by Nur Faiqah Shahri
what's within that sad soul, gimme some words to let me understand ya.Hey! :)
Bacccccccck. Been away for days. Hehehe.
So yeah, previously have been a hard time having to endure all those ignorance given by him when it comes to his moodswings. I was really heartbroken indirectly, somehow man will get so heartless when it comes to satisfying their ego rather than having initiative to make a woman feel better. disappointing much. Yesterday was like the worst! When woman care, woman will eventually advise and somehow get a lil' bit pissed with it cause a man shouldnt ask when he knows what right and whats wrong. sighhhhh. I felt so mad yesterday and Baby dont have to pretend, sometimes when you're lying, your mouth moves but your eyes tells it all okay?I wasnt in the mood by then and finally Baby revealed the truth, my heart went sinking like Titanic being hit by the worst thing ever! You kept on apologizing, sorry sorry sorry but somehow can it cure the sudden pain you've caused? Even by words, it can never move me,baby. If that thing is much more important than me then why keep wanting to go for it? why? I hold you tight yesterday even if you strengthened your hand to let go of me,i never lose a grip on you cause i care so much about you and i want you to THINK hard. =( sigh. I broke that thing into two with that anger raging and threw it and you're already gone. I went searching and tears kept flowing,i felt so worried of you. So worried and i wonder what problems have i ever caused you. sigh. You came around and hugged me tight, somehow i just give myself away, I've forgiven him deep inside but the pain is still aching, still appearing never vanishing. Oh Baby, Yesterday was a great disappointment, I really hope you'll think hard and do things right next time, this time i simply let you off, i hope there's never a next time baby. Please. :(
So yeah, today was as usual.
The last P.E lesson i had was 2.4 run, My timing was 16:01, To me it was a BIG JUMP, last year i had 18:19 -.- yeah, fuck cigarettes heh. I was like chiong-ing all the 8 rounds luhhh, woohooo~ Then,I've been having breathing problems since a few months ago,I dont likeeee thattttt feeelinggg, it suckkks ya knoww? =( grrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I got so indulged in Mathematics, let me spell out, M-A-T-H-E-M-A-T-I-C-S ! Hahahha, Today had my maths test, it was sickly not enough time plus i remember all the methods but i have yet to write it down on that paper. shittttttzx. Grrrr. then was Mothertongue, Never was mothertongue so alive! with Mr.Roslee,It was incredibly CRAZY! Almost over ANYTHING, we'll laugh like hell plus he gave us Lollipop when we left the class! :) like woohoooo~ today's the best, NEVER felt lonesome,i felt so used to it! I LOVE IT MAN! :DDDDDDD
Huhu! Then yeah, Had POA extra class after school and went home, Very fatigue plus my whole legs has been aching =( I neeeeeda massageeee, anyone?:P hehhehee.
Tomorrow's Friday, I feel like ending tomorrow now and have my Saturday&Sundays for GYM! :D
HOHO! Kay byeeee! ;)
Mum,I nk new phone boleh? Pleashhh? u dah ader E63,i pon nk hp baru sheh! =(
Alermaaaaak.
I rindu my boyfriend luhhhh~
HAHAHAH. random heh.
xoxo!
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