I'm in your heart,like a genie in the bottle.

breakup. @ 11:10 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

Hello.

So this is the end of you and me. We had a good run and i'm setting you free to do as you want to do as you please WITHOUT me. Maybe God's just giving me these challenges to go over. I'm strong enough to go over, i know i am :') hehehe, I'm not even crying now. Maybe i'm just used to it, being played about, being lied to, having break-ups for i don't know how many times already. Tsk, people just can't change. A player will always be player,right? Well, what can i say.

I got to know, you're now getting to know with a girl from Hougang. Wow, fast! Somemore yesterday when i thought your cousin's fetching you up at school? Yeah so much of your mum going off to Johor. Tsk, how dumb was i to actually BELIEVED you. Ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod, i'm so dumbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb. YAY -.- And you said you were asleep and sent me a goodnight message that's somehow typed AS IF you were "asleep" when you're hanging out with your friend. Bravo. A++++++ ! I BELIEVED EVERY SINGLE WORD YOU SAID and this what i get? LIKE, FOR REALLLLLL? when i don't trust you, You said, "trust is important in our relationship, without trust, we might as well go on our seperate ways". ZAHAHAHAHHAA.

So much of trusting you huhhhhhh BABY. sigh.

TIRED luh okay, T-i-r-e-d.

oh well, i got over it. Fast wasn't i? (like real). HAHAHHAA. i confirm will start my crying sessions tomorrow like crazy. HAHAHHAHAHAHA. okay nonsense eh. xD

I'd be sending all the stuffs he gave me to his mum tomorrow. :) All those teddy bears, aiya.

Okay luh, i wanna chat with my babygirllllll.

BUAIZ!

Don't leave my formspring dead leh :((((((((((((((

hehehehe goodnighttttt lovely people!!!!!!♥

Labels: dont come back, i wont wanna see your face.

Morning seems beautiful @ 1:24 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

HELLO! :)
I'm back, sorry for not updating. Been busy with Family. Yeah! :)
hmmm, saturday, Had Ayam penyet and i swear i'm soooooooooooooooo bloated that i could vomit if i smell fooood after that! :-/ But but but, Weekends' when i rarely text with Baby.
Reasons were, my prepaid's low. And baby's sick :( awww.
I bought a necklace for myself yesterday, It says, LOVE. Me likey-likey! Cause it's in gold and it's only $9 at Diva ! :) KOI was the best bubble tea i've ever had manzscxs i swear!
The milk tea can make you go crazzzzzzzzzzzzzy. Then after that, you don't have to eat liao.
HAHAHHAHA. okay.
In the morning, i received three text messages, From Mum♥, Baby♥, Babyros♥! Hhehee, Mum was about all the groceries i have to buy, Baby was a Goodmorning wish! and i felt so special when he said, "seriously, i miss baby so much.." . I was like uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Okay, Babyros texted me saying she's back last night :) Great news!
Hmmm, After i had my bath, i quickly went down to the public phone to call these people, Baby and BabyRos. :) Sweeeeet right i know :P Then baby's voice sounded so cute !
Talked for awhile with Babyros then i had to go to the market and buy some groceries.
Sadddddddddddddd eh, i go alone sia. Brother can't be bothered _|_ .
Still haven't had my breakfast :( Me so hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
OKAY BYE BYE!

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I miss you. @ 2:50 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

Hello ♥ I'm not really in the mood now.

Somehow looking at those pictures are just making me peep through those memories. It'll then make me cry like a baby. God, i can't help it i swear. I thought anyone, just anyone could cheer me up but nah, Baby brother's just making me cry even more, Boyfriend's asleep and girlfriends are all busy :( I have no one. I've lost so many important people i might need in my life. Tell me what's left? :( There's nothing i could do except reminiscing for the good memories i could still treasure. I remembered those times when i needed someone, she was there. She sat there with me, she cried with me, she held tight on me. Now, i've lost her.

uh damn it i'm really in need of a big hug right now.

people, appreciate those loved ones you have now, before something happens, you might lose em' all. Hold on to them tightly.

Love you readers :(♥

our 1st anniversary. @ 12:14 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

Yesterday was the best.

