by Nur Faiqah Shahri
hey,
School was as usual. I didnt quite sleep that well cause there's no replies from Baby. Something happened actually so it was okay by then, I closed my eyes and found myself checking the phone in between 2 to 3am in the morning, i only got a miss call from baby then i got asleep once more.
Hehehe, I hate last period, P.C/ Have to print the survey for the Ecareers thingy. I have to stay a little while cause i have trouble printing, stupid printer, stupid school! Grrrr. Then yeah, i just copied and pasted it and sent it to Mr.Lim's email then i went off :) Dou Xin and i were the last person to stay up. then i went off to the school gate and saw baby:) then we got off to woodlands and blah blah blah :) hehehe, then something happened, wah seh, i hate that man sia! Grrrrrrrrrrr. Then we walked all over Causeway and baby treat me Mac Donalds! :) HUHU! then got home.
Went down again and went to bubbletea then went to Grandma;s house to get some epok-epok and chocolate puddings and goodies! :) Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :) ehhehehe!
Then yeah, my pudding dropped on the ground while im walking =( Baby asked me to throw with a stern voice cause there may be germs that have gone inside, :( Then i put on a sulk all the way home and he treats me like a baby! I likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :DDDDD hehehe!
Okay then :) Im home.
Oh sigh, people are seriously STILL unhappy eventhough its over. sighh, i was about to carry on with life and people just LOVE watching me cry like dying in my past life. Thankyou people. seriously thankyou:(
I LOVE MY BABYBOY SUPER MUCH :)
the only one who understands me.
xoxo.
Labels: dont let me., stuck in my past
big booby bitch. @ 9:01 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello hello :)
I didnt quite post a proper one yesterday,but neh.
Morning was as usual, Baby woke up to wish me Goodmorning. Walking at Novena got that scent that smells (unexplanable), very smelly that make you feel nausea,like wanting to vomit right awayy. I reached school and Jie Xin texted, my prepaid's low. Sorrrry didnt replied your text.
Eventually,things went fine with me and Shahidah but not the others which i dont get the reason why. Haha, nevermind, I knew Shahidah get the whole story now except for the fact that other people love to stick at one book :) So,be it. As long as i'm okay with Shahidah, the argument has ended. School was fine except that i'm having such tired eyes,wanting me to sleep every moment. I know my Chemistry's test is a CMI. hoho, eventhough Baby kept asking me to STUDY STUDY STUDY. xD But unfortunately, i did but i didnt memorised everything. Ooops baby, :(
Went onthephone with Baby during recess while i had my little oat lunch and a Chemistry book opened up right before me, Baby got me laughing alone xD hehehe, i love you luhh baby :)
Then had D&T, I was bound to do anything cause i dont have any researches to review on. :( boohoo, then chatted and laughed with Anwar,Kieth,Roslynda and some others. Very cute :)
Hehehehe, Photo taking was disastrous much! Guys at the back squeezing on one bench and tend to fall upon me ! I was really pissed and i fell over Debbie and Ashura, sorry yeah? no need to get angry, it was accidental.
Then after school, i got home and slept from 1600-1900 :)
Didnt meet baby today, so yeah :)
hehehe, byebye.
I love you readers!
xoxo! <3
Labels: stop that shit luh.
enough said @ 10:15 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Oh another cigarette will help to ease one's mind .
HELLO HELLO humans :)
I slept slightly later yesterday cause baby needs someone to be with him rather than leaving him alone, i felt so heavy so i stayed up :) I waited for his text in the end, he slept first -.- ! grrrr! JieXin wanted to sit with me at parade square so i just met up with her as Peiling's away. Baby was so cute this morning! I got myself outta control missing his presence so badly and i wrote him a love letter :D hehehe, then he build the courage in me to be strong in whatever i do :) ohmy, I really love you so much,baby! I really do! :) hehehe, in school=nothing. Pretty redundant. :)
I received a text saying baby cant fetch me :( But he didnt make it suspicious so i took it seriously that he's at home xD I walked along the gate with Anwar,Laren,Debbie and some others, we talked and i saw a glimpse of Baby hiding at the side. (GRRR!) hhehehe! Met up with him and we got off 'back home' xD ! hehehe, we alighted at Woodlands and bought macdonalds! :) then we set off for our own time together :P:P:P:P!
Oh my my, you called me cheap publicity cause i took alot of pictures which are unglam or glam?xD hahaha, like oh my god, i didnt start a shit but you're starting a whole pile of shit,what's wrong with you people? Kalo gratis, ngga perlu petik gambar, ngga perlu hape ya, gendut?
seperti menyusahkan gituh ya aku liat orang kayak kamu. Hidup tuh biar lah sendiri, tak mahu lah kisahkan sangat kisah hidup orang lain.
you know what girls? It hurts me a double time spouting words to the ones i used to love, very much. But you guys are seriously getting out of the point, theres nothing i can do. Its okay, blame me all you want luh as long as you guys are happy. Im fine with it, just dont bother my life.
Sighhhh, takecare girls.
Okay yeah, I cried too much just now, i dont know why lehh, feel so down :( huhu.
nevermind, im okay :)
bye!
love you readers!<3
Labels: Sigh
fuck life @ 2:56 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
i LOOKED PALE, YES. maybe i'd be dying. Hahhaa. kay whatever. Fuck,im going malaysia by 430. Baby ignored me due to that -.- and now we arent texting, LIKE, Im not going Malaysia FOREVER. Baby please luh! :( sigh i dont know what to say luh, i've been crying for hours,its like nobody cares. :( fuck my life kay. ughEenie meenie! @ 9:15 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello hello hello ! :)This morning i was awakened up Baby's text, (3) messages. I clicked on it and realised i was dead asleep yesterday when i didnt replied his text when he hardly sleep. :-S I feel so bad seh but i eventually apologised and woke up early cause of that. :( Sorrry baby :(
I woke up and took my bath, today was as usual; Boring.
I have downloaded a lot Justin Bieber's songs! Ohmy,deeply in loveeeee man! xD
hoho! Then Baby came, around 1600hours,i met him outside:) He's very naughty! grrr!
Hugged him tight and he somehow carried me till i'm like 'hanging'(Irfan described it as,"floating mouse). HAHA!
Then i slept till 19oo plus hours, The rest of my family members went to Grandma's house, i'm too lazy so i dozed off for 2hours or so.
Then after that, went to meet Baby and set off for bubbletea :) I bought Vanilla Milk Tea and Baby's really cheeky seh! haahaha, geram ya know,
HUHU! then got back home,
I'M UBER BORED NOW PEOPLE!
i didnt commemorate Earth hour today :-S
But i did encounter some buildings with some of them switching off the lights :)
Okay im done.
BORED.
Okay bye, Lovvvvvves <3 :)
Labels: JB's sexyyy
oh sickening @ 10:31 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello :)
Too bad yesterday i couldnt update. Yesterday was special as it seemed. I went to Yishun and saw Baby sitting while i alight from the bus :) I ran onto him and we went to Yishun stadium, when we got nearer to the stadium. I started to change my mind of going and so i decided not to, even if i go, it's rather redundant;mundane even so. I walked with Baby to the Khatib mrt aimlessly as we watched my classmates passed by us and asking us to direct them to the stadium. I was damn happy yesterday, we happened to have decide to go back to Woodlands. We then boarded 965 and had Macdonalds for breakfast, Just trying out the Cereal thingy. Then we off-ed to buy some bubbletea. We laughed so much yesterday and it was practically the best day EVER eventhough all we did were just sitting around :) I love you baby. Thereafter, we got home and i changed my clothes, we planned to walk to Causeway but then we ended up sitting under some void deck watching the rain pour, HAHAH! we joked around like hell. we laughed till i got my tummy aching, :P then got home and went to bubbletea.
