by Nur Faiqah Shahri
uhhhhhh, Today's the best as per usual :) Okay, I slept SUPER EARLY yesterday but yet i've been having eyebags the next day! It's not fair okay ! I slept at 22:00 hours alright! GRRRRRRRRRRRR, I got so stressed up looking at those damn eye bags. =( Then, headed for school, Brother's been a lil' grumpy so i couldnt care less to go school without him. I reached school and headed for my class, how helly situation it was to have your VP walking right infront of you, walking ahead. I sneaked in my class and was glad that she didnt notice me. Hehhee. Then yeah, Called baby during after mothertongue and he sounded super cute :) seriously. hehehe. Recess was ironic, we stayed in class instead with Mr.Lim who helped me out to clear my doubts on questions i can't solve. He's been observant lately, always coming to me and asked me if i've got any questions. I appreciated his approach :) Thank you Teacher :)
After school, Met Baby at Novena Mrt. I walked with him and he went laughing, i was trying to spot what's funny and i saw Zul then, so that was the joke. =P naughty baby!
While in the mrt, I laughed super hard and i really can't help it! Damn funny. Then we alighted at Yishun and walked all over Northpoint and lastly we went to the library.:)
The library's not quiet alright, it was bustling with noises all over. We grabbed books to read. Zul had to go and Me and Baby stayed. We read books about Islams and the things we can't do and stuffs, It was strict,extremely. But it's our beliefs so i have to know. Huhu.
After that, we had Oreo McFlurry and took 969 back.
I laughed EXTREMELY hard in the bus and Baby somehow looked rather worried. I laughed continuously and i didnt stop, even if i did, it was only for a point of time. Hahaha!
My stomach simply ached after every laughter.
We alighted the bus and walked by the pathway, he plucked some leaves and waved on me like those medicine man trying to cure people who're exorcised. He went saying things like, "go out from her body", repeatedly. HAHAHAHAHAH! i laughed like damn mad lor!!!!!!!!!!
Ohmygod, Baby seriously made my day lor.
Hhehehee, he sent me home and he spent time with my TALKATIVE baby brother :)
Then yeah, he headed home and i stayed at home.
I'm currently having sore eyes on my left eye, :( How despondent.
Baby advised me to wear spectacles now :( I DONT WANT :(
booohooooooooooooooooooooooo~
Tomorrow onwards i'll be sitting for Mid Year Exams. :]
Wish me luck and pray for me please. Thankyou!
If i have the times, i'd update.
GOOD LUCK FOR THOSE SITTING FOR EXAMS! (L)
Study hard okay!
and 4N2, let's go to 5N as a class! we can do it =)
Okay, goodnight readers,
I so love my boyfriend. Text me soon okay! (L)
BYE! mwahhhhhh~
Labels: HAHA, my laughing box is still in me
our fifth month @ 6:22 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello! Now, I'm gonna start with HAPPY FIFTH MONTHSARY MY BABYBOY! :) Hehehe, So, I woke up early eventhough i asked baby to wake me up at 7am when he woke up at 8am! Hahaha, So i'm okay with that :) I woke up and got ready, Soon baby reached around 10plus?
(Thanks for the chocolates! [I took picture of it only when i realised i've eaten three of those] HAHA!)
So yeah, I was PRETTY blur today though, Baby knows how irritating and super SOTONG am i today! HAHAHAAH! We walked to Causeway Point and i realised he's got something on his hand, somehow it looked like a tattoo cause he always wants to hide it from me ! :( So yeah, i remained patient xD (you'll see the 'tattoo' below, keep scrolling! )
We walked and suddenly i said, "My head's the size of BigBird!", Then i realised there's an error, we laughed like hell! HAHAHAHA! Only we both know what's so special about BigBird. HAHA! :P Then suddenly, after we crossed the traffic light, He's influenced by my Sotong-ness, He said, "we should'nt have walked here, we should walk there, There's fans inside!", I went like, "Since when does the bus interchange has installed fans inside?!". HAHAHA! we started of the meet wih huge laughters. Heheheh :P
Your kisses are like magic, i felt weak whenever it touches my skin.
So yeah, we took 963 to HabourFront centre! We sang in the bus :P Hahhaa, Its a duet luh! :P Hehehe, it was so cute luhh! WOOHOO, we reached there and we talked about the old times when i cried while waiting for him to end work. L-O-L!!! Hehehe, Then i proved to him i wasnt crying near a dustbin cause he's been saying all the while that i cried beside a dustbin!! :-( We went to the place where i waited, NO DUSTBIN! :P hoho! We walked to his old workplace and off-ed to the 'water-water place' (that's how i called it) Hehehe,
We walked around finding a suitable place to sit, Not so hold, not so cold :P hehehe, we did after we walked around :) Huhu! I forced him to soak our legs in the water and he did ! :P Hoho! We laughed hard and i really love the 'CHOP' on his left wrist! I simply loved it! you'll see it soon! :) Hehehe,
I forced Baby to take pictures all the wayyyyy and he's like, "you're so pamperedddd! Grrrr!" HAHAH, :P still,I'm your girlfriend! He kept sprinkling/splashing water on me ! I got all drenched with water and he washed my make up! (GRRRR!) hahaha ! Baby's super cute luh! :P
You're the first ever guy who've treasured the date we first got together.
Baby took this picture and i'm lovin' it! :)
We played with water and soon it rained, :( we got into the shelter and i helped him pulled down his pants :P ahhaha! Then we walked around the pet-pet place :) we watched Dogs being groomed and Dogs playing around. DAMN CUTE ! :P We laughed like hell,serious shit lor. HAHAH!