We laughed the fucking hell out of our asses but still we're like total bestfriends.

So close that we talked about dirty things and everything openly.

Yeah he love the cupcakes i've baked for him. Was in a rush though.

So now, one of the tasks from my list is done :)

Am satisfied, still got lots to do with Boyfriend. I wonder how long we'd last.

Hm. This morning was okay. Then came again, the same moody situation.

I've got no say.

What i know, i enjoyed yesterday.

Love you readers!

hee @ 10:53 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

CONFIRMED PROMISEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I'll update tomorrow.

t @ 11:11 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

TOMORROW I UPDATE OKAY! :) Hehhehee tireddddddddddddd.

been waiting for tmr @ 11:54 AM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

HELLO! :)
I thank that person who questioned me yesterday. It pissed me off actually. -.-" it's a dumb question i swear. Who was it i won't give it a guess but yeah, I DON'T HAVE A DICK. If i have one, you may suck em'.
HAH. Okay so last night, i was kinda upset when baby rarely text me so i kept on putting on sad faces in every text message. Then Baby called me. I WAS LIKE HOORAAYYYYY-INGGGG.
Then got in my room and talked to him for awhile, i was really so happpppppppppppppy.
Okay. Then i texted him for a goodnight. I checked my formspring then i saw the question. I was boiling by then, I texted boyfriend hoping he could calm me down. He did. He phoned me and talked to me. And not forgetting those, "i love you" before he hung up the phone. I remained silent then followed with a Goodnight. I swear i miss him so much.
Hoping to see him today, It's been two days since i've last been with him :(
12 more hours and it's our 1st ever Anniversary. I hope tomorrow's gonna be worthwhile.
I've planned to head for ECP for the day. Hmm. i don't know what to get for him. Guess, i'm gonna make a huge card for him. Oh well.
Bye for now. Gonna have my brunch and sleep like a pig. Like seriously there's nothing else for me to do -.- sian much.
Love you readers!
xoxo.

what's left for me to say? @ 6:52 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

Hey. I appreciate for that somebody who adviced me on Formspring. I totally appreciate.

Well, after that morning, i woke up and received a text with a simple Sorry with a sad smile. I wasn't exactly contented seeing that text message but i felt somehow normal just that i do still believe i'm living in a lie. :( I remembered that night when i rest upon your t-shirt that you wore on our first day. I put my palm onto it and went into a deep sleep. I swear i was sleeping soundly as i traveled back to the old times when i was with him. The way his hand runs smoothly through my fingers felt so real. I swear at that moment i'd prefer living in fantasy than living in reality with full of changes i won't expect to be in. After that night, i woke up with tears cause i do, i do miss him (the old him). The one who always put me first above anyone else. The one that i believe could make me smile for a longer period than now.

Time passed without me knowing. what else can i say?

In the beginning, i've always have this sentence playing on my mind.

It says, "He's never gonna break my heart, no, no."

So tell me now, is it working? Nah i don't think so. I don't know for whatever reasons that i've done wrong to you that made you make me suffer this way. I completely have no say.

For now, this morning i was so sure you woke up earlier but you would'nt make an effort to call/text me. Its okay. I acted stupid so i kept calling your phone to so called, "wake" you up .

Things were okay, yes it is. But this little heart inside of mine remained wounded. I had enough doing all the talking and committing so much in this love story. I would wanna take a break.

Now, In two days is our First Anniversary. Are you gonna come late again? Or are you gonna make it early and special for us? We'll see,honey.

Sigh.

i love you readers.

xoxo.

Labels: u dont make sense at all.

Disappointed @ 11:09 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

hey.

I can't sleep, headaches, cramps just won't leave me alone. :(

Baby called, yes i was waiting all the while by the phone. I was trying to catch some breath and i swear i can't breathe that smoothly :( Hm.