Sigh baby,yesterday was the best! I can't imagine me being without you. Life's gonna be worthless.
Today. Morning was as usual but i was fatigue as usual.
Then, got into class and studied :) After school, i went home and waited for Baby. I was about to close my eyes when Baby said he's outside my house already, hehehe. I set off and met him :) We got ourselves one bubbletea each,we're like bubbletea couple. Hahaha! we spent some time together and then went to Sembawang as Baby's mum asked me to go over. I came with Baby and saw his sister sitting there doing her stuffs. I talked to her and helped her out with her homework. :) then Baby brought food for us :) Huhu. I kept disturbing Baby non-stop and got him irritated but he wasnt -.- HAHA! he even laughed so hard . :P
Then after we finished eating dinner, I taught his sister her homework and we set off :) His mum's cute! :DDD huhu.
he sent me back home and i missed him already, i mean,TOO MUCH.
hehehehe. upon some reasons, my instincts kept wanting me to check my Facebook.
I did.
How intimidating it got me, I was damn brought down by those,seriously. Maybe cause of one bloody fat idiot that twist and turn one story and got me all accused up. I wonder how can guys end up being so 'makcik-makcik'. -.- Ya luhh,big luhh, so big lorhh, so redundant of you to sandwich in about boyf who has got nothing to do just because he stared at you. Big deal? Lol,small brain big stomach, repugnant.
Okay, for those people who feel like you're on the right side then it's your life, I dont wanna say anything, what an unworthy opponent, acting so innocently infront of me thinking i would kneel down on your feet and apologise? Fat hope. Its not my fault but you're just hearing some party's who you've just known, just some idiot trying to sandwich in my whole damn life,how sickening! Oh fat idiotic bally kaypoh maniac, whatever alright/? I know she's your buddy. Get her all you want, spout stories which are untrue openly, keep it going fatty :) I bet your life's gonna be much more suckish then what i've done to you in the pasts.
It is intimidating but i aint falling just yet! It hasnt reached my limits. Just wait. :)
The truth will be revealed.
besides, being without those sympathetic humans is simply much more easier rather than having to sneak being friends with other people whom they gossiped about -.-
Okay whatever.
Its getting late,i wanna sleep super soon in order to avoid pimples. :)
okay goodnight!
I love my babyboy and beloved friends!
Too bad yesterday i couldnt update. Yesterday was special as it seemed. I went to Yishun and saw Baby sitting while i alight from the bus :) I ran onto him and we went to Yishun stadium, when we got nearer to the stadium. I started to change my mind of going and so i decided not to, even if i go, it's rather redundant;mundane even so. I walked with Baby to the Khatib mrt aimlessly as we watched my classmates passed by us and asking us to direct them to the stadium. I was damn happy yesterday, we happened to have decide to go back to Woodlands. We then boarded 965 and had Macdonalds for breakfast, Just trying out the Cereal thingy. Then we off-ed to buy some bubbletea. We laughed so much yesterday and it was practically the best day EVER eventhough all we did were just sitting around :) I love you baby. Thereafter, we got home and i changed my clothes, we planned to walk to Causeway but then we ended up sitting under some void deck watching the rain pour, HAHAH! we joked around like hell. we laughed till i got my tummy aching, :P then got home and went to bubbletea.
Sigh baby,yesterday was the best! I can't imagine me being without you. Life's gonna be worthless.
Today. Morning was as usual but i was fatigue as usual.
Then, got into class and studied :) After school, i went home and waited for Baby. I was about to close my eyes when Baby said he's outside my house already, hehehe. I set off and met him :) We got ourselves one bubbletea each,we're like bubbletea couple. Hahaha! we spent some time together and then went to Sembawang as Baby's mum asked me to go over. I came with Baby and saw his sister sitting there doing her stuffs. I talked to her and helped her out with her homework. :) then Baby brought food for us :) Huhu. I kept disturbing Baby non-stop and got him irritated but he wasnt -.- HAHA! he even laughed so hard . :P
Then after we finished eating dinner, I taught his sister her homework and we set off :) His mum's cute! :DDD huhu.
he sent me back home and i missed him already, i mean,TOO MUCH.
hehehehe. upon some reasons, my instincts kept wanting me to check my Facebook.
I did.
How intimidating it got me, I was damn brought down by those,seriously. Maybe cause of one bloody fat idiot that twist and turn one story and got me all accused up. I wonder how can guys end up being so 'makcik-makcik'. -.- Ya luhh,big luhh, so big lorhh, so redundant of you to sandwich in about boyf who has got nothing to do just because he stared at you. Big deal? Lol,small brain big stomach, repugnant.
Okay, for those people who feel like you're on the right side then it's your life, I dont wanna say anything, what an unworthy opponent, acting so innocently infront of me thinking i would kneel down on your feet and apologise? Fat hope. Its not my fault but you're just hearing some party's who you've just known, just some idiot trying to sandwich in my whole damn life,how sickening! Oh fat idiotic bally kaypoh maniac, whatever alright/? I know she's your buddy. Get her all you want, spout stories which are untrue openly, keep it going fatty :) I bet your life's gonna be much more suckish then what i've done to you in the pasts.
It is intimidating but i aint falling just yet! It hasnt reached my limits. Just wait. :)
The truth will be revealed.
besides, being without those sympathetic humans is simply much more easier rather than having to sneak being friends with other people whom they gossiped about -.-
Okay whatever.
Its getting late,i wanna sleep super soon in order to avoid pimples. :)
okay goodnight!
I love my babyboy and beloved friends!
kristal deary,thanks for the post you've made up for me, You stood there for me back and forth, Never failed to be there,i appreciate it. One day ,that prince charming will return for you,i believe. Just hang there and be patient,I love you:)
@ 8:42 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
HEY YAAAA :)
School was fine, i was almost late -.-
Then recess was with Fiona :) Then P.E, I played Badminton with Dearest Kristal,Roslynda&Jinghui :) We played and laughed through-out, i dont why i find it so cute luh! Then Kristal kept getting the shuttlecock outside. Grrrr. HAHAHA. Overall it was SUPERB :) hehehe. Then yeah, after the school. I went to the cabin and went to the library,FINALLY i borrowed 'The child called "it" ' :) I was like WOOHOOO~
Then around 5 after my duty's done, i rushed back home.
I board the bus but my ezlink's somehow got no balance,I went to the mrt ticket office and was about to check the balance when i discovered my ezlink card was swopped! I rushed back to school, I walked briskly and got my legs all numb and aching. I got to school and searched for Mr.Eric but he wasnt around. I walked and searched and called for him.
He helped me out by checking the information at the office.
Then Principal came into scene and asked me what happened and stuffs.
After browsing through attendance and stuffs, we found the solution, The librarian accidentally swopped my ezlink with someone else's when i went to borrow the book recently-.- I went to the library and then she blamed me for getting her into trouble, what a nerd _|_ !
Me: Is my ezlink card with you?
Librarian:Ya, here, where's the other ezlink?
Me: oh its at the Principal.
Librarian: huhh?! Why did you tell them about it?
Me: nah,i was just checking out on why my ezlink card's replaced with someone else's.
Librarian: why must you get me into trouble!?
Me: where got?
Librarian: follow me to the library(looking anxious)
She went to switch off all the lights and i went down, She chased me and said, "wait for me wait for me!". Wahhhh,damn kancheong~ Then after that she gets the ezlink and say, "next time if i did any mistake,check with me first".
I was like, "oh, i didnt even check my ezlink whether its mine when you handed it to me.
she shakes her head.
WHATTHEFUCK, babi sia.
Then i went home straight after that and got Baby worried about me, oooops, Sorrry baby?
So yeah, tomorrow,
I can wake up slightly late tomorrrow :D
HOHO!
Okay, so here's for Baby :)
School was fine, i was almost late -.-
Then recess was with Fiona :) Then P.E, I played Badminton with Dearest Kristal,Roslynda&Jinghui :) We played and laughed through-out, i dont why i find it so cute luh! Then Kristal kept getting the shuttlecock outside. Grrrr. HAHAHA. Overall it was SUPERB :) hehehe. Then yeah, after the school. I went to the cabin and went to the library,FINALLY i borrowed 'The child called "it" ' :) I was like WOOHOOO~
Then around 5 after my duty's done, i rushed back home.
I board the bus but my ezlink's somehow got no balance,I went to the mrt ticket office and was about to check the balance when i discovered my ezlink card was swopped! I rushed back to school, I walked briskly and got my legs all numb and aching. I got to school and searched for Mr.Eric but he wasnt around. I walked and searched and called for him.
He helped me out by checking the information at the office.
Then Principal came into scene and asked me what happened and stuffs.
After browsing through attendance and stuffs, we found the solution, The librarian accidentally swopped my ezlink with someone else's when i went to borrow the book recently-.- I went to the library and then she blamed me for getting her into trouble, what a nerd _|_ !
Me: Is my ezlink card with you?
Librarian:Ya, here, where's the other ezlink?
Me: oh its at the Principal.
Librarian: huhh?! Why did you tell them about it?
Me: nah,i was just checking out on why my ezlink card's replaced with someone else's.
Librarian: why must you get me into trouble!?
Me: where got?
Librarian: follow me to the library(looking anxious)
She went to switch off all the lights and i went down, She chased me and said, "wait for me wait for me!". Wahhhh,damn kancheong~ Then after that she gets the ezlink and say, "next time if i did any mistake,check with me first".
I was like, "oh, i didnt even check my ezlink whether its mine when you handed it to me.
she shakes her head.
WHATTHEFUCK, babi sia.
Then i went home straight after that and got Baby worried about me, oooops, Sorrry baby?
So yeah, tomorrow,
- Sports day at Yishun Stadium
- My 4th Monthsary with Babyboy! <3
I can wake up slightly late tomorrrow :D
HOHO!
Okay, so here's for Baby :)
Baby,
Happy fourth-monthsary! :) You know how worried i was when you texted me this morning at 3am when you said stuffs as if I'm leaving you? Did you know how worried i was? In a blink of an eye, Things crawled so fast and tick-tock it's our fourth month! Isnt it FAST!? Time'll never wait for us,baby. I'm falling in even more in love with you,its like everyday my love for you keep growing and its enlarging, my love's for you is too BROAD now,Too much,i guess? I'm afraid of losing you,baby. You're my companion who fills up my empty space when i'm lonesome.
Baby,you're the beat that keep me moving. I'm not just walking now perhaps i'm running :) I've gained so much strength to move ahead and get over with my pasts, its because of you,baby. You've changed my world. You're the first guy that truly appreciates my love from both ends. You're the number one, never have i encountered such man. You made me crazy in love once more. I'm all over you baby.Never a time will i ever runaway from you. :) No matter what you do, hurt me,fool me, I'm still gonna love you whole-heartedly:)
Therefore, I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH,BABY! :)
HAPPY 4TH MONTHSARY! <33333333333
Happy fourth-monthsary! :) You know how worried i was when you texted me this morning at 3am when you said stuffs as if I'm leaving you? Did you know how worried i was? In a blink of an eye, Things crawled so fast and tick-tock it's our fourth month! Isnt it FAST!? Time'll never wait for us,baby. I'm falling in even more in love with you,its like everyday my love for you keep growing and its enlarging, my love's for you is too BROAD now,Too much,i guess? I'm afraid of losing you,baby. You're my companion who fills up my empty space when i'm lonesome.
Baby,you're the beat that keep me moving. I'm not just walking now perhaps i'm running :) I've gained so much strength to move ahead and get over with my pasts, its because of you,baby. You've changed my world. You're the first guy that truly appreciates my love from both ends. You're the number one, never have i encountered such man. You made me crazy in love once more. I'm all over you baby.Never a time will i ever runaway from you. :) No matter what you do, hurt me,fool me, I'm still gonna love you whole-heartedly:)
Therefore, I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH,BABY! :)
HAPPY 4TH MONTHSARY! <33333333333
tag replies <3
Kristal:hehehe, hate me luhhh :P I doubt so you would. Oh well, that's how i get over things, GERAM you know! :)
Alrighhht! fun playing badminton just now!<3
I love baby! @ 7:13 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Oh hell yeah HELLO! :)
school was as usual but i was SUPER DUPER shocked when baby sent me a long message saying he regretted with the redundant issues he did in the past and i knew he is serious now,Maybe? Hahhaa, Should be luhh okay :) So yeah, I reached school and wasted my time for awhile so that i'd be sitting at the back, It'll be easier rather than watching those 'not-needed' faces of theirs, eww. Then was P.E :) It was GREAT! I played badminton with Anwar and then with Lih Shiuan and then Christopher. It was WOOHOO but not until those 'beings' appear on my sight. I ignored and continued playing :) Its fun! Hehehe, then after that it rained VERY heavily and i was walking slowly and thank god i wasnt caught in the rain :P Then lessons all along and my stomach kept growling for foooood. Hahaha! Then waited for Fiona for recess :) It's fun though sitting with them, watching them laugh the hell out, they moved me too. :) Thanks,Fiona <3 hhehehe, Then was D&T, teacher explained all the stuffs that's needed to be done and yeah, She's much furious now. :P Maybe it'll push us for N'levels :) Like, WOOOHOOO~ I paid attention for most of my lessons today . GOOD JOB,Faiqah! :) HUHU! I'm so excited for school nowadays especially maths! I dont know why, School madness. :DDDD
After my extra class, i was the first to get out of the door. HAHA! I rushed out of school thinking baby was waiting outside but he wasnt there. I rushed to Novena,still i guess i should've taken my sweet time -.- Then reached under my block there and called him using the public phone . Then when i got up the stairs, I smelt his scent whenever i see him, I went to my door and there he go, He came down and said he's been waiting for me all the while -.- Baby, baby...
Then went to Yewtee to accompany him to his Aunty's house. I waited outside, I waited for almost an hour and i stand all along. I dont know why i felt so sick after that,wanting to vomit and i got so giddy and so i kept quiet when Baby approached, i was standing beside a wall all along and he went searching for me -.- HHAHAHAHA. damn funny!
Then yeah, went back to Woodlands, i bought my bubbletea and walked back home with baby. My baby's "SICK" today ! ^^ super sickkkkk. :P HAHHHAAH, naughty boy! ask you update blog like waiting for the stars to fall and for pimples to stop growing~ GRRR! ahhahaha.
So yeah, I LOVE YOU BABY! :)
hehehehe.
till here then, BYE PEOPLE!
LOVVVVVVVVVVVVVES! (L)
Tag replies,
Roslynda: hehehe thankyou for passing by! :) see you tooo! <3
Oh Fatty Girl, Stop whining in class.
It agitates me TOO MUCH.
Stop acting cute cause you can never be cute.
Nobody's gonna give you their attention,
Oh puhleaseeeee~
Siape makan cili terase pedasssss ye. :)
It agitates me TOO MUCH.
Stop acting cute cause you can never be cute.
