by Nur Faiqah Shahri
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You look at those pictures right above? What pops into ur mind?
Sweet couple? Loving? Happy? We can last?
Yes, Possible.
Cause we WERE once very sweet back then, VERY loving, everywhere you see me, he'll be standing right beside hugging my waist, VERY happy, we laughed hard, we talked loud(nonsense) and just everything that's counted as HAPPY. We can last? We COULD but time was too harsh to hold on a single bit, i chose to let it go.
It's been months i've collected tears.
He was the reason behind the smile i used to put on my face.He was the reason why I laughed so hard till my tummy hurts.He was the reason why i slept with a smile.He was the reason why I never looked for another.He was the reason why I woke up with a smile.He was the reason why I never put on a frown (except when he teases me).He was the reason why I never walked alone.He was the reason why I had someone to turn to when i have friendship problems.He was the reason why I put up my fears.He was the reason why I spent my whole time with.He was the reason why I'm in love.
And those reasons are the reasons why he's still so clear in my memory, Never faded, Never disappeared of my mind.
But where did he go? Where has he gone to, for far too long? Leaving me with scars and fears i have to face with never ending tears rolling down my face?
Is there any reasons why he left?
Is there any reasons why this 'heartbreaker' took over him?
I don't know.
All i've been asking myself was,
Have i EVER do any wrong towards you?Have i EVER treated you badly?Have i EVER played with your feelings?Have i EVER left you alone?Have i EVER tried going for any other guys when i'm with you?Have i EVER not care about your feelings?
Yes, i admit.
I've been very hot and cold towards you after we broke up.
I tried to release the hatred and made you feel regret.
And that's the worst thing i've ever done in my whole life which is to hurt someone that i used to love so much.You know that i'm never close to that kind of person.
Sometimes i may sound so caring towards you, talking to you as per normal.
i am still confused why do you kept coming back and forth towards me.
Tell me the reasons why i should stay?
tell me what else can you do to convince me?
I know you can't.
I know you'd do nothing.
Even if you're reading this,
Have you ever felt a sense of pain in you?
How would you feel?
Would you even appreciate what i have typed down?
would you take note of the things you should do?
I miss the guy who used to make me smile like in the pictures above.
I miss the guy who never failed to be right next to me when i needed him.
I miss the guy who would do whatever he could so that i'm comfortable with him.
(Remember the Pasir Ris Park incident when my slipper suddenly got spoiled and you borrowed me ur slippers all the way till Woodlands?)
Why must he turned into a beast?
What did i do wrong towards him!?!
WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO YOU TILL I HAVE TO RECEIVE THIS KIND OF TREATMENT?!
why?
I don't even understand the reason why this tears kept rolling when i'm asking these questions,
My feelings towards you is like in between Hatred and Love.
How i wished i could regain this relationship and never make it fall at once.
How i wish it was as perfect as how it started .
Too bad, those are only WISHES i could make that could NEVER come true.
tell me what else i should do? :'(
How could you do this to me after all the things i've done for you, us? :'(
akukangensamakamu.
sigh. goodnight cruel world.
You're giving me too much pain.
I would've just taken a knife and stab right through my heart and YOU witness my death.
Labels: a wish.
the perfect one. @ 2:15 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Ok, i'm like so enthu now to update my blog. Don't know why.
Hahhaa. ok.
I came up with, "I don't need a 24-hour boyfriend, all i need is someone who would never gave up on me."
yeah. Ok yesterday i watched, Just Go With It. The story's about a man who lied to girls that he's married so that he can have sex with them(he never had with any) yeah. Then one fine day, one girl caught his eyes. He spent some time with the girl and he hid the ring, the girl found the ring and asked him whether he's married and she sounded pretty angry cause she's scared that she's just another bitch breaking up people's marriage.
then, this guy did whatever he could to get this girl, how sweet? he sent a bouquet of roses in person. He asked his personal assistant to be his 'wife' , since the girl wants to meet her up.
the funny thing is, they acted like husband and wife, he spent time with the 'wife's' kids and yeah. They spent most of their time together instead of putting the girl as a subject of why they started this whole thing.
One night, the girl asked the guy to marry her.
But on that night, the guy has just developed feelings for his personal assistant.
so he felt very uneasy about that, he can't sleep at night.
He called the Personal Assistant and they talked for awhile.
The personal assistant acted as if she had no feelings for him but she does indirectly.
Because she's very touched by the things a guy could do just to get a girl that he's attracted to.
that day, the guy cancelled the marriage and told the personal assistant that he love her.
And yeah, they got together.
Sometimes the perfect one is right infront of you but you kept running for others.
Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
I'm missing somebody :(
Ok bye.
Labels: carl :(
tae yang @ 1:14 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Im addicted to thisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
WOAH.
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH.
ok bye.
Carl is back :) @ 6:07 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Harrow.Lemme' tell you that i AM very HAPPY last night :)
Cause ya, I finally talked to Carl :) I mean like, i just said, 'buddy?'.
