by Nur Faiqah Shahri

Here's a story about a girl named Aliyah.

Yes, she exist but that's not really her real name.

Here's how the story goes.

Aliyah has an ex-boyfriend, they just broke up for about 1 month now.

They broke up because Aliyah could'nt stand the pain of long waits and being cheated all these while so she let go.

Aliyah's ex boyfriend named, Bill.

He kept runnin' back for Aliyah but Aliyah only has mixed feelings that can't be expressed nor to be understood. Bill was so desperate for her comeback and wanted to stop schooling despite knowing that Aliyah hates a guy that doesn't have an education.

Aliyah was speechless, even words could'nt change Bill's mindset.

Aliyah thought she has found someone new.

Someone that maybe could make her happy throughout her life.

But those smile of hers were just temporary.

Aliyah tried to make it up everyday to put up a smile for her girlfriends.

Behind those smile, she was just an ordinary broken-hearted girl crying inside of her room and nobody knows except Allah.

Aliyah suddenly had a crush on someone.

That particular someone named Carl was a very charming guy that brought her to the movies and they both cracked laughters about the childhood memories they encountered.

Aliyah then thought Carl's someone new that she have came across with.

Days goes by, Aliyah began to grow feelings for Carl but the feelings was rather insecure as she can't accept the fact that most part of her heart was occupied by Bill.

Aliyah tried everyday to not fall for Carl and sometimes act rather cold towards Carl so that she won't fall deeper. As days goes by, Aliyah's feelings towards Carl began to grew even more.

She could'nt find an answer.

Soon, Carl suddenly ignored Aliyah and never talked to her again don't know of what reasons there was.

Aliyah began to breakdown , not believing that Carl 's the type of person that comes and go as and when he likes, knowing that he's just an ordinary guy.

Aliyah never failed looking at Carl's Facebook profile but Carl could'nt care less of replying her inbox message in facebook or even a reply of SMS.

Aliyah had a hard time running back anfd forth in reality.

Not knowing what's best of both worlds.

She doesn't knows when's the right time she could be happy.

In wanting to accept Bill back, it's gonna cause her life if Bill's gonna play around with her heart again. Aliyah's too afraid of getting back with Bill.

Aliyah;s just trying her best to be nice with people and not let them down.

But sometimes being nice just let her down in every way.

Aliyah wished Bill a happy 17th monthsary that could have taken place.

Bill's just making her more afraid to get him back.

Aliyah's crying now.

Cause nobody appreciates.

And who may you ask this Aliyah would be,

It's the girl typing these words from the start.