Nobody's gonna give you their attention,
Oh puhleaseeeee~
Siape makan cili terase pedasssss ye. :)
Labels: stop whining fatty
immature beings. @ 4:52 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
HELLO :)
Morning was very glad when Baby texted me Goodmorning. I dont know why,it made me smile so broadly :) hehehe. I love you,baby :) Oh well, went to school alone today :( Lonesome. I was hoping for the skies to pour down rain but instead its such a sunny day today. Grrr. Then reached school, from far i can see "" , Ugh, I walked fucking slowly and stayed at the back so that i'd be far away from those. Gotta get use to it luhh :) Trying hard. Then morning was like, Attire check, thankgod those teachers didnt checked my nails ! :P Huhu, then got back to class. During recess, Laren accompanied me somehow so i just go with the flow. I bought my bread and my Blueberry Tea Bottle then headed for MacDonalds table to study up my POA. Literally, Anwar came and approached me and wondering why i'm alone. Hahaha, I explained shortly. Summarized it but i didnt exactly tell everything. Pek cek*
Then we talked for awhile then Anwar went back to class. Baby's my only companion eventhough he's not with me but atleast he's there for me. Sighhhh, i'm so used to it being dependent on someone else, :( Maybe i should spend more time on my own luhh. It'll be easier at least . I'm trying/.
One by one, everyone's already influenced,none actually talked to me. -.- I was like laughing inside when people listened only to one part of a story(whether its twisted or not) and in an instant! "oh,she's a bitch. Stay away from her". LOL~ HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHA.
Do whatever you want kay girls? Stay as far till Mars also i dont mind :) I'm okay with it. What i know, I did nothing wrong and you guys DONT KNOW the whole story,so be it :)
Nah, I'm fine with it. Just be mature,oh please.
Okay, so after school was raining heavily and i waited for the rain to actually stopped but initially i just make my way out of the school cause waiting alone just sucks. Huhu, so i went down the hill, They should've built shelter down the hill! -.- Grrrr. Then got home and got so fatigue. Grandma fried for me chickens and hotdogs :) Im satiated now and am so happy that my stomach is filled up! :) Huhu! I wont be meeting baby today so i can fill my space with doing my homework :) Hehehe, I'm gonna start studying now! Chiong like fuck! :)
Woooohoooooooo~
I'm engrossed in Maths now. Ohmygod,I love my attitude. xD
Hhehehe, okay luhhh.
I'm bored luhh, BYEBYE! :)
Love youuu readers :)
Xoxo!<3
annoying okay @ 6:47 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello People :D
Last night was rather shivery, Very hard to sleep plus its super cold, I covered myself with blanket,i kept shivering so i put on his T-shirt :) I felt warmer but yeah i'm kinda worried about yesterday when he didnt miss call me when he's home so i was like wondering where he's at and bla bla bla. I got so anxious and i can't even sleep luhhh. Grr. Then i stayed a bit late with Sister when we listened to some songs and he missed call me two times. I slept at 1plus am but i hardly close my eyes. I felt a lil bit uneasy to sleep cause whenever i closed my eyes, i feel like there's light shining on my eyes. I kept opening my eyes and went back to sleep and covered my face with carebear. :P
The next morning, He kept calling and calling,i was like, why did he call me early in the morning a lot of times? I just end all the calls and slept till 9am. Mum rushed me downstairs to 888 to get thosai. -.- I saw baby downstairs but Mum was being such an irritant so i didnt have the chance to go to baby. wth. Then yeah, Very tiring luh. Carry those things and went back home, Baby didnt even text me when he reached Woodlands CC. grrrr. Nevermind. Didnt even know he topped up already . sigh. Nevermind. :( Oh well, then i slept from 1pm till 5pm, what do ya think? Super rest huh. I was saving my prepaid for tomorrow so that i could contact him when im alone tomorrow but instead,he got mad at me for not informing him when i reached home this morning. Sigh.dont know luh. Its already 6pm plus and i knew he'd end at 5 but he didnt even text me :( then now, he didnt replied any of my texts. Come on,baby. Understand me :(
Sigh, i dont know whether i'd be meeting him later.
I doubt so luh, Dad's gonna come home early, i guess? while Baby's at Causeway still,i dont know for what. UGH. annoying okay!
And plus,tomorrow will be going to school alone. Brother's going to school at 9. _|_
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I just felt that the March Holidays, I did NOTHING at home, Seriously.
Okay, bye.
Tomorrow's school, Uh suckkkks.
Lovvvve <3
Last night was rather shivery, Very hard to sleep plus its super cold, I covered myself with blanket,i kept shivering so i put on his T-shirt :) I felt warmer but yeah i'm kinda worried about yesterday when he didnt miss call me when he's home so i was like wondering where he's at and bla bla bla. I got so anxious and i can't even sleep luhhh. Grr. Then i stayed a bit late with Sister when we listened to some songs and he missed call me two times. I slept at 1plus am but i hardly close my eyes. I felt a lil bit uneasy to sleep cause whenever i closed my eyes, i feel like there's light shining on my eyes. I kept opening my eyes and went back to sleep and covered my face with carebear. :P
The next morning, He kept calling and calling,i was like, why did he call me early in the morning a lot of times? I just end all the calls and slept till 9am. Mum rushed me downstairs to 888 to get thosai. -.- I saw baby downstairs but Mum was being such an irritant so i didnt have the chance to go to baby. wth. Then yeah, Very tiring luh. Carry those things and went back home, Baby didnt even text me when he reached Woodlands CC. grrrr. Nevermind. Didnt even know he topped up already . sigh. Nevermind. :( Oh well, then i slept from 1pm till 5pm, what do ya think? Super rest huh. I was saving my prepaid for tomorrow so that i could contact him when im alone tomorrow but instead,he got mad at me for not informing him when i reached home this morning. Sigh.dont know luh. Its already 6pm plus and i knew he'd end at 5 but he didnt even text me :( then now, he didnt replied any of my texts. Come on,baby. Understand me :(
Sigh, i dont know whether i'd be meeting him later.
I doubt so luh, Dad's gonna come home early, i guess? while Baby's at Causeway still,i dont know for what. UGH. annoying okay!
And plus,tomorrow will be going to school alone. Brother's going to school at 9. _|_
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I just felt that the March Holidays, I did NOTHING at home, Seriously.
Okay, bye.
Tomorrow's school, Uh suckkkks.
Lovvvve <3
Labels: lonesome
immature. @ 4:15 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
people change yeah and time flies. I agree. This morning i was awakened by a very suprising text message from one of my bestfriends, Accusing me for ruining one's reputation when i knew what i did was just curiosity. Never was i intend to put a bad reputation on you. You THINK too much and always listens to one part of a story and then go haywire on me when you didnt know the WHOLE story. I was like, BLANK. completely. i was surprised, i was. Literally,i guess i shouldnt bother anymore. Enough. Even now, I prefer being on my own, Just me. I dont need friends who don't trust. Its okay, we part ways. I'm fine being alone, You guys take care. Make me people hate me, do whatever you want. I dont care already. goodbye friends.
Enough said,i dont wanna pen down more. Okay,so yesterday. I went to Lavender to accompany sister to collect her passport.I woke up early for that purpose and that sucks, Sleepy.Then went Bugis and had breakfast at Macdonalds. Then yeah, I was pretty satiated by then. On the way home, i board the mrt in the first cabin when Baby called using his friend's number. I was a bit anxious,i kept wondering how could he use his friend's number when he's out for check up? Then i saw him board the mrt at Yio Chu Kang. I was like,WHAT!? Naughty boy. Know what, he's still schooling! I'm so so so so so HAPPY! :) Indeed,i was :)
So this pictures are all yesterday's pictures, just uploading it cause yesterday i didnt have that much time to update for yesterday. huhu, so yeah. Baby went home late yesterday after meeting him up downstairs :) i missed him so muchhh! Huhu.