How disappointed when i saw those photos you were tagged in, when i thought you were really heading to your aunt's place to eat cause you're too hungry. I was worried so i hurried you to go quickly. I ate too much of your lies. I think positive straight ahead, thinking you would be going there and get your stomach filled up with protein but i was wrong. Tell me was i dumb? Tell me was i too humble? I don't know. I'm tired, honestly :'(

You promised me you'll never smoke again after what happened to you last two days. I thought you really controlled hard not to smoke and you did. Tears went pouring down my cheeks and i couldn't say a word. I'm speechless; Completely out of words. What's left for me to say when even saying won't change a thing? I'm disappointed in myself most of all. I couldn't change you. Sometimes i just think i'm not the one for you cause you would'nt listen to me and i can't change you for the better. I'm utterly disappointed with myself. Oh Allah, I've tried all i could, I couldn't do a thing. I wanted to relinquish most of the time but i couldn't get enough with thinking or even deciding. I'm too feeble for a new start of the day; Tomorrow.

Sigh.

What more's coming my way?

Goodnight :'(

z dot z. @ 4:41 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

hey.

I do this,WRONG. i do that, WRONG. I dont wanna do anything already uh.

I go sleep now.

BYE.

ME @ 1:00 AM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

♥♥♥♥♥♥My personality:

I’m loud.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic.
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
I have a bad temper.
I don’t like people.
I’m easy to get along with.
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked.
I’ve smoked weed.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.
My appearance:

I wear makeup sometimes.
I wear a piece of jewellery at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I have braces.
I change my hair color often.
I straighten my hair often.
I have a piercing.
I have small feet.

Relationships:

I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
Im crushin’
I’ve missed an ex before.
An ex has physically abused me at least once.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships:

I have best friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.
One of the person you can trust starts with the letter J and he/she is older then you.
One of the person you can trust starts with the letter F.
Have fun juniors.
Have fun seniors.

Experiences:

I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been on a train.
Someone close to me has died.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on a computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music:

I listen to R&B.
I listen to country.
I listen to pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until i hate it.
I hate the radio.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.
Acoustic

Television:

I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I’ve seen and liked the O.C.
I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill.
I’ve seen and like Americas Next Top Model.
I’ve seen and like Popular.
I’ve seen and like 24.
I’ve seen and liked CSI.
I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family Life:

I get along with both of my parents.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I have at least one sister.
I have a twin sister.
I have at least one step brother/sister.
I have at least one half brother/sister.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve ran away from my home.

Hair:

I’ve been brown. 
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve been red.
I’ve been light brown.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
I use conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.
I’ve ironed my hair.
I’ve braided my hair.

School:

I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve been suspended.
I’ve had an in-school suspension.
I’ve been sent to the principals office.
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed Art.
I’ve failed P.E.
I’ve failed math.
I’ve failed science.
I’ve failed another class.
A teacher has called my parents.
i scored an A for art.
i love physics
i love chemistry
i love biology.

Nothing much @ 12:39 AM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

EH HI.
morning was *YAWNNNNNNNNNNNS*. I'm like so addicted to my bed that i can't make a stand. Hahhahahah. Damn sleepy i swear even when Baby texted me, i read it 1 hour later. :P
Tiredddddddddddddddd :((((((
Then woke up at 10AM, EARLY OKAY xD
Did nothing much, had breakfast and yeah. Waited for baby to reach home and then meet up with me. It's been hours since i waited. It bugs me. So i called him, he sounded like he just got up from beddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRR >:-( !
Then yeah, told him to go back to sleep bah.
We had a small fight cause we aren't meeting up. Cute or what ehhh/?
Got out from house at 6PM then met up with Baby.
Did nothing much, but it was fun seeing him looking so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
*jaws dropppppp*.
HAHHAHHA okay stupid sia.
Okay i admit, Im bored.
OKAY BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
next stop ----> TUMBLR.
BYE!♥♥♥♥♥LOVE YOUUUUUUUU READERZSXZXS!

Left 4 Dead @ 11:24 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO.

Woke baby up at 720AM then went back to sleep likka pig.
Then yeah met up with baby and went to Bishan after waiting for him for awhile at Toa Payoh. Heh. He came sitting beside and gave me a quick kiss (I LOIKE). Sweeeeet eh. xD
I was flattered much. oh well. teeeheeee. then went to repair his phone and yeah went to Land games and played Left 4 Dead :) It was worthwhile playing with Baby,Cousin,Brother. hahahhaa.. i'm like the only girl :-/
Hhahahhaha. then yeah i laughed hard when baby got shocked when i hugged him by the side.
THEN WENT HOME> DONE.
Okay buaizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz♥♥♥♥♥.

JEALOUSY is a STRONG word. @ 8:20 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

Eh hi.

I'm back. Me miss mah? I know right xD

Okay.

I was kinda HEARTBROKEN yesterday so imma bit moody and quiet.

Text messages will go SHORT then yeah it's easier to be read or replied. LOL.

Okay right? Fucker sia me. Okay.

Morning was like aiyaaaaaaa, so cold. Baby called me for three times but i was dozing off still.

Called him. Yeah. He's kinda mad when i said,

Baby, Can i, not see you anymore?

HAHAHHAHA, i talk nonsense when i'm sad, so MAKE ME HAPPY WILL YOU!?

YEAH Right eh. TODAY SUPER BORED I SWEAR UH. wahlao.

But i finally getta eat my LONG JOHN SILVER. Ohmygessz.

I miss my baby so much lor, hmpft.

Now he never reply all my text messages cause i somehow put him aside when my cousin came my house for visting. Sad :( Sorrrrrry much baby, i SAID SORRY.

I told baby off just now about the feeling of jealousy when he add girls without fail -.-

I don't know why, HEART PAIN /♥ i swear okay.

I miss my girls.

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH where my pay's coming!? #$^&*&%**%%&&&&&&!

the clothes at blogshop are like yearning for meeeeeeeee manzszcxcxccxsss

COME FASTER YOU MONEY!

UGH!

okay bye ♥

fucked up life. @ 11:10 AM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

Eh hi, been long since i've update. I just got terminated from my fucked up job at LJS yesterday. Fuck the manager i should say :) Heh. Oh well.She got fucked up by Mum onthephone. How great? :) Might be sending my uniform back to them later evening. And get my 20$ back. LOL.

I woke up at 7AM, but Sister's going to work for the first time. oh well. Then i logged in Facebook, Which i shouldn't have. Cause it made me restless till i can;t get back to sleep.

I saw Baby's status. So much of sucha happy talk we had last night and BOOM, this status.

Came along with a big question mark on my head, seriously don't know a thing at all!

I kept tossing and turning, i kept thinking what's up but i still i can't figure out a thing. Seriously this morning's fucked up. :( i kept finding solutions but he's not picking up any of my calls cause his cell's off. I was crying all along but i can't do a thing. Asking brother won't help at least -.- I talked to him, he turned and went back to sleep. What de fuck. i swear i wasn't in a good mood.

First thing, i'm tired and second thing, i'm just clueless. Sigh, i kept making assumptions and hoping i could cool down but i simply can't. Fuck yourself, Ieqah.

Then yeah, I thought of calling his house number, so i did. my heart was thumping as if it'

s about to pop out! Then his brother answered the phone, i felt relieved at least and i talked to Baby for awhile but he ain;t telling me anything. sigh, i don't know uh.

Damn fucked up life uh.

I thought we are gonna be as happy for the number of days we didn't argue. sigh.

So much of missing him. :(

BYE.

Moodswing or what? -.- @ 9:22 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

Eh hi.

Today fucking ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh, damn sleepy i swear.

I slept at freaking 2AM please. Then the next day woke up at 8AM then yeah, I got up and got all ready. hell yeah my eyes were like PowerPuff Girls i swear. Hehhehehee.

Then rushed to work.

Yeah, FUCKING WEIRD ALRIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

I knew you're already awake, no texts, no goodmornings. Tsk. So much of Monday Blues! -.-

Annoying much can. I kept texting like some idiot, kept looking at my phone for no reasons.

Han ah, i use prepaid sia, i text you like 67567154737487386879892 times until it has no balance also you won't reply me uh. -.- Damn weird uh wahlao. I no mooooooooooooooood.

Bo bian uh, what to do sia. I kept calling like some bitch also dont want pick up.

Sua uh i don't care liao lor.

Tomorrow working in the morning. hmmm :(

Fuck care already uh.

Wo bu yao ni. :(

Bye.

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