We watched Cruises at the Cruise Centre and then went to eat Mac Donalds ! :) after that, he took me to The Cocoa Trees when i showed him chocolates i love super duper much! :) Surprisingly he said, choose which are the ones you like. I went like, Oh wow, let's watch the Cruise again! :P Hahaha! But he wasnt playing :P So we spent some time choosing and weeee! I've got chocolates!!!!! :P
We then took 963 back home and I knew he's worn out after the long walks, i fell asleep and he did too :) Somehow, watching his head tossing around made me feel that he's uncomfortable so i woke up this time and watched him sleep :) Soon, we reached Woodlands and i realised a teardrop flown down his cheeks after he gave me a kiss on my forehead, I was like, Why did you cried?:-( HUHU, i love you okay baby! (L)
We got down and i just kissed him on the cheek when my eyes caught sight on my sister then comes my family just about to turn at us, I freaking ran and hide cause Mum helped me escape from Nyai. xD We hid behind the Photo Booth then bought my prepaid card and off-ed to our hangout place :) hehehe! Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I love the times i spent with you today! It's such sweet memories we HAVE to treasure;)
He's splashing water on me! How could he! He got all my handprints of water on his pants! :P
Now that's my Pretty Baby Boy! :) I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING THAT MATTERS IN LIFE (L)
SO YEAH, that's about today! This special date today is our Fifth Month! :) we'll hope to head further through those rough roads and with faith trying to make it a smooth journey till we reached our destination;Undefined. We'll last long if we believe we would and we will :)
These are all yesterday's photos when i'm off to Malaysia to have my stomach filled with FOOODDDDDDDD! :) wooohoooo~ I was bloated and i sang hard in the car with my Dad and Sister with Mark Anthony's sweet songs ! :P hoho, I sang till i ALMOST lost my voice,thank god i i didnt! :P hehehe!SO yeah, thats about it!
I SWEAR BABY, today's the BEST OF THE BEST! :P
hehehehe, okay im off now, been quite long on the lappy!
Maths homework still untouched! This friday, MYE STARTS! WTFFFFFF you tell?
GRRRRRRRRRRRR.
kay bye!
hahahaa
xoxo.
Labels: you're the air that keep me breathing.
bye @ 4:38 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
i can never deny that, I need you. Cause your love's just like magic,when you smile i got out of control. Let me tell you, I love you every moment.Bye people!
I'm going to Malaysia, just a short update. I'm gonna get ready after this then. I'm abit off mood, Baby's replies are all -----------. Okay,i want go bathe now. Bye lovvvves! Dont miss me!
Labels: while im gone
i love you so much @ 7:48 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Your kisses are like sensations everytime our lips come in contact♥;
Morning was okay, Had a tough situation with Baby yesterday when we argued hard :( Apparently, My limits were about to reach the maximum but faith just won't let me break us apart so i wasnt adamant for a breakup eventhough Baby was getting on my nerves, hehehe. Reached school, as usual. I realised Laren has been my buddy! :) Being there whenever i'm slow. hahahahaha :D I wanna say THANKS,Laren :)
I was kinda sleepy for the last two periods, with Baby's T-shirt under my face, I dozed off within a few minutes but Danial Salleh disturbed my beauty sleep,CURSE HIM! :-( No luhh, just kidding. hahaha! Then after school, I didnt know Baby would be around:) I realised today i was so HYPER, as in VERY ACTIVE ! I would purposely disturb him and make him go angry. HAHAHAHA! I was so happy today. seriously i love today. ♥ hehehe.
Then after that, i spent some moment watching some movie clip in his phone, touching movie and a lesson to learn from, I love it when he kissed me a lot of times when i was so engrossed with the clip. Shortly after that, It rained heavily with thunderstorms making scary sounds every moment,It was scary. It's cute seeing baby putting his head down saying he's cold. Hehehe! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABY! (L)
♥
We walked back home, the lightning was super eery. :-/ I had my bath and met him after that, :) I'm sorry baby if i was a bit CRAZY for the whole day xD hehehe. I'm just so happy. I THANKYOU FOR THAT :)I can't wait for 25th April 2010 ! Two more days! Our Fifth Month BABY! :DDDDD
yahooooooooooooooooooo-eyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy-oyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Okay thats it!
BYE!
xoxo.
♥♥♥BABY, I LOVE YOU OKAY, PAHAM TAKKKK!!!!???!!
♥♥♥BABY, I LOVE YOU OKAY, PAHAM TAKKKK!!!!???!!
HAHHAHAA!
miss you already lehh :(
MWAHH!:-*Labels: crazy me
i miss my lip piercing. @ 7:01 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
i'm so missing my lip piercing!!!!!!!!!!! UGHHHH! :-(
Hello hello hello! :D
Morning was as usual, yeah. First period was Physics and i'm so delighted that I PASSED! Hehehe, the marks were constant, Just like my previous tests :D I'm so loving it !
Huhu, Then was D&T, SUPERLY BORINGGGGGGGG~
blah blah blah, nothing much about school. What i know, I've been stuffing chocolates in my mouth whenever George gave me, Those chocolates were like Heaven, (enak BANGET!).
Huhu, after school,i had some bread alone when Raj and the others came up to my table and sat with me while waiting for 215pm to get ready for NAFHA test :)
Heheh, got up to the hall and yeah.
Everything was fine having it as a class :)
I'm glad i passed almost every tests ! :D woooohoooo~
then got home shortly after that :)
I called baby at Novena Mrt using public phone since he texted and he got worried somehow. Huhu. SO yeah, Im home
Tomorrow meeting Baby :D
Another 4 more days till our 5th Monthsary BABY! :D
Iloveyou!
xoxo!
Morning was as usual, yeah. First period was Physics and i'm so delighted that I PASSED! Hehehe, the marks were constant, Just like my previous tests :D I'm so loving it !
Huhu, Then was D&T, SUPERLY BORINGGGGGGGG~
blah blah blah, nothing much about school. What i know, I've been stuffing chocolates in my mouth whenever George gave me, Those chocolates were like Heaven, (enak BANGET!).
Huhu, after school,i had some bread alone when Raj and the others came up to my table and sat with me while waiting for 215pm to get ready for NAFHA test :)
Heheh, got up to the hall and yeah.
Everything was fine having it as a class :)
I'm glad i passed almost every tests ! :D woooohoooo~
then got home shortly after that :)
I called baby at Novena Mrt using public phone since he texted and he got worried somehow. Huhu. SO yeah, Im home
Tomorrow meeting Baby :D
Another 4 more days till our 5th Monthsary BABY! :D
Iloveyou!
xoxo!
@ 9:04 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Oh hey,
just now was unexpected,didnt know he'd fetch me up and he did,
Hoho,
Alot of maths homeworks to be done and i have yet to complete any,
'sighhhhh.'
Tomorrow there's NAFHA test, oh gees.
yeah im lazy to update . heh
Met baby just now. Yeah i love him, but he's not replying my texts, super late ones, I hate waiting.
Kay bye.
Joke. @ 8:17 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello hello! :)
Yesterday night, Met Baby for awhile :) hehehe,i love you sayaaaang.
Then morning was as usual, I had my cheesy egg sandwich in school just now :) weeeheeee but prepaid's low. I did my Exercise 7D for my Maths NEWEST homework but i LOST it! What the fuck uhhhh~ grrrrr. After school, Baby asked for a meet :)
Headed to his school and fetched him, we took 169 to Yishun and accompanied him to go for his haircut :)
heheheh, Finally i knew what i did wrong in between but it was all a misunderstanding. cause the problem in between wasnt me, :) Hehehe, glad Baby knew everything :)
We cracked jokes in the bus, Joke of the day.
Baby: Kesian eh Achik(Spin)?(pity eh Achik?)
Me: huh? Achi?! where got achi!?
Baby:Ya Allah (oh my god).
Me: huh? Achi?! where got achi!?
Baby:Ya Allah (oh my god).
HAHHAHHAA! He heard the news yesterday, His idol; Achik(Spin) had an accident that's fatal, he died two days back i guess, It was shocking cause i used to be his fan. Rest In Peace :(
Then Baby sent me home, while walking i saw this MAMEE wrapper lying on a bench, I was like,
"BABYYYYY! I want that MAMEE! Let's go Mama Shop now!!!!!".
He went, "Nevermind i'll buy for you, you go home.."
I was stubborn i know :D Hehhehe, In the end, the Mama Shop didnt sell MAMEE ! :(
BABIIIIIIIIIIII~
Hmpfffft.
I'm SOOOOOOO have to do my Malay homeworkkkkk! =(
Kay bye!
I loveeeee youuuuuuuuuuu people :D
xoxo!
Then Baby sent me home, while walking i saw this MAMEE wrapper lying on a bench, I was like,
"BABYYYYY! I want that MAMEE! Let's go Mama Shop now!!!!!".
He went, "Nevermind i'll buy for you, you go home.."
I was stubborn i know :D Hehhehe, In the end, the Mama Shop didnt sell MAMEE ! :(
BABIIIIIIIIIIII~
Hmpfffft.
I'm SOOOOOOO have to do my Malay homeworkkkkk! =(
Kay bye!
I loveeeee youuuuuuuuuuu people :D
xoxo!
Labels: oh baby i love you so much.
@ 5:41 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
I wanna update but stupid old woman ask me to go get ready for Grandma's house. what's so special about Grandma;s house?! Got treasure uhh!? fuck sia. bye.
No more fights,please :( @ 6:50 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello:)
Yesterday was, "pek cek"/bitter. I texted Baby but my messages wasnt delivered and i got somehow worried :-( Then yeah, after school,I've decided to walk around Novena alone while waiting for the Awards Day to start in around 1 hour 30 mins time. Then i saw Baby sitting down there, I looked at him and saw that 'bottle', I was so mad! I grabbed it and put it inside my bag. We walked to Novena and while on the way,i asked him why he took all this. He went crying and he used force to let go of my embrace and decided to walk alone. I was pissed initially. Then we went to somewhere to solved things out; Infront of the toilet -.- yeah, i talked to him,i questioned him, he got much more angry and pushed me away and asked me, "what you want from me!?".
I was like, What the fuckkkkk. I was trying to solve things out and you're behaving this way, (GRRRR). Then we sat somewhere, I went asking and i imagine, I cried continuously, i felt guilty cause he's behaving that way because of what i did but i have no idea what wrong have i done to him. I kept asking and i cried all the way,each time i breathed hard and lastly after i said,
all my friends do these to me, isnt it enough? then now its your turn, how can i cope?:(
Then he hugged me tight and i went crying like fuck,i tell you! he kept wanting to take his precious 'bottle' :-( I hate it ya know! Its like that stupid bottle meant a lot to him! :( NOT FAIR! :( I have a feeling like leaving him and just the fuck the hell out but i was reluctant to do so. I grabbed his bottle. he went,
Him:Baby, what you doing? dont take it away luhhh, (he's simply high).
Me: what's wrong with you!? (keep wanting to take back his bottle).
Him: Baby,dont touch kay?
I went hugging him and i kept apologizing and this time, i poured my tears hard till i panted, i coughed badly and simply gasping for air. He got all worried, he held me tight, he cried too(afraid of losing me). I went so weak till i barely stand on my feet. He carried me and persuaded me to go to the toilet but i was too weak to even move. I hugged him once more and apologized. He put his palms on my cheeks and said,
"i've forgiven you okay baby? Please, go to the toilet now:(".
He held me hard and we walked in VeloCity, My legs were to wobbly till i can just wobble to the ground. He grabbed me and put me to a rest on a seat. He took out my sim card and changed to his, He tried to contact Mummy but she's busy. Then Baby kept on asking whether i'm okay. I remembered i only afford to reply, "my body's too weak".
He asked me to go home and i told him i've got Awards Day,then his voice went stern and said, "you still wanna go to school in this manner?! I know you're not okay, Dont lie to me!".
But i replied,"i'm really okay".
He couldnt care less, he grabbed my hand and held me to the Mrt. He was like some daddy. hehee, then while waiting for the mrt,
He held my hands and kept on asking whther i'm okay and he went sobbing watching me in that state. We boarded the train, A woman being concerned asked Baby whether i'm okay. She went around to ask for medicated oil and helped to carry my bag when we had to alight the train for another train. She advised him ( amek tuh!) then we alighted at Woodlands and went back home. The next thing after i had my bath and enough rest, i went down searching for him.
I saw him with a tin can this time round, I broke down in front of him and he went, "Baby,Don't don't!!!". I knew he didnt want me to cry but i'm just so disappointed !:(
Then things came to an end after we chatted for awhile.
I'm glad things are better now :) I'm loving you forever baby :)
But i just can't get over to the things that i did to you but was naive about it :( I'm so sorry that i've hurt you. You MAY hurt me all you want but i simply just can't hurt you easily because it cause me pain whenever i did so, :( I'm sorry.
For my class, I'm sorry i didnt attend for the Awards Day, hope none of you was punished to stack up chairs :-S
So yeah.
Will upload photos and update about today,Tomorrow.
Bye!
xoxo.
Him:Baby, what you doing? dont take it away luhhh, (he's simply high).
Me: what's wrong with you!? (keep wanting to take back his bottle).
Him: Baby,dont touch kay?
I went hugging him and i kept apologizing and this time, i poured my tears hard till i panted, i coughed badly and simply gasping for air. He got all worried, he held me tight, he cried too(afraid of losing me). I went so weak till i barely stand on my feet. He carried me and persuaded me to go to the toilet but i was too weak to even move. I hugged him once more and apologized. He put his palms on my cheeks and said,
"i've forgiven you okay baby? Please, go to the toilet now:(".
He held me hard and we walked in VeloCity, My legs were to wobbly till i can just wobble to the ground. He grabbed me and put me to a rest on a seat. He took out my sim card and changed to his, He tried to contact Mummy but she's busy. Then Baby kept on asking whether i'm okay. I remembered i only afford to reply, "my body's too weak".
He asked me to go home and i told him i've got Awards Day,then his voice went stern and said, "you still wanna go to school in this manner?! I know you're not okay, Dont lie to me!".
But i replied,"i'm really okay".
He couldnt care less, he grabbed my hand and held me to the Mrt. He was like some daddy. hehee, then while waiting for the mrt,
He held my hands and kept on asking whther i'm okay and he went sobbing watching me in that state. We boarded the train, A woman being concerned asked Baby whether i'm okay. She went around to ask for medicated oil and helped to carry my bag when we had to alight the train for another train. She advised him ( amek tuh!) then we alighted at Woodlands and went back home. The next thing after i had my bath and enough rest, i went down searching for him.
I saw him with a tin can this time round, I broke down in front of him and he went, "Baby,Don't don't!!!". I knew he didnt want me to cry but i'm just so disappointed !:(
Then things came to an end after we chatted for awhile.
I'm glad things are better now :) I'm loving you forever baby :)
But i just can't get over to the things that i did to you but was naive about it :( I'm so sorry that i've hurt you. You MAY hurt me all you want but i simply just can't hurt you easily because it cause me pain whenever i did so, :( I'm sorry.
For my class, I'm sorry i didnt attend for the Awards Day, hope none of you was punished to stack up chairs :-S
So yeah.
Will upload photos and update about today,Tomorrow.
Bye!
xoxo.
Labels: don;t make another start., It ended
nothing @ 9:20 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Fuck,i cant help this feeling, it's so AFFLICTING!Boy, all you do is just saying,
NOTHING.
Ugh, you're getting on my nerves, veins are bound to explode any moment!That seven letters DOESNT help okay? You're making me insane! Things are going out of control and i'm still trying hard to handle this hardships and i'll never give up despite people telling me to just give up cause I'm serious about this relationship, OKAY! You'll never know cause you never cared about how am i getting through this stupid feeling everyday, YOU DONT cause i don't treat you that way!!! Life for me has never been fair cause i gave in A LOT when in comes to you! I'm trying with my every little effort to save this relationship but you dont!
If i were a man, how great it would be when i know how their ego's were.(if only).
Are my dreams really happening soon? fuck, i dont wanna know,
Baby, you're giving me cold shoulders when i'm shivering, your warmth were never felt when you embraced me, sigh. What in the world do you want from me?=(
fuckbye!
Labels: are you even serious?
caring classmates,baby played under the rain @ 8:14 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello Peoplee :D
Morning was very puzzling for me, I texted Baby but my messages were not delivered, i called but i couldnt get through. All kinds of BullShits running through my mind, Seriously-.- The whole day in school without Baby's text simply spoils my mood but i do pay attention in class. I don't know what materials shall i get for my artefact, how lehhhh? :-\ I'm still considering. Okay, Then after Maths lesson, last period of the day. I checked my phone, (at last!) Baby texted. I was shocked and then i started with,
"thought you're leaving me".
Thought he'd be making me feel all better and trust him. Instead of making me calm down, he scolded me and blah blah blah, he ended with this,
"Kay fine,i won't text you or call you since that's what you want.Bye!".
Fuck! I broke down hard after reading that text, I keep texting but he's not replying! =( I was like so down luhh and i could'nt help it but cry. Boys crowded around my place with cameras trying to snap photos here and there simply irritates me but until i hid my head on my table, they went, "eh,don't disturb her,she crying". =.=! (tawu ajer nieh orang).
Thanks for those who were concerned, I appreciate it =) And Xinxin was so funny lor, He turned around and say, "eh? I thought you sleeping." -.-! Hahhha, then he went around asking for tissues, I've got two packets of them! Hahhahaa, very observant hor my classmates.
Shortly after that, Baby called me up. He apologized.
I told him i needed space and he said he want to meet up. Around 1430,I set off. Waited for him at the bus stop, Just as i alight from the bus, he came up to me with a smile. I looked down without a word, i'm still bitter in the heart. He came close to me and said sorry, then we talked about eachother's mistake. hhehehe, Mistakes S-O-L-V-E-D ! :)
Then yeah, took 88 to Bishan :) Baby's phone's spoiled, Can't switch it on :( Boohooo~
I assure him everything'll be okay. He kept quiet throughout from Bishan till Woodlands. We sat down somewhere and he kept on playing with the rain. Hahaha, naughty boy!
Then, he told me the Model Agency CALLED ! I was like dzfdchsgguhbfuuhbeujfgyfswywqqjwpodj !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But he didnt allow me to be into this modeling stuffs =( =( =( Sedihhhhhhh siooool ~
Then yeah, Heehhee, ^^ miss you luhhh baby ! so much you know !
I fed him Fried Rice then he accompanied me to Mama Shop and i kept wanting to get drenched in the rain, He went around holding me like some Father holding a child. Hahahhaa! SO cute! Kissed him Goodbye and yeah.
I stood by my window and watched him walked home, He happily walked under the rain and seriously he needs some smacking in the butt! He'll get it in Thursday! Wait up babyboy! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
Text me or call me if you can,baby! =( Gonna miss texting with you :(
Okay bye!
I wanna do my maths homework and blah blah blah :P
I'm a good girl!
4months till N'levels(what duh fuckkkkk?)
2 weeks or so for Mid Year Exams (another what duh fuckkkk?!)
HHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAA,
BYE LUH!
Thanks for those who were concerned, I appreciate it =) And Xinxin was so funny lor, He turned around and say, "eh? I thought you sleeping." -.-! Hahhha, then he went around asking for tissues, I've got two packets of them! Hahhahaa, very observant hor my classmates.
Shortly after that, Baby called me up. He apologized.
I told him i needed space and he said he want to meet up. Around 1430,I set off. Waited for him at the bus stop, Just as i alight from the bus, he came up to me with a smile. I looked down without a word, i'm still bitter in the heart. He came close to me and said sorry, then we talked about eachother's mistake. hhehehe, Mistakes S-O-L-V-E-D ! :)
Then yeah, took 88 to Bishan :) Baby's phone's spoiled, Can't switch it on :( Boohooo~
I assure him everything'll be okay. He kept quiet throughout from Bishan till Woodlands. We sat down somewhere and he kept on playing with the rain. Hahaha, naughty boy!
Then, he told me the Model Agency CALLED ! I was like dzfdchsgguhbfuuhbeujfgyfswywqqjwpodj !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But he didnt allow me to be into this modeling stuffs =( =( =( Sedihhhhhhh siooool ~
Then yeah, Heehhee, ^^ miss you luhhh baby ! so much you know !
I fed him Fried Rice then he accompanied me to Mama Shop and i kept wanting to get drenched in the rain, He went around holding me like some Father holding a child. Hahahhaa! SO cute! Kissed him Goodbye and yeah.
I stood by my window and watched him walked home, He happily walked under the rain and seriously he needs some smacking in the butt! He'll get it in Thursday! Wait up babyboy! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
Text me or call me if you can,baby! =( Gonna miss texting with you :(
Okay bye!
I wanna do my maths homework and blah blah blah :P
I'm a good girl!
4months till N'levels(what duh fuckkkkk?)
2 weeks or so for Mid Year Exams (another what duh fuckkkk?!)
HHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAA,
BYE LUH!
Labels: oh boy, you're the laughing box that keep me breathing.
down @ 7:22 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
I'm sad,sick,weak.I didnt sleep last night,i shivered hard and Baby's dead asleep, not a single Goodnight message from him =( Somehow its like a routine already. =( I kept looking at my phone, the time showed 0430am in the morning, i've only got less than one hour to rest my eyes. This morning, i felt so busy, waking up and do this and that to get ready for school and i was almost late when the milo spilled on my uniform. >.< ! I changed quickly and rushed out the house with Sister's help,i was really touched by her presence. I reached school feeling so weak and tired somehow i just can't explain how sick i'm feeling. =( School was fine, then after school went to a hospital at Serangoon Road there. Somehow, i'm despondent watching those patients lying down on the bed, I walked pass every bed and tried to communicate with each of them by waving 'hi' and 'bye'. We patrolled the whole hospital and slacked for awhile and got into the bus back to school by 1700. The bus driver was somehow dumb and drove a long way back to school, it took us 30mins. I was kinda glad when Baby told me he's gonna fetch but in the end, he told me he can't. I went gloomy after that. I walked home a lot carrying this heavy chest with a big frown. At times,i felt like tumbling down any moment but i stood strong and walked back home safely. I felt like i'm walking this world alone, on my own. I felt like i had no one, =( sigh. I reached home crying feeling so down i just don't seem to know why. I'm so dependant on my Boyfriend. :( With him not replying my texts made me feel so sad, I cried out on my bed and i really can't help it =(
even if i say this out to him,i dont think he'll get it. I'm sensitive, i know.
i'm fucking down luh cheebye _|_.
Labels: where you?
left out. @ 12:43 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello. Have you ever been in a denial? Having something to tell but your words just got stucked in between your throat and simply only tears could represent those words? Thats what i currently feel now. Although, yesterday was a happy day but slightly in between something made me put up a white lie to defend my ugly feeling. Having to be left behind and felt somehow not important, not being prioritize and all you do was just following them by the back watching them laughed so hard and thinking you're there only by your own and you don't even know that current person? Indirectly,i was torn apart being like a nobody standing in between him and his friend. They talked they laughed, I was in a distance standing alone and admiring those laughters you guys shared. Who am i?
I felt so bitter, so hurt in some ways knowing that i can't tell what i feel, i just give in, let you guys be. It kills but its okay. =( I'm sorry because of me, you have to leave early and send me home. If i wasnt there, i knew you would have stayed much more longer. Sorry to be sucha disturbance. Sorry for everything. I know exactly who i am. i know,baby.
If only,
I had my brunch just just now :) hehehe!I'm all bloated now, Dad's home from his fishing :)yeah im bored now, tell me about it.
Somemore i have maths homework :( I very lazzzy luhhh.
BYE!\xoxo.
I felt so bitter, so hurt in some ways knowing that i can't tell what i feel, i just give in, let you guys be. It kills but its okay. =( I'm sorry because of me, you have to leave early and send me home. If i wasnt there, i knew you would have stayed much more longer. Sorry to be sucha disturbance. Sorry for everything. I know exactly who i am. i know,baby.
If only,
- a guy would leave out anyone just to let you feel like a somebody.
- A guy who texts you all the time even when he's busy just to not leave you out.
- A guy who walked beside you and hold you even when his friends are around.
- A guy who would listen to every advise you have to give and heed it well.
- A guy who always tells you that you're beautiful every single day without fail.
- A guy who always make you feel safe wherever you go.
I had my brunch just just now :) hehehe!I'm all bloated now, Dad's home from his fishing :)yeah im bored now, tell me about it.
Somemore i have maths homework :( I very lazzzy luhhh.
BYE!\xoxo.
Labels: if only.
expo @ 11:29 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
hello hello! :)
I'm backkk :D
Hehhehe, Morning was kinda scary when Baby woke up slightly later and i kept calling yet none of my calls were answered, Thank God Baby's mum told me that he's still asleep soundly and his siblings are all sick :( Hope they'll get well soon! :(
So yeah, Baby reached my home door and i was getting all ready for Expo :)
Hhehehe, Then after waiting for me, we headed of for Tampines followed by Expo.
Reached Tampines and yeah, we walked around since its still early, suddenly very shocking when a girl came up to me and asked me whether i wanna be a model -.- hahaha, very funny, Baby was kinda reluctant, he hates me being indulge in this kind of things. Its understood :)
Hehhehe, We walked all over and he told me every about him and his past life when he's very naughty ! Grrr, so cute!
Then we took the mrt to Expo:)
We reached there but Fadhil have yet to come, so we walked around at the Bridal Wedding thing, We walked and it was so funny when people came up to us and asked, "how long have you guys been married?".
I was like, WHAT ? LOL! We're still young. Hahhaha. fucking funnyyyy :D
But i'm lovin it luhh xD hehehe!
Huhu, Finally we had around 1hour or more to give out flyers, I was really fatigue after standing a few hours, :( But neh,its okay. Baby standing in a distance infront of me and made me feel all secure :) Hehhehe. Then yeah, around 8plus, we headed for home, I was kinda quiet cause my head's killing me, Baby got worried and he kept on asking but i just said nothing,not wanting him to get anymore worried about my behaviour just now. hehe. then he kept persuading me to buy food and eat atleast something. I was like, NO NO NO.
He got all pissed when i replied only that. Yeah that.
Hhehehe, cute luhh :)
We took mrt to Changi Airport and took 858 back home,
Baby slept in the bus and seemed to be reallyreally tired and i let him sleep on my shoulders then his neck started to ache, i then asked him to just lie on my thighs so that his neck wont hurt. It was rather a long ride, Then headed home :)
I pity baby sending me home despite his sleepy eyes.:(
Then yeah, He headed home and im home now ! :D
Baby called me to sleep now. Ooops,gotta get going! :D
I love today!
spending time with Baby was like WOOOHOOOOO~
Loving it baby! :) I love you moremoremoremoremoremoremore! <333 hehehehe!
xoxo!
I'm backkk :D
Hehhehe, Morning was kinda scary when Baby woke up slightly later and i kept calling yet none of my calls were answered, Thank God Baby's mum told me that he's still asleep soundly and his siblings are all sick :( Hope they'll get well soon! :(
So yeah, Baby reached my home door and i was getting all ready for Expo :)
Hhehehe, Then after waiting for me, we headed of for Tampines followed by Expo.
Reached Tampines and yeah, we walked around since its still early, suddenly very shocking when a girl came up to me and asked me whether i wanna be a model -.- hahaha, very funny, Baby was kinda reluctant, he hates me being indulge in this kind of things. Its understood :)
Hehhehe, We walked all over and he told me every about him and his past life when he's very naughty ! Grrr, so cute!
Then we took the mrt to Expo:)
We reached there but Fadhil have yet to come, so we walked around at the Bridal Wedding thing, We walked and it was so funny when people came up to us and asked, "how long have you guys been married?".
I was like, WHAT ? LOL! We're still young. Hahhaha. fucking funnyyyy :D
But i'm lovin it luhh xD hehehe!
Huhu, Finally we had around 1hour or more to give out flyers, I was really fatigue after standing a few hours, :( But neh,its okay. Baby standing in a distance infront of me and made me feel all secure :) Hehhehe. Then yeah, around 8plus, we headed for home, I was kinda quiet cause my head's killing me, Baby got worried and he kept on asking but i just said nothing,not wanting him to get anymore worried about my behaviour just now. hehe. then he kept persuading me to buy food and eat atleast something. I was like, NO NO NO.
He got all pissed when i replied only that. Yeah that.
Hhehehe, cute luhh :)
We took mrt to Changi Airport and took 858 back home,
Baby slept in the bus and seemed to be reallyreally tired and i let him sleep on my shoulders then his neck started to ache, i then asked him to just lie on my thighs so that his neck wont hurt. It was rather a long ride, Then headed home :)
I pity baby sending me home despite his sleepy eyes.:(
Then yeah, He headed home and im home now ! :D
Baby called me to sleep now. Ooops,gotta get going! :D
I love today!
spending time with Baby was like WOOOHOOOOO~
Loving it baby! :) I love you moremoremoremoremoremoremore! <333 hehehehe!
xoxo!
Labels: i love you so much
updated,finally-.- @ 5:45 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
what's within that sad soul, gimme some words to let me understand ya.Hey! :)
Bacccccccck. Been away for days. Hehehe.
So yeah, previously have been a hard time having to endure all those ignorance given by him when it comes to his moodswings. I was really heartbroken indirectly, somehow man will get so heartless when it comes to satisfying their ego rather than having initiative to make a woman feel better. disappointing much. Yesterday was like the worst! When woman care, woman will eventually advise and somehow get a lil' bit pissed with it cause a man shouldnt ask when he knows what right and whats wrong. sighhhhh. I felt so mad yesterday and Baby dont have to pretend, sometimes when you're lying, your mouth moves but your eyes tells it all okay?I wasnt in the mood by then and finally Baby revealed the truth, my heart went sinking like Titanic being hit by the worst thing ever! You kept on apologizing, sorry sorry sorry but somehow can it cure the sudden pain you've caused? Even by words, it can never move me,baby. If that thing is much more important than me then why keep wanting to go for it? why? I hold you tight yesterday even if you strengthened your hand to let go of me,i never lose a grip on you cause i care so much about you and i want you to THINK hard. =( sigh. I broke that thing into two with that anger raging and threw it and you're already gone. I went searching and tears kept flowing,i felt so worried of you. So worried and i wonder what problems have i ever caused you. sigh. You came around and hugged me tight, somehow i just give myself away, I've forgiven him deep inside but the pain is still aching, still appearing never vanishing. Oh Baby, Yesterday was a great disappointment, I really hope you'll think hard and do things right next time, this time i simply let you off, i hope there's never a next time baby. Please. :(
So yeah, today was as usual.
The last P.E lesson i had was 2.4 run, My timing was 16:01, To me it was a BIG JUMP, last year i had 18:19 -.- yeah, fuck cigarettes heh. I was like chiong-ing all the 8 rounds luhhh, woohooo~ Then,I've been having breathing problems since a few months ago,I dont likeeee thattttt feeelinggg, it suckkks ya knoww? =( grrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I got so indulged in Mathematics, let me spell out, M-A-T-H-E-M-A-T-I-C-S ! Hahahha, Today had my maths test, it was sickly not enough time plus i remember all the methods but i have yet to write it down on that paper. shittttttzx. Grrrr. then was Mothertongue, Never was mothertongue so alive! with Mr.Roslee,It was incredibly CRAZY! Almost over ANYTHING, we'll laugh like hell plus he gave us Lollipop when we left the class! :) like woohoooo~ today's the best, NEVER felt lonesome,i felt so used to it! I LOVE IT MAN! :DDDDDDD
Huhu! Then yeah, Had POA extra class after school and went home, Very fatigue plus my whole legs has been aching =( I neeeeeda massageeee, anyone?:P hehhehee.
Tomorrow's Friday, I feel like ending tomorrow now and have my Saturday&Sundays for GYM! :D
HOHO! Kay byeeee! ;)
Mum,I nk new phone boleh? Pleashhh? u dah ader E63,i pon nk hp baru sheh! =(
Alermaaaaak.
I rindu my boyfriend luhhhh~
HAHAHAH. random heh.
xoxo!
Labels: disappointment
lonesome @ 5:03 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
only you,i believe that could make me smile even if its you who breaks me apart.♥
SO helloooo :)
Morning was fine,as usual except that its the starting of the week and im going school all by myself :( Booohoooo. Its been a routine anyway,so imma getting use to it :) I was almost late but my tired legs helped me get to the parade square nearly 720a.m. I was panting hard trying to catch my breath eventhough i only walked briskly. -.- The aching on my legs seriously got me in agony silently :( I kept miss calling baby but he hasnt been awake since i'm in the mrt. :( I woke him up till 8 going to 9a.m and his school already started-.- I kept calling till my phone's battery turned orange that says, W-E-A-K. But nah,its not a big deal.
Then school was randomly starting to feel the pressure of the upcoming Mid Year Exams and also the N' Levels. I liked Maths so much cause my Maths teacher literally get us to imagine if today we're getting our certificate for N'levels, then he let choose what we wanted for our results, a total of 11 for you EMB3 or a total of all passes but just a 20 for your EMB3. everyone was like "uhhhh,i like the first result better.".
Then he told us to persevere and help him by co-operating in every Maths lessons. Jia you! fortunately,i didnt sleep and i paid full attention and trying to solve every questions that was given :) hehehehe. I love it! ;)
Then blah blah blah, After school,I went home straight and i dont know why, I just loathe all apeks okay. Very disgusting. (ewww). hohoho!
I reached home and was drenched under the pouring rain and Baby's kinda off mood today cause we arent meeting today plus i understand he missed me as much as i do. So now, i'm just waiting for his text even if it were to be as short as a, "k". I'm waiting still:(
Besides, not meeting him for a number of days now kills me hard:(
Really, and slowly i found myself slowly being alone, Lonesome without having him beside me like he always will when we meet :( if only. And tomorrow, I'll be having a total of two extra classes! Combined Humanities & Elementary Mathematics. It will approximately end around 4p.m in the afternoon :( Sighhhhh. Then i guess will be meeting Baby shortly after that. We shall see how the plan goes :(
Hmmmmm, Okay! I guess till here now.
The weather got my eyes rather half-closed and giving me a signal that i need a nap!
Bye !
xoxo,
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ironic @ 5:37 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
I cried myself to sleep knowing imma n-o-b-o-d-y .
So yeah, last night was very sickening for me, here's what a girl starts to think when a guy didnt reply for minutes or hours.
(20 minutes for a guy not to reply).
-Okay, i guess he's busy right now, nevermind i can wait, :)
(40minutes for a guy not to reply)
-Okay, what the hell is he doing right now?! :-/
(1 hour for a guy not to reply)
-Okay, let me clarify everything and see how it goes. Hmmm.
(a total of 2-3 hours waiting for a simple reply)
-Sigh, I guess my text meant nothing at to you,then :(
Usually for some girls, they'll just go to sleep and wait for a brand new day the next day, but for me, I felt nonetheless insecure, very. I cried and a lot of sentences/questions playing through my mind all night and found myself asleep only after several times checking out my phone. Still, there's none. Looking back when we've first fell in love, It felt like both different worlds. Nah,i dont wanna explain it here. :( sighhh.
I woke up around 7 and checked my phone- nothing. I slept again and woke up at 845-nothing. I can't help much so i texted him and think lowly of myself referring me as a n-o-b-o-d-y to him as that's how i felt through that sleepless night, he only afford to say a lil sorry that still can't satisfy my unhappiness about him. SIghhhh nevermind. I hate being so sensitive, i hate being so loving, i hate being so emotional, if only i would have only one emotion which is Happy. It'll be a woohoo.
Okay im waiting for him to be totally free now.
kay bye!
xoxo.
So yeah, last night was very sickening for me, here's what a girl starts to think when a guy didnt reply for minutes or hours.
(20 minutes for a guy not to reply).
-Okay, i guess he's busy right now, nevermind i can wait, :)
(40minutes for a guy not to reply)
-Okay, what the hell is he doing right now?! :-/
(1 hour for a guy not to reply)
-Okay, let me clarify everything and see how it goes. Hmmm.
(a total of 2-3 hours waiting for a simple reply)
-Sigh, I guess my text meant nothing at to you,then :(
Usually for some girls, they'll just go to sleep and wait for a brand new day the next day, but for me, I felt nonetheless insecure, very. I cried and a lot of sentences/questions playing through my mind all night and found myself asleep only after several times checking out my phone. Still, there's none. Looking back when we've first fell in love, It felt like both different worlds. Nah,i dont wanna explain it here. :( sighhh.
