I can't stand the fact that my world seems lonely without him.
Hmm.
Ok.
All i know, I'm just hanging onto the phrase, "don't fall too deep."
Yeah. A matter of fact, inside of me, i'm terrified. Yes.
I'm not that completely concrete and fixed.
I can't guarantee that.
Tell me what am i supposed to do. It's been two days these weird feelings has been taking over me. :/
I have no answers to it. Only God knew how it feels like.
Neither i can't find the answers for myself.
Guess i have to wait a while more.
Oh well.
Goodnite.(L)
said you'll make me happy. @ 11:37 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
That (points up) shows what my life's about. Hidden. Bottled up. :|Hmm. I don't know what's up. Just my feelings perhaps.
You know when you broke a glass, even if you hold it up with a glue. It'll still look broken.
Yeah. Imagine that brokened glass is me. I'm not as weak, I'm more than fragile than i used to, another fall and i'd be into pieces; this time worse.
I fear not being handled with care.
If i were to be given a chance, i wanna be in pieces where i could hurt the person who broke me.
Everything's a theory now. It can't be done practically though.
SKIP>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
I wanna talk about my mummy. I had a long conversation with Mummy just now when we went out to Admiralty for awhile.
I asked, "have you been to the club? what is it like?"
Mummy answered,"it's fun. a lot of fun but you gotta be careful."
I asked, "but mum, if someday me and sister were to visit the club someday, will you allow?"
Mummy answered," yeah sure, i can bring you guys there someday. you can get in free :)"
I was like. OK.
Then mum told me about her pastimes where she'd be rather wild. Somehow. haha. How she'd enter club with my aunties while my cousins sleepover at my house.
Gosh, I didn't know she's like that. I thought she's those type of a good daughter. Chey.
Hahaha. Oh well.
That's it then.
I'm feeling rather lonely now.
Hmm.
Oh well, goodnite readers. I'm having Mothertongue Oral tomorrow. O's somemore. Die.
Love (L)
Photography. @ 8:07 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Which way should i turn? North/East/South/West? Where's my Mr.Right standing at? I don't wanna end up at the wrong side of the Earth.
Can you see just how beautiful the reflection of the trees and the skies reflected by the sea?That's how wide my love's for you.
HELLO.I'm just updating with pictures today. Hell yeah i love the nature. The feeling of snapping a photograph of it makes me feel calm.
I know my photography is not that professional cause' i'm still taking baby steps in towards of becoming a photographer. I wanted that badly.
I'll see how i'd do for my O's and get into the course to learn more about the skills.
Ok let me skip.
I went out the whole day with Family.
I felt kinda left-out, well not wholly but it's just the feeling.
You know, the feeling of, "he/she'll text me soon. I know he/she will."
Yeah that feeling. I waited, checked my phone for several times. It's just blank.
Hmm. Talking about that.
I've been texting Boyfriend eversince i reached home using the Starhub Websms.
Somehow, when i texted him. I wonder if that message seemed special to him or not.
Nah i don't know cause there's no replies to it.
I just don't wanna say anything uh.
Oh well, bye.
Maybe next time i should just update if i've got any nice photographs to be posted. ;)
Takecare readers, Muah.
updated, @ 11:49 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hi. Yes we got back. Yay. On his birthday that falls on 3rd June 2011.So basically, i took him back cause i feel that the next time he could take good care of me.
I just feel that i still need him to be around me.
I just wanna give him a chance and see what miracles could happen if i were to take him back.
Things went well, yes. Starting of a relationship is always the best but sometimes when it ends, you might need a physiotherapy. I bet cha. Or you might break ya eyes when you go on cryin' for weeks/months/years/beers. LOL. kk stop it.
Hmm. What i feel about him?
I'm starting to pick myself up and give it another try. I love him,yes :)
I hope things would work out well.
It takes both to make a perfect reationship. Not only one. It takes two.
we'll see about it ;)
Thanks to my girlfriends for givin' me their best support eventhough they warned me not to get back with him :/
I love them and my boyfriend.
seeing my princesses tomorrow (:
Goodnite lovers.
