by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Love.You people may think, when someone's in a relationship, they're happy.
Nope, they were, when they first met but not till things starting to get into a mess.
Sometimes i wonder why i fall in love? I wonder what's the best thing i've received upon giving the love that i had in me? Pains? heartaches? Nah, i don't know.
Love remained undefined. Even if now you're in love with someone, there's no guarantee you might be with him till whenever. There's never a life story that i've heard teen relationships last until afterlife,never.
I'm just screwed with life, i'm fucked by my own life. I don't know, how i wish no one ever introduced me to this 'love' thing. But things move on so fast that i could'nt remember the first time i've somehow fallen for a guy. Tsk, it's just a feeling that made you go crazy.
If only i had no feelings at all, bet life would be YAHOO. i guess?
It's better that way yeah? You won't be mad, sad, angry at anyone. You won't even cry even if you're hurt. Gosh, i wanna be that way.
But too bad, god created us to have feelings and emotions that we could sometimes control but sometimes we can't get a hold onto it.
Ever thought about what's the point of you being in a relationship but the other party just could'nt get his eyes off other girls? Being ignored when he/her is with their friends and let you be alone? Having to be worried/sad over the other party's problems when they actually had none, just to see whether you cared/loved him/her?
Sometimes, i just feel like i'm the one creating this bullshits in my life, i created it and it multiplied and got me down.
Sigh, there's nothing i could conclude on this feeling.
I'm just too tired of getting hurt, too tired to fall in and out love.
I'm just tired of getting into such mess in life.
Fuck my life kay ,
Okay, in school.
I realised, today in school, it's been relaxing. Free periods throughout cause English and History teacher is on MC. so yeah. And then rain came pouring like cats and dogs, we're like icecubes in the class with the aircon turned on. zzzzz.
Then had my NE survey, it was pretty annoying. School's budget, so face it. hah.
Then had Maths and end of school. It was quick :)
Escaped my damn Motivational workshop cause it's a waste of time.
I'd rather be at home and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep luh.
Hoho, walked to Novena with Ros<3 . hehehe.
Then yeah, thought baby would reach early instead he's waiting for his friends -.-
Okay luhh, sigh.
guess today's not my day.
Okay bye.
xoxo.
a long post, hell yeah.
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