by Nur Faiqah Shahri

So what's up? :) Well, today's not my day you see. i've been really down since morning, i don't know why :(:(:(:( Damn sad i swear. Sighs~ So yeah, somehow me and my ex - Qifa, we've been in good terms somehow, yes. We chatted and webcammed and texted and blah blah blah but still it's complicated. This is why. I've been crying since morning, I have that urge to read his first ever letter he gave to me :(:(:( Sobsob. Then i read it, when it comes to the "Love you Baby", tears came rolling like waterfall. I could'nt help it luh. Then i grabbed his shirt that he gave me. If you guys have been reading my blog since the day we first got together, the shirt he wore on that day was the one he gave to me when i have to go to Batam for school trip :'( Yeah that shirt. That shirt reminds me when our love's still young, that's when i received True LOVE, CARE,RESPECT from a guy. he's the first guy i swear(i mean the old him). Sighs. I kept crying and hugging that innocent shirt. I kept praying to God wanting the old him. I really really really miss that guy but i don't know when's he coming back to me and take good care of me.

He used to be the best i've never had in life :(:(:(:(:(:( Sigh. But he left me long ago after he changed into someone i don't really recognise. :(:(:( Sigh i need him physically now.

Where's he? He's the reason why i'm very confused now whether i should be back in love or should i just remain this way.

sigh my mind's too occupied, it's filled up with too much of these nonsense.

I can't stop crying :'(

I want the old him back, God.

Goodbye :'(