I don't know what was i supposed to say. cause i'm the one who insisted this breakup :/

Not that i'm having someone else or i don't love him anymore. In fact, I do. I love him so much but loving him so much is just bringing me too much pain as time comes. Babygirls were very concerned of me, they were my 'eye opener', making me think of the consequences i might go through if i were to stay. Thinking back, how true is that i can't imagine. I burst into tears and i couldnt care less of my surroundings. :/

Through all these weeks, it's been just me, alone. Where were you? All i know, you were just too busy to have time for me. And how was i disappointed when i knew you could have time for your friends but not for me? even though i cried like some fool thinking u'd just make an effort to make me smile. yes, a lil effort by calling me up and all, but do you think i'm satisfied?

All i needed was just to hug you so tightly on that day before we broke up. :/

But you just can't be there even though i waited for an hour for you. I thank God my babygirls were right beside me when i was having a hard time. Why is it so hard for you to have the initiative to call me up using ur friend's phone or even a public phone? If i ever crossed your mind, tell you what, YOU WOULD. You would just do anything to inform me cause YOU KNOW that i WILL come down and WAIT for you. Why must you wait till i call you? Why arent your friends being nice to lend you just TEN-CENTS to make a call? You see, it's just the thought that counts, baby.

Thinking back, Who am i anyway?

If i was SOMEONE to you, even asking for TEN-CENTS won't kill. When it comes to you, I'd do whatever i could so as to tell you if i'm late or i've reached, just to tell you in case you've been waiting for me quite long. And when it comes to you, I rushed.

I rushed and in the end, I'm the one who waits.

Did i complain anything about it? Or, Was i ever angry towards you?

Nope, i'm pretty sure i was'nt at all.

Even if you took hours, I sat down there. With all i could, killing the time by listening to songs and sitting without any seat. My back aches so badly, did i complain?

Sigh, knowing all my sacrifices were just for show, aint it?

Even by appreciating it is sucha big thing for you to do.

Ya, maybe i'm just not as pretty.

nah i don't know, or maybe it's just you?

FROM THAT POINT OF TIME WHEN YOU TOLD ME,

From that moment, I've been very aware of your feelings, always taking care of it, just avoid doing anything that'll make you cry/sad/angry/disappointed.

I tried all i could but none of my efforts were appreciated.

What else do you want,love?

What else? Just, what's lacking in me? hm?

I SWEAR I HAVE NO IDEA.

And the reason why i asked you for break-up,

If you were'nt like this before, i guarantee you, i'd never leave neither would i have sleepless nights or even have doubts in you.

You started the fire.

And i was putting out the fire by forgiving you for every small - big mistakes you've done.

I tried hard but the flame kept on enraging furiously till i lost control of it.

if you think u deserve someone better, As you wish,

MOVE ON.

I've nothing left to say. I'm tired :(

bye.