So this morning, I woke up quite early i guess around 11plus after i received the text message. Pretty annoying actually but whatever luh, I went to have my bath, met baby downstairs.
I went to Tampines just now, Uncle sent me to pick my Aunt up from her house and off-ed to Bedok to collect Dad's handphone and bought bubbletea there :) Damn nice baby plus its cheap! :) hehehe! Then while waiting for Aunt's friend to pick us up, we have a chat with Aunt and she told us about the problems she faced. Then went home after that, very fatigue. And yeah, i kinda got over what happened this particular morning. Nevermind, baby got back from Woodlands CC and wanna give me some pack foods he brought for me but Mum was being so (unexplained) telling me to just ask him to bring the food home -.-
okay whatever luh. huhu
Skies at Tampines:) nice isnt it?
Okay till here people !;)
Love you,
Goodnight! <3:)
Okay till here people !;)
Love you,
Goodnight! <3:)
im trying hard. @ 3:28 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello :(
I'm setting my soul free, its escaping anyway, its pain.
My soul's now with you baby, when you're away, I'm empty.:(
Yesterday after u went home, I was trying hard to be mature enough to get cool with this situation i'm facing. I texted baby, i knew this burden has been so heavy for me,you, US.
Its very sensitive now,baby. I cooled us down with good mindset, trying hard to be mature in this relationship,I knew this thing is already fated. :( We HAVE TO face it, no matter what.
Im diving low now, :( sigh, We went onthephone yesterday for 1hour i guess? Till 2am?
I pitied my brother's prepaid that went running yesterday, Oh,i miss his voice :( He kept disturbing me and making me so alive but i just need his embrace! :( but he cant be around for now.:(
Sighhhhhh, We talked and seriously listening to him coughing so badly hits me HARD. :( I feel his pain, I feel so distracted, i feel so uncaring of me :( Sighhhh, why must he always asking me questions that are related to my nightmare?:( oh,i just read his blog, sighhh. Baby,dont think that way. You can improve it of you'd just LISTEN to me and not follow what you feel its right. Please,for once :( i know you wanna be better once more, co-operate baby :( please. I ensure you things'll be great with you being fine and no more coughing at all :(
Think wisely baby. :( I would never wanna leave you being unwell this way,it hurts me hard.:( So please,baby. heed my advice,:( I care so much about you, even your pain brought me down,you know?:( sighhh. I was glad we talked yesterday and he told me the things he can bring and things he cant bring to NS. So yeah,i was glad he was allowed to bring phone but no CHARGER -.- okay, he said he'll be buying a lot of batteries. HAHA,Its okay. I guess im open about this situation already. Only the part when im gonna be alone without you. I pity myself missing you but its okay, with this faith for this love, I'll wait for your return.
This song makes me all better,
Gunslinger-Avenged Sevenfold. (do listen to the song)
It resembles us, now. It tells about how the guy struggled to go back and forth just to meet the girl and make her feel all secured with such warm letters sent, sigh. :(
Okay, morning was fine. I woke up pretty early but was too reluctant to get off my bed. :P
So i literally woke up at 1230pm around there, :) besides, if i were to be awake, i will do NOTHING at all.
Boredom,
Oh well, If only i could meet baby today, IF ONLY.
But he have to attend some checkup today,so maybe he cant make it plus i cant have any night meetups again as warned by my Dad -.- its okay, i have to endure this agony.
Ieqah,you're strong! Very patient! Keep going,girl! (Y) hehehehe. encouraging myself.
Baby, im falling more and more for you everyday.
I swear its true,with this distance between us,eventhough it kills,
It builds the love,honey.
I LOVE YOU,TOO MUCH. <3>
I'm setting my soul free, its escaping anyway, its pain.
My soul's now with you baby, when you're away, I'm empty.:(
Yesterday after u went home, I was trying hard to be mature enough to get cool with this situation i'm facing. I texted baby, i knew this burden has been so heavy for me,you, US.
Its very sensitive now,baby. I cooled us down with good mindset, trying hard to be mature in this relationship,I knew this thing is already fated. :( We HAVE TO face it, no matter what.
Im diving low now, :( sigh, We went onthephone yesterday for 1hour i guess? Till 2am?
I pitied my brother's prepaid that went running yesterday, Oh,i miss his voice :( He kept disturbing me and making me so alive but i just need his embrace! :( but he cant be around for now.:(
Sighhhhhh, We talked and seriously listening to him coughing so badly hits me HARD. :( I feel his pain, I feel so distracted, i feel so uncaring of me :( Sighhhh, why must he always asking me questions that are related to my nightmare?:( oh,i just read his blog, sighhh. Baby,dont think that way. You can improve it of you'd just LISTEN to me and not follow what you feel its right. Please,for once :( i know you wanna be better once more, co-operate baby :( please. I ensure you things'll be great with you being fine and no more coughing at all :(
Think wisely baby. :( I would never wanna leave you being unwell this way,it hurts me hard.:( So please,baby. heed my advice,:( I care so much about you, even your pain brought me down,you know?:( sighhh. I was glad we talked yesterday and he told me the things he can bring and things he cant bring to NS. So yeah,i was glad he was allowed to bring phone but no CHARGER -.- okay, he said he'll be buying a lot of batteries. HAHA,Its okay. I guess im open about this situation already. Only the part when im gonna be alone without you. I pity myself missing you but its okay, with this faith for this love, I'll wait for your return.
This song makes me all better,
Gunslinger-Avenged Sevenfold. (do listen to the song)
It resembles us, now. It tells about how the guy struggled to go back and forth just to meet the girl and make her feel all secured with such warm letters sent, sigh. :(
Okay, morning was fine. I woke up pretty early but was too reluctant to get off my bed. :P
So i literally woke up at 1230pm around there, :) besides, if i were to be awake, i will do NOTHING at all.
Boredom,
Oh well, If only i could meet baby today, IF ONLY.
But he have to attend some checkup today,so maybe he cant make it plus i cant have any night meetups again as warned by my Dad -.- its okay, i have to endure this agony.
Ieqah,you're strong! Very patient! Keep going,girl! (Y) hehehehe. encouraging myself.
Baby, im falling more and more for you everyday.
I swear its true,with this distance between us,eventhough it kills,
It builds the love,honey.
I LOVE YOU,TOO MUCH. <3>
Labels: may the fate lies between this love
baby away:( @ 8:15 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
do i look like im okay? do i?
Look closely, eyebags are getting obvious.
Sigh, my love one's gonna be away for two years, how can i cope life being with him?
Someone whom i needed daily, every moment ! :(
But how could this be? life's so cruel,even cigarettes cant complete this half-dead life.
MAN! fuck my life! FUCK everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh.
seperation's gonna be hard on us, Not only me, you BUT US!
why must it be this way/?! why god,why!?
Today's the last i'd be seeing my baby but i cant even meet him now, dad's home:( Fuck it.
Sighhhhhhh,baby,what this love's got us, brought us pain now,so much pain :( TOO MUCH._|_
fuck it. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
now's dad got lecturing Baby,Irfan and Ajik. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
okay thankgod, dad didnt bash him up, :-x
Things went well but im crying agony inside.
Okay bye. :(
where u baby? @ 11:01 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
baby,
where are you?
Im worried about you, so sick i couldnt help it.
I dont mind u leaving me for the time-being while you're in service.
I dont mind being alone cause there's no other choices left.:(
We have to part for awhile.
I know u really dont wanna go this stupid shit.
but where are you now?
Dont make me worried sick like this,i cant bear this pain!
baby, please,reply my text at least! tell me,where are you!?:(
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
where are you?
Im worried about you, so sick i couldnt help it.
I dont mind u leaving me for the time-being while you're in service.
I dont mind being alone cause there's no other choices left.:(
We have to part for awhile.
