by Nur Faiqah Shahri
I miss you people so much :'(
♥♥♥BABYBOY, Through those times we've shared those tears and laughters from the start, I swear i miss it now. Not only those, But you, yourself. I miss you incredibly, :'( But look at us now, we're, different. C-O-M-P-L-E-T-E-L-Y :'( Ohmygod, i swear a million times i missed you doubly more than i used to when i had to go for Batam.For now, We met on Tuesday i guess when i cried with you listening to the problems you're facing. I feel you, I cried. You know baby, You're somewhere inside of me :'( With you giving me this cold shoulder, I just don't feel right, i feel lonesome :'( Maybe it's for the best, I'd stand low.My dear baby boy, I miss you badly, like seriously♥ i hope you could take good care of yourself while i'm gone :'( I'll wait up for text no matter what, i'm still not giving up on you anyway. Thus, Goodnight my love, I love you :'(
Now, i miss my Daddy :'( I used to be his favourite, He dote on me last time cause i'm the only one in the family who looked completely like him. I remembered those times when I had a diarrhea when he accompanied me to the toilet and waited for me outside, I was only 5 and it's so cute that i gave him my panty, he was like, "why gimme? Go throw it", My siblings went laughing at me at the back when i walked with him. He scolded them to keep quiet and bought me a new panty.But now, as i grow up, we're like drifting apart, i became a disappointment to him. I made things that he hate, Slashing my hand and etc. He just hates it when i hurt myself so bad cause he felt me. :'( After all those times i've hurt him indirectly, I realised i'm no longer the one he dotes on. But till now, I regretted for all the things i've done that caused him hurt, that made him cry to bed and he said, "i don't know what wrong have i done till you turned this way, am i being a bad parent?". Seriously, i cried too and hugged him and said sorry but i know it won't cure the huge pain i've caused him.Watching him tear, I felt so guilty and nowadays he's been busy with work, I rarely see him. I'd always sleep before he returns home. And somehow, deep inside my heart, i truely missed him dearly :'(
My babygirls, I didnt go to school today and for all those hours spent at home. I truely miss you girls. I missed laughing with you guys and gossiping around. I really miss it :'( If i knew things would have been this way, i should have come to school just now and spend all my time with you babies! :'( I wonder how's school just now. Sigh, I miss you girls so much! You babies better study hard for Monday's paper okay? Must do well together and we got for Secondary five! ♥ Hope you babies are doing fine, must not fall sick okay! Must come for all the papers! I love you babygirls so much! And i'm sorry that the picture i left out BabyJinghui and BabyJinxian :(Goodnight babygirls.So yeah,
I miss these great people. They're the best. I could'nt afford to lose them all :'( I don't think i'd live. Sigh. Life's been a jackass nowadays. I wonder what's with myself? :'( From just now, i felt like vomiting straight, I've completely NO APPETITE to eat. My goals of being fat is a NO WAY if my body's gonna continue with these.
Maybe i should'nt have light up just now,
Oh God, Help me please. :'(
I'm in so much pain. :'(
I love you readers! I'm gonna update soon okay.
- First woke up early and went to supermarket ALONE :'(
- Then went to Ang Mo Kio and walked around,
- Next was Dhoby Ghaut and we walked all over Plaza Singapura and took a lot of pictures with brother :)
- Met up with Mum at her workplace and get some $$ to buy food.
- Went to Somerset and looked at the Skates, Its AWEZUM.
- Then went home and i'm worn out now.
BUAIZ♥!
Labels: I need you people, Not only miss