I woke up around 7 and checked my phone- nothing. I slept again and woke up at 845-nothing. I can't help much so i texted him and think lowly of myself referring me as a n-o-b-o-d-y to him as that's how i felt through that sleepless night, he only afford to say a lil sorry that still can't satisfy my unhappiness about him. SIghhhh nevermind. I hate being so sensitive, i hate being so loving, i hate being so emotional, if only i would have only one emotion which is Happy. It'll be a woohoo.
Okay im waiting for him to be totally free now.
kay bye!
xoxo.
Labels: ironic
Lusts' not exactly the completion of a love story @ 4:02 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Oh baby, i miss your embrace.
Helllooooooooo :D
Morning was teary, i woke up and found myself crying, what a bad dream :( I woke up superb early cause of that nightmare :( sighhhh, somehow that dream felt so real,so close, drawing nearer but i hope it'll just remain in my fantasy world, :( I texted Baby and he was utterly upset when i asked him a ridiculous question early in the morning,
"Baby, Do you still contact other girls?".
He replied me with a sad emoticon and asked me why must i ask such question early in the morning without morning greetings like i used to send him after i fully awake. :-S I felt so guilty but the dreams' super real :( Baby called me up and assure me that it's just a dream and asked me how bad it was, I told him everything and i felt that urge to cry but i pulled back my tears and suddenly the phone was hung up, maybe no network reception.
He asked me whether i cried, I didnt and i wasnt lying baby, I know its just a nightmare, thankyou for making me feel all better :) I love you so much,ya know?<33333
Then yeah, went to Sheng shiong and wasnt really in my best mood. Really moody nowadays, maybe gonna be having period soon :-/
Very tiring though,carrying those heavy stuffs we've shopped. Grrr.
Then Baby called, I was unhappy of him not replying my text since the time i set off from home. Reallyreally unhappy~ Then yeah, I off-ed my phone's vibration, so particularly i dont know whether i'm receiving any calls/text or whatever. I called baby back,he sounded pretty mad cause he called for two times. I sounded really moody, Thankgod we didnt argue (phew), Then yeah,things went as usual :D Got home and watched Care Bears; Oopsy does it again.
Super cute carebears :DDDDDD i loikkkke.
Okay, Byebybeyebyebyebeybeybeybeyebyebyebeybeybeyebyebeybeybeyebyebeybeybeyebyebyebeybeybeybeybeyebyebye!
F my eyes okay, i mean my lens also! (grrrrr!)
Eh BYE LUHHH~
LOL!
Baby's busy now and will be back on action around 9pm :D
Im gonna sleeeeeeeep like a pig now! (oink!)
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE/
Helllooooooooo :D
Morning was teary, i woke up and found myself crying, what a bad dream :( I woke up superb early cause of that nightmare :( sighhhh, somehow that dream felt so real,so close, drawing nearer but i hope it'll just remain in my fantasy world, :( I texted Baby and he was utterly upset when i asked him a ridiculous question early in the morning,
"Baby, Do you still contact other girls?".
He replied me with a sad emoticon and asked me why must i ask such question early in the morning without morning greetings like i used to send him after i fully awake. :-S I felt so guilty but the dreams' super real :( Baby called me up and assure me that it's just a dream and asked me how bad it was, I told him everything and i felt that urge to cry but i pulled back my tears and suddenly the phone was hung up, maybe no network reception.
He asked me whether i cried, I didnt and i wasnt lying baby, I know its just a nightmare, thankyou for making me feel all better :) I love you so much,ya know?<33333
Then yeah, went to Sheng shiong and wasnt really in my best mood. Really moody nowadays, maybe gonna be having period soon :-/
Very tiring though,carrying those heavy stuffs we've shopped. Grrr.
Then Baby called, I was unhappy of him not replying my text since the time i set off from home. Reallyreally unhappy~ Then yeah, I off-ed my phone's vibration, so particularly i dont know whether i'm receiving any calls/text or whatever. I called baby back,he sounded pretty mad cause he called for two times. I sounded really moody, Thankgod we didnt argue (phew), Then yeah,things went as usual :D Got home and watched Care Bears; Oopsy does it again.
Super cute carebears :DDDDDD i loikkkke.
Okay, Byebybeyebyebyebeybeybeybeyebyebyebeybeybeyebyebeybeybeyebyebeybeybeyebyebyebeybeybeybeybeyebyebye!
F my eyes okay, i mean my lens also! (grrrrr!)
Eh BYE LUHHH~
LOL!
Baby's busy now and will be back on action around 9pm :D
Im gonna sleeeeeeeep like a pig now! (oink!)
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE/
Lusts' not exactly the completion of a love story
Labels: sore eyes.
boringgggg 'good' friday @ 8:58 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
HELLO people! :)Morning was awakened by Baby's text ! :) he had a bad dream and texted with me all kinds of sad emoticons he could stuff in, I was very shocked but i just dislike it if he's so INTO that nightmare which (might/might not) happen, I dont know :-S. I left it for God to decide. But baby, I'll never leave you okay? I've promised you didnt i? How can i leave you when i can't even live my life without you. It's just a dream alright baby?:) I love ya!
Parents reached home around going to 1300 and I was revising my Chemistry when Dad asked whether we wanna eat ice cream, I was like WOOHOOO~ Superrrrrrrb, then Baby set off for Malaysia himself :( Sighhh, damn worried eventhough i was overjoyed about the ice cream outing. :( Then i got all ready and off-ed to Marine Parade,
By 1500, Baby reached CheckPoint already so its kinda impossible for us to keep texting cause we both are using prepaid. :( I had Ayam Penyet and got all bloated and off-ed for Desserts, I just shared my ice cream with my siblings and joked around with my parents. Part of me is missing my baby who's not around in Singapore. :(
Then, we so called planned to go to Pasir Ris park but ended up Baby bro's asleep so we headed for Admiralty Park, BORING~ Then went to Causeway Point, walked around, got my hair clips! Then got myself Tako Yaki-Ham&Cheese ! :D wink wink!
Now im home, Fatigue much and got full again with my Tako Yaki, xD hehehe, Baby said he'll be home early, but i cant seem to get through him since i'm home just n0w :-S Where youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu?
Okay doney,Today very bored luh kayyy, Good Friday hehhh?
Huhu, Will be waiting for Baby to come home.
Being patient here, :)
Okay bye!
xoxo sexy peoples ! :D
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