I know u really dont wanna go this stupid shit.
but where are you now?
Dont make me worried sick like this,i cant bear this pain!
baby, please,reply my text at least! tell me,where are you!?:(
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Sean paul @ 12:59 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
HELLO! ;) Huhu,i dont know i'm so CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY for this GUY above! :) Not just yet, Synyster's still my one and only :P HAHAH ! I dont know, Sean paul's been in lingering in my head non-stop! I just love his soothing voice luhhhh, sexxxxayeeeee :D (L)Hoho, So i woke up early this morning to wake baby up and went back to sleep. Uh ga ga ga , I wanna go study luh seh! But when? Everyone's not free. HOHO. nevermind,maybe gonna start study tomorrow and meet up with my babies <3 Huhu, Can't wait to study with them again like before. Ohmyyyyy~ Remember those times with the St.Andrews dudes? ^^ wink wink. Hahaha. old times, missed it :( So now,im currently wasting my time at home with earphones stucked to my ear, not wanting to hear to Grandma's lecture, man its like a repetition ya know? Annoying much,tell me about it. So yeah, im rotting at home yaw. How badly i wanna go study now,but i just cant concentrate with Baby brother's around. Ohmyyyy. Okay luh,just a short post luh.
Eh bitch,stop re-appearing in my life, to me you're transparent, don't make it translucent for me to see ya around in my life, it obliterates me. :D
Okay bye!
xoxo! Lovelovelove.
what a day. @ 9:33 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
HELLO! :)
so morning was very funny! Cause why? I woke up after i dreamnt that teacher called me cause i have MATH extra class when i have NONE! What the fuck luh, Its somehow feels so real, :P Then i spent some time to wake baby up but prepaid's low,so its very uneasy for me to know whether he's going to school a not. Then woke up, Followed Grandma to AMK Hub, Baby was pretty suspicious when he kept texting and asked me why am i reaching AMK hub so lateeeeeeeeeeeeee.I knew something's fishy already :P He said he's at PolyClinic. Bla bla bla :P
Then yeah, reached there, i walked all the way and BOOM, baby popped behind me, Then we went to Grandma's friend's house and spent some time there.
Then walked around at AMK Hub, we searched for the Money Changer like some tourists,looking at the directory and asking around, LOL. then finally, we found it and how funny it was when one fake money of Grandma's has a picture of a woman with a penis, WHAT THE HELL luh, we laughed like fuck, thank god she didnt went to change that money xD Hoho.
Then after that, I was pretty OFF-MOOD eventually looking at my little brother running around and making noise, it pissed me off, So i kept quiet and got really UGH! So i just carried on. I watched him wanting to be carried by Baby. :( Sebokkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk jer!
Then yeah, took mrt back home!
Then bought Long John Silver at Causeway and i ordered Cheesy Fries ! :D Woohoooo!
Then took 911 back home, I WAS SHOCKED.
To see someone there, somebody.
I was pretty shocked when i saw him, I felt somehow uneasy but i got over it already. Somehow i just cant face him, i felt like a bitch, hell yeah i was :-S
Uh sighhhhh,then fed Baby the food i bought and went to sit around at Northplaza there.
Baby pinched my nose till its blue black now :(
Booohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
Okay, i guess till here,
I feel so desperately want to STUDY! i dont know whyyyyy leh. HAHAHAHHAHA!
Come people, want study, TELL ME!
Faster, 1 week holidays,i nothing to do leh horrrr.
HUHU!
XOXO!
happy March Holidays People! <3
KISSESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
Bad dream @ 3:47 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello ! :)
i was confused and entangled amongst two worlds. I remembered yesterday when i was super happy outside with my sister then received a text from somebody saying, "i saw your guy with some other girl outside, im at yishun and im otw back home now..".
I was like, WHAT THE FUCK,i raged with anger and i couldnt take it so i kept on texting and calling him but yet he didnt replied, i was very anxious! i didnt hesitate to keep on calling like GILA. haha. kay, then on the way back, i felt like, "uh give up luh, pek cek uh".
Then suddenly the person texted again saying, "ngah uatpe?".
OBVIOUSLY,he's trying to break us up sia, i was like what the hell luh so i didnt bothered to reply that dumb text.
Then i played the computer alone while the others all slept since its afternoon.
Then baby called, he asked me to go down and so i did.
I went out and saw him downstairs, somehow he wanna hide. :P
I can see him before he could hide :P Huhu, so we sat down and talked. We went up and i kissed him hard and hugged him tightly ! Then Grandma asked him to taste her cooking; Nasi Lemak. :)
So he waited outside and i gave him food and i went in to bathe while he sat downstairs till i got home from Nyai's house. Saw him downstairs and he hid again! Ugh,naughty baby! :P
Then we walked to Bubbletea and i kept on disturbing him with my tongue stick out :P
HUHU! Then now i missed him already.
I had a bad dream yesterday...
" i dreamt, Baby gave a letter and wrote down his last words, he told me he wont be living on this world for long and he would wanna be alone now so that i wont be missing him during his last days. lastly,he said iloveyou with a rose, I BURST INTO TEARS and i couldnt help it, i kept calling him but i couldnt get through,i got so UGH! Pick up the call, and he answered and asked me what more i want? I went like,"please,for the last time, spend your last moments with me before you leave this world" :( Then he said okay. He fetched me from school and sent me back home, He gave me a necklace and put it on for me and he said, "dont lose this and remember i'll always be loving you,takecare of yourself,dont miss me". He kissed me on the cheeks and i watched walked until he eventually disappear from my sight. ".
I woke up crying and i couldnt help it, I told him and he said, that's only fantasy, I promise you i wont ever leave you. I got so INTO this dream,i dont know why :( I hope so its NOT coming true :( oh god,please:(
Baby's sick now :( Boohoo, Maybe i'll be meeting him tonight or maybe he should just stay at home? I miss him so much :(
Rest well at home and get well soon my baby love :(
Uh shit,my prepaid low somemore, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
Kay bye!
Tomorrow holiday ! :D
xoxo!
Labels: baby, dont leave me
back together @ 2:29 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello hello blogggy! :DSorrry my previous post was kinda irrelevant and very despondent and hard to understand. it was rather pushy for me. That night,i fell and drowned in my own tears. I was in dilemma, a feeling like letting go and live this world alone,all on my own despite knowing that my love's for him is too BIG and STRONG. Its rather hard to say Goodbye and its too early for a seperation. I cried myself to sleep and found myself sleeping only at 2am when i waited for his reply. Next morning, i was reluctant to wake up to know its SCHOOL~. sighhhhhh~ I was almost late for school and eyebags getting me looking really tired that morning. Then Mothertongue,It was my worst nightmare, He spelled out, BREAKUP on me. I poured tears in class and friends got worried of me but i do it cool, I went to the toilet,I screamed my fucking lungs out and fucking cursing my life and yes my life sucks! What can i say more? it kills, I finished every tissue roll and washed my face a number of times,i got my knuckles going on red and i really feel like running away from school but thank god,i got hold of myself. I went back to class. So yeah, I killed every moment i could to save this relationship,i did whatever i can, sigh, and we're okay after he apologized when school ended. I was relieved. I went home alone,again. Its been a routine already so im used to it already. Reached home and closed my eyes for a while and waited for him to come. He reached, i went out and met him. The first thing we did when we saw eachother was, We smiled and then Laughed. weird isnt it? I dont know. but everything were settled then and i'm uber happy.
So thats it,i was happy we were back as per normal :)
claps.
okay bye.
