by Nur Faiqah Shahri

Don't mind with a second post yeah? Well. I had a talk with Sister just now. We went through almost the same thing, the same heartbreak, the same wound that can't be cured even by the most powerful medicine. Hmm.

Here it goes. I wonder, what did i do that made my boyfriend do all those things to me the past few months when he was super duperly sweet for the first few months we first got together?o.0

I swear i kept thinking about it over and over again. Thinking back, I've never make him upset that bad, I was never unfaithful, I've never contacted any guys behind him or even getting to know a new guy when i'm with him. Not saying that i'm an angel but seriously, why did it happened? What happened in between? Just what did i do that made me do these to me?

I seriously have no idea,completely. Guess, only God understands just how i feel from the start.

Talking about how much i love being with him is complicated. Cause the reason why i'm living now is because of the man he represented when i first fell for him. The man that never failed seeing me putting on a wide smile every single day, Never filled my life with doubts. And i knew that man was the only one that i needed in life. It turns out that things can't remain at its pace.

Things'll change. Either from bad to worse.

And now, I'm still together with him. Imagine a brokenheart being fixed by a glue? Just by sticking it all back together? Yeah, that's how my heart looks like inside of me. I don't know.

It's too fragile perhaps that i'm getting much more sensitive in handling things.

Hmmm. I wonder what outcomes are approaching me. I swear to God , i'm tired of crying, I'm tried of trying, I'm tired of giving. Every night before i sleep, The first thing that came across my mind was That Man i fell for, till now, I miss him so much.

I kept yearning for him but he doesn't know a thing just how much i need him :(

Babyboy i wonder just what are you doing right now. Maybe you're busy watching television or either you're asleep. I completely have no idea cause you have'nt replied my last text message and that was at 22:08, Look at the time now. Sigh. I completely have no idea at all.

Hmm. I won't be expecting for the worse, well, i'd just take it as if he's sleeping soundly now.

Oh well,Goodnight lovely readers.

thanks for coming by.

Goodnight! (: