by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello. Yes, i was bored. tell me bout' it man. I took this picture cause it tells a million words. I'm sad. yes. I don't know just the feeling of sensitivity i guess. Should be though. Haha. BabyBoy called me last night and cheered me up, I cried hearing his voice and i kept saying just how much i miss him. hmmmm. He was shocked when i cried though but he succeed in making me smile last night. Thank you so much babyboy :) Hmmm. I woke up at 630AM this morning kkay. I swear my eyes were bulgy. Met up with the principal. She set a criteria for me -.-YOU KNOW WHAT!? I've to get these = ( L1B4 < TwentyFive points) if not they'll ask me to make choices for higher nitec in ITE. what's up sia principal. You should gimme encouragement not pulling me down. WTF SERIOUSLY.Then yeah went back home likka zombie. Called Babyboy for so many times but he didnt answer any calls cause he's dead asleep. He asked me to wake him up yesterday you know! end up he woke up late :(:(:( then cannot meet up liao. Hmmmm nevermind, i find time tomorrow to see him perhaps. Okay then, now waiting for Dad to come home then go watch fireworks!
New Year's Eve yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
Kkay bye!
Love you readers!
nobody. @ 9:38 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello.Yes i'm tired, very. I woke up around 11AM this morning. Baby woke up quite late. oh well.
Then yeah. Thought of meeting him today but i sat at home waiting for his reply like a statue.
Mum texted asking me to go over her workplace. I went out around 4PM like that.
Went up to my sister's workplace and waited for her to end work then.
I don't want hope too much liao luh. hen lei eh. Serious :(
SIGH. then met up with Mummy then had KFC for dinner.
The Black Pepper chicken got me tearing slowly. hahahhaha. -_-
kkay, then yeah i'm home now.
Seriously, I feel likka NOBODY. WANT ME TO SPELL IT OUT FOR YOU?
N-O-B-O-D-Y.
kkay homies, i saw my new timetable for next year. AND OH YA.
I NEED TO MEET MY PRINCPAL AT MY SCHOOL TOMORROW IN THE MORNING!
FUCK IT CAN!?
IKR, IRRITATING.
Ugh bye!!
@ 3:06 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
HELLO!Short update kkay.
I know ive been changing my blogskin for a number of times.
HHHHAHHAHAHAHAHsorry uh.
Kkay.
Maybe will be meeting up with Baby later :)
Gonna snap loads of shots baby :)
Hmmmm. You know what, me and boyfriend played this game. Its like, who bathe and finished bathing lateeeeeeeeeee, one of us must be punished.
Baby finished bathing so late :P
So i punished him to gimme loads of kisses later on!
HAHAHAHHAHHA.
cute rightttt?
Okay, im addicted to the You're So Beautiful - Escape The Fate.
Kill my brother for me?
FOR DOWNLOADING THIS MOTHERFUCKINGSHIT SONG.
BUT I LOIKE.
HAHAHHAHA BYE!
i wonder. what did i do? @ 10:41 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello :)Don't mind with a second post yeah? Well. I had a talk with Sister just now. We went through almost the same thing, the same heartbreak, the same wound that can't be cured even by the most powerful medicine. Hmm.
Here it goes. I wonder, what did i do that made my boyfriend do all those things to me the past few months when he was super duperly sweet for the first few months we first got together?o.0
I swear i kept thinking about it over and over again. Thinking back, I've never make him upset that bad, I was never unfaithful, I've never contacted any guys behind him or even getting to know a new guy when i'm with him. Not saying that i'm an angel but seriously, why did it happened? What happened in between? Just what did i do that made me do these to me?
I seriously have no idea,completely. Guess, only God understands just how i feel from the start.
Talking about how much i love being with him is complicated. Cause the reason why i'm living now is because of the man he represented when i first fell for him. The man that never failed seeing me putting on a wide smile every single day, Never filled my life with doubts. And i knew that man was the only one that i needed in life. It turns out that things can't remain at its pace.
Things'll change. Either from bad to worse.
And now, I'm still together with him. Imagine a brokenheart being fixed by a glue? Just by sticking it all back together? Yeah, that's how my heart looks like inside of me. I don't know.
It's too fragile perhaps that i'm getting much more sensitive in handling things.
Hmmm. I wonder what outcomes are approaching me. I swear to God , i'm tired of crying, I'm tried of trying, I'm tired of giving. Every night before i sleep, The first thing that came across my mind was That Man i fell for, till now, I miss him so much.
I kept yearning for him but he doesn't know a thing just how much i need him :(
Babyboy i wonder just what are you doing right now. Maybe you're busy watching television or either you're asleep. I completely have no idea cause you have'nt replied my last text message and that was at 22:08, Look at the time now. Sigh. I completely have no idea at all.
Hmm. I won't be expecting for the worse, well, i'd just take it as if he's sleeping soundly now.
Oh well,Goodnight lovely readers.
thanks for coming by.
Goodnight! (:
SHORT UPDATE. @ 3:22 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
HOLA! MERRY CHRISTMASSSS YOUUUU PEOPLEEEE. YTD NVR UPDATE.SORRY HOR. WAS BUSY WITH FAMILY AND MY BEAUTY SLEEEP. HOHO.
NOW IM BACCCCK.
BUT YEAH JUST A SHORT UPDATE YO CAUSE IM BUYING MY BUBBLETEA LATER ON YOU KNOW. ^v^ HEHEHEHEEHHEEH.
THEN YEAH.
SCHOOL'S STARTING SOON. TOMORROW I NEED TO FUCK TO SCHOOL TO TALK TO PRINCIPAL THEN OFF TO MEET MY BABYBOY. HELL YEAH.
I GOT MY NEW SAMSUNG CAMERA FROM MUMMMY AND DAAADDDY CAUSE I PASSED MY N'S BABYYYYY. I DONT KNOW WHY I STARTING TO LOVE PINK NOW. FUCK THATS THE COLOUR OF MY CAM. HAHAHAA. KKAYYYY.
BYE ANYTHING ASK ME THROUGH FORMSPRING OR TAGBOARD.
ADIOSZZZ.
Good guys. @ 12:50 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
♥Hello. I wanna come up with a topic for today's post.
Its about Good Guys.
As you can see, nowadays, hot guys are all over the place breaking every girls heart (not exactly all). Majority of them luh okay. Yeah. So what's up with these hot-looking guys? I really don't get it what do they actually want in a girl, I wonder what kind/type of girl would make them satisfied and be faithful enough -.- I seriously don't know. I don't get it seriously and it's a vice versa for the hot girls too. Tell me are you a victor after breaking someone's heart? Probably you're just a loser, a goner cause it's your loss! I'm seriously unhappy. Such good guys go with such bad girls and in the end, they changed to a mean guy = Jerk. What more can i say? I've been with these kind of guys before but they're like NATURALLY a jerk already, they were'nt heartbroken before in life so they broke my heart just like smashing a piece of glass that meant nothing at all to them. True? yeah.
I really wanna know physically, how does it feels like breaking someone's heart? I mean like, Really, how does it feels like? Satisfied? Happy? or what? sigh.
Good guys are really hard to find nowadays, 1%? I guess they're all taken. I hope those girls who em' would take good care of their heart and not break it like there's no tomorrow. Fuck those girls if they were to do so. Sigh, i've really not much to say.
Sometimes, me, myself, being sucha faithful lady meant nothing at all. I remained quiet when it comes to guys chatting with me and flirting like wtf, then somemore some of them are attached leh. Wahlao, i bo talk with them man. For fuck sia seriously.
If being faithful meant nothing at all, how about if i play along? I bet nobody would like it either.
Plus, ALWAYS whenever i have a thought of playing along, my heart says no.
I barely do things back to them as a reflection cause why? I don't have the heart to do so.
I've always have that soft spot of mine that make those guys think that's my weakness. Nope, it's not my weakness. It's just part of me. I fear karma.
Yes so that's it for today. i'll come up with another topic perhaps tomorrow? oh soon?
hehehe. I'm super bored now though,
well, feel free to ask me questions at formspring :)
Takecare, Love you readers! ♥
(sorry i've got no pictures to upload today, i'll take pictures soon) ^v^
empty @ 10:01 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello. ^v^I've been crying badly last night. Things happen, Sigh. I feel so damn useless i swear. I can't do a thing! PLUS i hate witnessing everything! :(
Sigh. hope things are going to be okay, :(
Hmmmm sigh.
I feel so empty now, really empty.
wtf k bye.
Kristal's 16th birthday, Today. @ 7:17 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
With my girls!
Birthday girl crying while browsing through the boook
Preparing before birthday girl arrives!
So that's all the pictures for yesterday.Gossiped with Kristal's mum was cooool!
Birthday girl arrived and went crying yesterday cause we picked her up late.
She cried cause her babies can't wish her.
But everything turned out welllllll!
I love it thjough :)
Overall it was fun, thought Honey would be fetching me , but no :(
Sigh damn sadddddddddddd lor.
Momentum damn down de. :(
Then went home, i reach home around 9PM going 10PM, i damn tired.
I sleep till noonnnnn.
I woke up expecting for messages but there was none. I only received a call from Honey around 12midnight. :(
Sigh. Walked around at NEX - Serangoon. A new shopping mall :)
Yeah. nothing much, i put on my new heels, oh maybe a Stiletto. The tip of the shoe is very small plus my toes were squeezed, i had a hard time walking. The pain is like IDK WHAT TO SAY, i feel like crying. Thanks to Mum&Dad, they bought me new flats, very cute ^v^.
Kkay.
I damn no mood now lor.
Honey's leaving when i thought i could celebrate my birthday with him tomorrow :( But no.
UGH DAMN SADDDDDDDDDDDDD.
tmr need hand in application form in sch, damn annoying uh.
cannot email mah!?
Cb.
i go now uh. bye.
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Passed my N's @ 11:55 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
hello I PASSS MYYYYYY GCE' N LEVELS OKAYYYYYY! ^v^! I'm like flyingggggg the moment i got hold of the certificate manz. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOZ!
But yeah, eventhough i'm happy, not completely perhaps. :(:(:(:(:(
My babygirl kept crying since just now and i'm like helpless not knowing what to do!
Now even when i'm home, all i've been worrying about was my babyKristal's birthday and Jinxian :( sighhhhhhhh. My head can burst i tell you.
Damn sad i can't do anything sia.
WAHLAO. then yeah, Dad asked me to just go ahead for sec 5, so yeah. CHIONGGGGGGG UHHHHHH!
kkay. Ex-boyf's not answering my calls, not replying my text, confirm sleep liao lor :(
AIYOOOO SO GOOOOOOOD.
KNOW HOW TO SLEEP ONLY, CANNOT WAIT FOR ME MEH!?
GRRRRR.
kkay i going sleep bah! ^v^!
Goodnighttttttttt!
New blogskin @ 7:01 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IM DONE !How's my bloggggy?
Gimme comment on my new tagboard! teeheeeee ^v^!
I'm so happpppy can cannnn!
I want go bathe now hoooor.
kkay bye, tomorrow i update again.
Anything can ask me through formspring or tagboardzxscz! ^v^!
Im pleading Innocent @ 11:37 AM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
♥HELLO! (look up) My eyebags are like getting heavier. I dont know how many kilogram already sia. Hahahaha!!! Oh well, yesterday i went out and meet ex-boyfriend, pei him go marsiling to buy some stuffs and i was so silly that i was ABOUT TO drink the Mango Milkshake with a spoon. Very cool eh ^v^! I woke up at 10AM today, Baby brother's been really annoying, kept making such noises till i can't sleep no more >:-(! Maybe i'd be meeting ex-boyfriend later on for awhile. I don't know bah. :-/ Now we're like having a little tiff over a small problem -.- Aiyo, head pain u know! :(
Hmmmmmm. well now i'm listening to song Innocent by Sean Kingston or either Bruno Mars. I swear both versions are very cool to listen to! ^v^!
Go search it on Youtube! I'm addicted to the song already :-/
Okay, My formspring's runnin' dead again, Ask me questions kkay!? :)
Tomorrow's my Judgement Day, well not only for me.
For the other graduating students too! :(
Well, Good luck to you people okay! ^v^!
I also have no confidence, actually. :-/
kkay bye bye! ♥
Can u read the time and date? @ 10:02 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
OH HELL I WAS MAD.But i've calmed down. Oh well. I got enraged all over Facebook. What the fuck eh, hahaha.
Who's not angry when people kept wanting to argue and argue and argue for things that has already done but mistaken? Not tired meh? I damn tired lor. Everyday fight, like married like that, just that i have no children yet, kkay wtf. HAHA.
uh. Then we were chatting, we sounded fine. Suddenly he sounded off mood like that. I was worried, Aku ader luh tanyer-tanyer kenape ngan dier, jawab cume "nothing". Okay that one i okay uh, then i thought he'd call me up and share me with what he's unhappy about but he didnt. Instead he rejected most of my calls and i got no idea why -.- Skali the next thing i knew, checked his facebook profile, He said i was pretending and he won't believe my words no more.
I was like, What's up, again?!
What's up with posting it on facebook without even asking me or even tell me what i did wrong sia. -.- Damn lame lor. Then he suddenly texted saying he won't bother me no more and he said, "you're free now!". I was like, which guy came to him and asked whther he can have a chance ?-.- Super annoying can. I was damn mad, I swear i've never spouted vulgarities on him eh, for all these months i've been with him, i've never done that but he made me too.
suddenly it reminded me of my blog post yesterday. Then i realised he mistaken the wrong thing -.- This is why i kept asking you to tell me why, you refused to. All you do is making me dumber than i thought i can be . -.-
Then now, tau pun nak sedih bile i maki, who not angry seh u tell me uh?!
Wahlao, then somemore you're like making a bad impression of me in this relationship. i was the one who "asked for a breakup". I'm the bad one luh, han orh.
Aiya.
kkay bye, i damn pissed kkay.
tmr need go school somemore.
kkay byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Kiss kiss!
pagi pagi takda mood. @ 10:30 AM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Eh hi.In the morning, my heart went pounding so hard i swear, like it's coming out like that. LOL.
kkay lame sia. Then ya ex-boyfriend commented on my post. Meeting up? hahaha i don't think so. With your behaviour like that? (malas aku). Then yeah, kkay this shit got me laughing and somehow pissed off eh. Just nice this morning, i got this sentence in mind wanting to type it out on Facebook. I did, I said, "It bugs me when a Minah claims that she's not a Minah. ohmygodz, how un-cool can these people get? No offence. ^v^!".
so yeah. BAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA he assumed that i was referring to his beloved friend. Sibei.
Like i got time sia dot dot dot eh. then. han orh, i said sorry for nothing lor. -.-
Sibei annoying can. Make me wanna smoke sia. HAHAHAHA.
Maybe meeting up with Kristal or something.
Mum told me, my bank has got 64.60$ inside.
LOL I WAS LIKE, CRAP!?
KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKAY.
I go now.
I WANT SIBEI SMOKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE .
once again. @ 12:46 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Went scape with Babygirls. :)There's more pictures in Facebook :) You can go see it if u want too.
Oh well. Very cocked up life i had now. Fought with ex-boyfriend really bad last two days over a few misunderstandings. :( Sigh fucking sad hor my life. ohmygod.
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs.
Yesterday was fun with bbygirls and yeah Baby Jinghui's working so she cant tag along. You get well soon okay love :(
oh well.
I'm not really in the mood now
Maybe going out with ex-boyfriend tomorrow and pei-ing my babygirl go do her stuffs :)
bye :)
will u come back? @ 5:00 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
HELLO. Im back. Imma pour everything out here now. Been long since i've blogged. Hmm.So what's up? :) Well, today's not my day you see. i've been really down since morning, i don't know why :(:(:(:( Damn sad i swear. Sighs~ So yeah, somehow me and my ex - Qifa, we've been in good terms somehow, yes. We chatted and webcammed and texted and blah blah blah but still it's complicated. This is why. I've been crying since morning, I have that urge to read his first ever letter he gave to me :(:(:( Sobsob. Then i read it, when it comes to the "Love you Baby", tears came rolling like waterfall. I could'nt help it luh. Then i grabbed his shirt that he gave me. If you guys have been reading my blog since the day we first got together, the shirt he wore on that day was the one he gave to me when i have to go to Batam for school trip :'( Yeah that shirt. That shirt reminds me when our love's still young, that's when i received True LOVE, CARE,RESPECT from a guy. he's the first guy i swear(i mean the old him). Sighs. I kept crying and hugging that innocent shirt. I kept praying to God wanting the old him. I really really really miss that guy but i don't know when's he coming back to me and take good care of me.
He used to be the best i've never had in life :(:(:(:(:(:( Sigh. But he left me long ago after he changed into someone i don't really recognise. :(:(:( Sigh i need him physically now.
Where's he? He's the reason why i'm very confused now whether i should be back in love or should i just remain this way.
sigh my mind's too occupied, it's filled up with too much of these nonsense.
I can't stop crying :'(
I want the old him back, God.
Goodbye :'(
Selling tickets. @ 3:22 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
♥
HELLO . :)Been a few days since i've updated. hehehe. lazy uh.
Teeheeee. yesterday was fine, well i'm somehow behaving as if i don't care. I dont know, just the attitude i guess. :-/ hmm, Canny texted me yesterday about events coming up on the 23rd on the eve of Christmas at Zirca :) Don't mind approaching me for tickets yeah readers if you're interested. It's around 22-25dollars the tickets :) 16 and Above yeah. Anything ask me through formspring :) So yeah. Yesterday, Love was like kinda upset with my behaviour. He told me i wasnt like before. Just the way i texted him and the way i treat him now.
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM,
Guess the breakup has got a big impact on me i should say. :-/
Not that i have another guy(scared to move on also) but yeah, I'll always love you :)
Just that my head's really can't stop spinning, like a washing machine, you know?
Tak kesian kan kite ke? :( Hmpft.
Okay luh.
hehehehee byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i miss my girls! :(
I've just started selling tickets, do help me up yeah guys?:(
Love you readers!
MUAH!♥
SMD eh. @ 2:11 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
HELLO.ZIBAI EH, i typing all the way then i accidentally deleted everything! GRRRRR! I very angry nowwwwwwww (turns into hulk). HMPFT! Okay, it's been three days we've gone on our seperate ways. :( It's been threeeeeeeeeeee fucking days we're still contacting BUT things are not clear for me just yet -.- Okay seriously, i felt like as if i've lost my mind you know. I didn't sleep last night. I swear i hardly breathe, that's a normal thing for me. BUT, this time i kept having that urge to cry. Hmmm. I don't know why. Like, seriously :( I wanted to blog, but Brother just can't be bothered you see. Sigh. I woke up in the morning, was hoping i received a short text from him. yes. He texted, asking, "Do u hate me?".
I was like, For how many times are you gonna ask me? my answer's gonna remain the same. NO. It never crossed my mind to hate you even for awhile, I was just disappointed in you.
Oh well. I went out and ease my mind for about an hour, walking to places nearby my house. reminds me about all the things i've once shared with him. Sigh. Stupid eh. if got such accidents in life, i want those that could knock my skull and POOF, "i don't remember my name", "huh? who are you?".
WOAHHHH SYIOK I TELL YOUUUUU. HAHAHAHAHAH!
okay random sia. WHERE IS MY PAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!!??1?
You want me to call the HR of Long John Silver is it!?
SMD eh.
Okay bye! ♥♥♥
loser me @ 3:27 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
I'm sorry for taking things to rushy. I was really cocked up, really mixed up, really messed up.I'm like entangled in between two statements. True and False. i don't know. I maligned before and i was scared to choose which path to listen to. I have no idea what must i do, who should i listen to, who should i trust, I completely have no idea. Migraine can take place any moment. I cannot seize this moment to see what's best for myself. I'm still caught up. I'm just waiting for something to show up and show me what's going on! I'm so confused. Man, what's up with the world? :'( sigh. For a moment i was so strong, for a second thought i'm never a winner to succeed this challenge. I'm just a loser.
Goodbye.