Then he said, 'yooo, suuuup?'.
Then i was OMG he replied luh. (Y)
I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS HIM CAN.
bill,your little comeback ain't gonna shake me.
If playin' me is what you really love to do.
I'm sorry.
You might stop lovin' this things cause i ain't gonna entertain ya a single bit.
I made my way to cheer u up cause i promised you, i'd be there.
Don't come around and start ur game.
I ain't playin' with ya bullshit.
Labels: I miss ya.
D,u changed. @ 3:21 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
I'm IN LOVE with that SYNYSTER MOTHERFUCKIN' GATES \m/
hehehehei'm like so bored so i went to Cameroid.com and SPAM. LOL. the tank top i'm wearing is like the lollipop the ChuppaChups xP I loike the colour pleassssssssssssssse. :D
OH YA!
Oh man, in the morning i was like, SO SO SO disappointed. I SWEAR K :(
Something happened lor. I didn't expect that lor. :(
I almost wanted to cry but sigh, what can i do about it anyway? :(
I told baby Jh bout' it. She understands. Sigh, you changed so much, D. :(
BOOOOO. Nvm luh :) i gotta be happy can, at least i;m happy with name on my fingers :P
Tomorrow i'm ending at around 9AM :)
WOAHHHHHHHHHH SYIOK! :P
Got one cute guy knock on the door just now, he needs to pass a letter for my dad. His hands were like shaking, HOW CUTE? LOL!
I sleepy sia.
:(
I WANT MY BABY SYN!
K BYE .
Labels: Hsq.
HEHEHE. @ 8:45 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
THISISFORSOMEBODY.
SORRY ME VOICE IS NOT NICE. :D I WAS TOO EMO SO I WENT SINGING NIA.
Thatsomebody's MY HAPPINESS. @ 3:43 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Wo yao ni. :( Hmmmmmmmmmm. Ok.
So it's like , That somebody's my happiness but maybe someone confiscated that somebody from me.
IDONTKNOWWHATTOSAYBUTEVERYTHING'SRUNNINGDOWNINME.TALKTOMESOON,
IMDYINGTOTALKTOYOU.ITSLIKEANEMPTYROOMWITHOUTANYWALLS,IFELTSOBOTHERED
YOUCAMETOMYDREAMSANDILOVETHEWAYYOUSETINCAUSETHEMOMENTIWAKEUP,
I'DBESMILINGLIKEACRAZYKID.IMISSYA.BUTIMSCAREDTOTALKTOYOU:(
.NOOSKCABEMOC
Labels: You took that frown away but u gave it back to me :(
Ji mo Ji mo Jiu hao. @ 11:52 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
sad.
SO WHATS UP?
Something new i've came to know.
Bill actually MOVED ON. Yeah. Shocking much i know right. But they've just broke up recently cause Bill can't possibly forget about the previous ex. :-/
I don;t know what to say :/
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
the song is nice eventhough i dont really know the lyrics.
The title is , Ji Mo Ji Mo Jiu Hao.
It means, - Lonely lonely more good.
But quite sad lor if you pay attention to the video.
I MISS SOMEBODY :'(
times when we played Angry Birds, and we'll get so engrossed killing those piggy(s). :( i came to that thought when i looked at the Angry bird soft toy my baby bro bought. (cute kan aku. chey xD) ya, missed those times Bill. those times.
Today so hottttttttttttttt.
I'm like one fried chicken nia at home.
pftttttttttt.
bye
Tmr going out with my babygirls for breakfast :)
Does it matter if you look ugly? @ 8:30 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Does it matter if you look ugly?
Carl :( @ 4:15 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
I went to the zoo just now (;
How cute is this?!
Snapped by me (:
Can i continue a story about Aliyah?Ok, here it goes, Aliyah's feelings toward Carl is getting more and more deeper :/
Every night, Carl would come to her dreams and she'd smile while she sleeps.
Wondering why did he have to go?
hmmmmmm.
sad life isn't it?
but those thoughts of him gave her the reason to smile.
Ok bye readers (:
suay @ 4:26 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hey. so boring today right.You can like dig ur nose and find the weirdest treasures sia. -.-
today so suay. I spilled the bubbletea, then kicked it and walked off to buy a new one -.-
what a waste of money, blame my brother asking me to buy for him and all -.-
(lol, when i know it was my fault.)
Then yeah, two indian men picked up the bubbletea cup and mopped the floor.
I felt rather bad, so i went up to them and apologised :/
Man, Aliyah's missing Carl right now ); bet Bill's flirting now. oh well, Bill no longer put 'Engaged' in Facebook after Aliyah deleted him. What's next?
Let me guess, Bill will change his profile picture soon (;
(his profile pic now is overlayed with Aliyah's pic on it)
P.S: if you guys dont know who are they, (the names mentioned), go back to previous posts.
So yeah. i'm going out soon. Bye.
@ 12:39 AM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
