by Nur Faiqah Shahri

I damn sad. Fucking sad. I just can't define how SAD am i.

You knew that i missed the hell out of you.

But your replies were like, (oh okay.)

It's not satisfactory that i want, I want you, your love.

Wasnt that so simple?

Enough of the pasts, i'm fucking sick of it and i can't help it enduring the pain bottling all the feelings that i have now.

Those doubts that i have in me, I feel like telling the whole world!

It's just the minority part of you that made me blunt to all the things you did.

I'm too humble.

Boy, loving you is like sleeping with a pillow with iron nails.

I've been having sleepless nights these days.

You've got no idea.

What i'm feeling inside, you just don't.

I can't find a way to let it all go. :'(

Seriously, fuck my life.

oh boy, if it wasnt love, i would have left months ago.

But it's the feeling that got hold of everything here.

And now, the pain of feeling the moment you hang up the phone,

the pain of waiting for your goodnight wishes,

It's just unexplainable.

I can't explain it with words,

Probably with a million tears, i would.

I don't wanna be the dumb girl who doesnt know that her heart is broken.

I'm tired of being that girl.

Show me true love, let me feel it coming.

i'm not giving up on ya.

I'm still believing :'(

Goodnight