@ 11:42 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
i dying now. I dont know whats happening,(sorry if my typing's are all crzy).Im outta control now.fuck life,I dont know wht are you talking!?suddenly said im acting and stuffs when actually YOU are the one acting as if i didnt knw you did things that i REALLY hate, you promised me ytd didnt u?what nw?:(sigh,isnt it wonderful to see me cry?isnt it dear?dont cha feel anything??sigh,why r u alre givin up?Who started all this mess if it wasnt u?have i done anything wrong? have i ?I did nothing. all the while i endured to the pain you're givin me as long as i have u!!!!!!!!!!!!! and now,you're throwing all this love like a rubbish to u. It meant nothing to u right?i know, im redundant to u.I knw u dnt need me anymre.i know,you dnt love me lik u ussed to.i know everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck life.it turns around my smile,it pulls down my profile.Im going LOW.N' levels are approaching,and im nt catching up cause im CUAGHT UP IN THIS MESS.im still strong,standing up tall,upholding this love. but you didnt. all you do was just being mad at me,ignore me and not telling me anything.i knw im nobody.sigh.maybe she'll all that u need.maybe she;s the one yeh/? sigh.love,you're the reason why im still living, if not i wouldnt have made it this far cause i gave up to easily, then nw what/.?sigh.any further,ikept tripping,i crawled but nvr too fast. this is too much tome.tell me the answer by tomorrow,i'll wait up. come what may be, i'll accept it. Once i said,Goodbye. My farewell means FOREVEr.i wont be around anymore,you wont see anymore,you cn nvr have me again for the 2nd time.i wanna new perspective in life. dont follow me tnght,while im gone...................everything will be alright,,,, nobody's gonna be by ur side.,
bye.
bo bian de. @ 10:21 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello :)
Happen what may happen to me, let it be. I feel it coming but i'm still standing and still hiding. Nobody knows, i died almost everyday~
Oh well, yesterday was a moment to remember when we played under the rain, pushed eachother so that we'll get drenched and shiver. Haha, Damn fun :) Huhu, Then yeah. We got ourselves shivering cause its super cold. Then yeah,he sent me home and blablablabla, somehow we're okay liao.
Okay,
Today huh?
I just love going to school, cause when my babygirls are there, i felt ALIVE. never dead. That's the reason why i looked up to come to school everyday. Plus, I saw my report card, Its as known, Badly done lorh. I failed 3 subjects in total and passed 4 subjects only. It sucks uh, Somemore N's levels approaching. Can die sia~ Maths is like a total failure for me lor. sighhh, bo bian de ah. But i felt super glad that i passed my Physics and i wont be standing like Stamford Raffles for every Physics lesson now :P Huhu! Perhaps, Alex and those people who always sabo me when i quietly sit down during Physics lesson LAST time should be standing up now, Stand up for Singapore hor. xD
Hehehehe. Oh well, Had free doughnuts due to the celebration of the Sec 5 students. :) Weeee heeeeee~ Then yeah, after school, i parted ways with my babygirls. So i was rather lonely, But who cares,im getting used to it :) Hehehe. Then i waited for the Cabin to open, waaah fuck, when i "tried" to attend my CCA,it seems like the CCA didnt want me to attend cause Cabin's closed for today -.- I studied my maths at Mac Table and finally understood what was taught in class when i was half asleep. hehehe. Then Kuan Kian approached me, I was like, "Sorry i didnt replied your message!".
Then he like smiling only then he went away.
He walked back, passed by me and say, "sorrry huh? sorrrry huhhh?".
Hahaha, damn funny lorh.
Huhu, then i met Baby at Yio chu kang.
then went to Sembawang to get my Pearly Soya bean :) Woohooo~
Then yeah, took bus home and walked a looooooooooooong wayyyyy~
Somehow, i was rather upset watching my cousin,Ajik to be doing things which i hate. :( I felt so upset watching him behaving that way, i did laughed but somehow,deep inside, i felt like crying watching him that way :(
Sighhhh, Cousin, Please !:( Stop doing all those things. sighhhhh :( I managed to talk to you just now and somehow feel your sadness :( I believe there's gonna be something that awaits you, something that'll make you smile broadly. i'll pray for you, dont wish to see you hurt like this :( it kills. :(
Then Baby had to go home cause he's got to alter his pants and some stuffs to be settled.
then yeah we went seperate ways. yeah :)
Huhu, i felt so happy today ;)
Oh well, i feel so sick. sick. sick.
Only God can describe how i feel :) Oh well,i dont wanna pen it down uh.:D
huhu,
i dont feel like typing anymore, i would type out my feelings,I DONT WANT~
kay bye!
love <3
xoxo!
xin tong de ah,
I'm running but im not sure where to go~
I'm running but im not sure where to go~
when baby when/? @ 7:30 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
I'm going through miseries in every chapter i stepped onto,It burns me like hell,
It cuts me like a razor blade,
it bleeds me like i'm left with a few red blood cells to live,
It choked me like those smoke that gets into my throat with every puffs,
It kills me like the scorching sun,
It tears me like a piece of tissue,
It weakens me like a soft pillow,
It caught me while i'm down,
And now supposingly i'm breaking down.
Perhaps, with a presentable fake smile to show that im at least, still alive right now. uh sighhhh, I dont know, somehow i felt so feeble till i have to crawl in order to get to my destination, I felt so bitchy of me cause im burning now,still. I didnt know what happened between you two till i find that the girl's hardly let go of you. It breaks me to see i'm hurt, it breaks me to see you bring agony in her life. but sighhh, everyone do make mistakes in life yeah? I can never commence.
To you, you may think im arrogant but nah, Who's not angry? That's really common sense right?
sighhh.
Nah, Im too down to be exuberant.
I slept a couple of periods in class because im fatigue.
Sometimes, i just felt like ending my life. Let it be undefined and let me be on the other side.
I dont know. :-S
I feel so complicated.
Even every little things i do, would end up with no communications between us.
Its not just today.
Yesterday was,too :(
I'm tired of you treating me this way honey,
I want US like we used to be before.
And you do know, Tears dont fall freely when i'm happy, it's because im despondent :(
But why must we be unspoken?
Why must be walk a distance apart?
Did i do anything wrong?
Those words on my notes are just something i'd love to type out whenever i'm down cause That's Me.
everday seems like so unsignificantly.
I loathed it so much :(
when can we be like the couple that used to laughed from that place till you sent me home?
When can we be like the couple that used to spent all day talking and make use of every single second?
When can we be like the couple that used to walk hand in hand from Point A to Point B?
I wanna see that couple around.
everytime when i see that couple, I would ask myself, "where's me and you?".
Probably, "me and you" is left right behind us,
Nobody picks us up, we left on that broken road,
And now, I'm fetching us back together.
But im sure we can never bring "us" back again.
Maybe we'd be much different.
Different than i could ever imagine,
Oh how badly each night i cried myself to sleep remembering the old us.
Only that pink soft carebear you gave me that could make me hug it so tightly and bring me to sleep.
Okay, whatever.
I went to school alone today, so lonesome.
I starved myself in school cause im tired.
Bestfriends have been beside me all day to listen to my stories <3 I love you bestfriends :(
After school, in the mrt was a scary incident.
3 ITE guys standing on my right direction, they were discussing and they kept looking.
I felt really uneasy so i didnt dared to look to my right.
I'd only wait for Baby to call and so they'll leave.
And finally baby did, I was GLAD he did, they went away.
I alighted at Yishun and didnt dared to look at them standing by the door, I rushed to meet baby.
Met baby.
Everything was ALMOST like how we used to.
But apparently things changed shortly after i went out again from home.
Some notes displayed on my phone eventually brought him down and let him be so silent.
I was put aside.
I guess i think too much till i got my head all caught up and that headache comes.
It kills me to walk cause i'd walk like a drunk woman.
I kept it to myself and walked really slowly at the back.
Once we found a place to seat.
We sat side by side, I felt like stranger.
Things got worst and headache leads me to vomiting.
I went back home straight and i didnt informed baby why i went home for awhile.
It was un-imaginable to walk on my own with my head's spinning and that urge to vomit.
i walked slowly with the help of those walls beside me to aid me back home safely.
I paused by the stairs and i really couldnt take it anymore.
I rushed home and popped in some panadols but it somehow got me even more dizzier.
I felt like crying.
I felt like i'm abandoning myself.
I felt like i'm abusing my mind.
Imma mess :(
I met baby and solved things up,
Looked at him in the eyes and his pupil were never on my direction.
Tears started to fall and my heart;s already sinking when he didnt say a word :(
I kept persevering, not wanting to let this love kept pulling me down,
I'm fighting hard.
And finally we were okay, we poured tears and we did for numerous times,
when can we cry out of joy, baby?
sigh.
i dont know.
Bye :)
xoxo.
Labels: the old us
i miss you baby:( @ 9:43 AM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
ku bukan hanya mengharapkan kemaafan darimu, ku juga inginkan keikhlasan darimu.Hello!
So yesterday i slept around 2am after being onthephone with my Baby. He's head's kinda giving him some problems that made me him uneasy to sleep so i accompanied him. We talked and he told me about what happened during his 'kendarat' yesterday and i could see it's very tiring. I kept persuading him to sleep cause i dont want him to be fatigue by tomorrow cause he's got to go for 'kendarat' again at Jurong plus he didnt slept for two 'unwonderful' days. I am pretty worried about him :[ So yeah. I remembered yesterday, upon some moment, I felt like i'm choked with my breath, wanting to ask him something but i was reluctant much, so i started out with, "I wanna ask you something, but im scared luhh". Then he went like, "just tell me".
He repeated the same thing he said,
I breathed in and out and POP.
"are you sure that you stopped contacting with that girl?".
He replied, "no, dear, we're just friends.".
I was like, "oh uh."
He said, "why? you dont trust me huh? "
I went like, "I dont know, gimme time kay?".
He said,"oh,okay".
His voice went a little bit soft and i know he felt rather uneasy about that question.
Then i talked and described that the girl looked, "cute".
He went like, "please,dont talk about it anymore?"
Then like ya, Actually on that point of time, I began to feel that urge to cry. I dont know why:(
Then we talked till its 1am plus.
We hung up the phone and i remembered him saying,
So yesterday i slept around 2am after being onthephone with my Baby. He's head's kinda giving him some problems that made me him uneasy to sleep so i accompanied him. We talked and he told me about what happened during his 'kendarat' yesterday and i could see it's very tiring. I kept persuading him to sleep cause i dont want him to be fatigue by tomorrow cause he's got to go for 'kendarat' again at Jurong plus he didnt slept for two 'unwonderful' days. I am pretty worried about him :[ So yeah. I remembered yesterday, upon some moment, I felt like i'm choked with my breath, wanting to ask him something but i was reluctant much, so i started out with, "I wanna ask you something, but im scared luhh". Then he went like, "just tell me".
He repeated the same thing he said,
I breathed in and out and POP.
"are you sure that you stopped contacting with that girl?".
He replied, "no, dear, we're just friends.".
I was like, "oh uh."
He said, "why? you dont trust me huh? "
I went like, "I dont know, gimme time kay?".
He said,"oh,okay".
His voice went a little bit soft and i know he felt rather uneasy about that question.
Then i talked and described that the girl looked, "cute".
He went like, "please,dont talk about it anymore?"
Then like ya, Actually on that point of time, I began to feel that urge to cry. I dont know why:(
Then we talked till its 1am plus.
We hung up the phone and i remembered him saying,
"i akan sentiase tunggukan you."
"I will always wait for you".
"I will always wait for you".
As in, wait for me till i could really surrender my trust to him once more.
Then i looked through my old messages and somehow, I miss my bestfriend, I meant the old times, when we're still single and naive about love. We both always stayed together but now, we dont really spend much time except in school :( I miss her already. Boohoo~
I felt bad for not balancing my time between Boyfriend and Girlfriend. Maybe someday will go out with you like we did last time okay? I seriously miss those times,girlfriend:(
I love you so much<3
So yeah, I wake baby up at 6:55 in order for him not to be late! :D I woke up early today! wink wink! Then he's on his way when he called, he asked ab0ut Brother than he asked whther i would go back to sleep again. HAHA! I was like, okay, i go bathe luhhh. xD
Hehhehe, then soon, he reached, I met him outside,
And yeah, baby looked awesome today, Just that I missed him so much through those times when he so called, "played a game" with me, we dont usually spend time after that, we dont usually laughed hard like we used to, we dont talked heart-to-heart like how we used to, Oh god, i missed those times. I missed him so much, so much that i feel like bursting into tears now :( Sighhh.
I guess till here then,
I'm going to the supermarket at Admiralty with mum,
I shouldnt have been awake by now! xD
sial jer aku eh.
Kay bye!
Love you readers!
xoxo!
Then i looked through my old messages and somehow, I miss my bestfriend, I meant the old times, when we're still single and naive about love. We both always stayed together but now, we dont really spend much time except in school :( I miss her already. Boohoo~
I felt bad for not balancing my time between Boyfriend and Girlfriend. Maybe someday will go out with you like we did last time okay? I seriously miss those times,girlfriend:(
I love you so much<3
So yeah, I wake baby up at 6:55 in order for him not to be late! :D I woke up early today! wink wink! Then he's on his way when he called, he asked ab0ut Brother than he asked whther i would go back to sleep again. HAHA! I was like, okay, i go bathe luhhh. xD
Hehhehe, then soon, he reached, I met him outside,
And yeah, baby looked awesome today, Just that I missed him so much through those times when he so called, "played a game" with me, we dont usually spend time after that, we dont usually laughed hard like we used to, we dont talked heart-to-heart like how we used to, Oh god, i missed those times. I missed him so much, so much that i feel like bursting into tears now :( Sighhh.
I guess till here then,
I'm going to the supermarket at Admiralty with mum,
I shouldnt have been awake by now! xD
sial jer aku eh.
Kay bye!
Love you readers!
xoxo!
i seriously miss you,baby
eventhough my heart has been partially torn by you,
Part of my heart's still yearning for your presence,
I wanna fall back and be in your arms,
like how i used to when i put my whole trust on you.
I love you,baby :'(
eventhough my heart has been partially torn by you,
Part of my heart's still yearning for your presence,
I wanna fall back and be in your arms,
like how i used to when i put my whole trust on you.
I love you,baby :'(
Labels: i need you
FUNNY sia. @ 4:27 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello hello! :)
I'm backkkk. I slept damn late lorh yesterday night cause Baby's not home.
Went on the phone with him cause im really really worried .
zzzZZzZzZZz, Then the next morning he texted me, I thought he's home and he had a full rest already but no :( He's outside :( He didnt went back home. :(
Sighhhh, and now he's sick!!!:(
So yeah, today.
AHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH~
i dont know what to say.
I burst with laughters looking at some profile then i was like, "oh you're the one?".
Tsk. I thought she's some Malibu Barbie. -.-
Kristal went "whatthefuck" with me over what happened just now.
SIAKKKK~
ahahhaa.
oh well,i want sleep now luhhh.
tired knowww, I went on the phone with Baby till my phone's super HOT!
Like gonna explode any moment like that.
Whatthefuckkk~
Ahhahaha.
Kay uh, Bye!
waiting for baby to call :P
xoxo!
I realised i said, "whatthefuck" alot of times todayyy. HAHAHA!
Baby,beri gw masa untuk bangkit semula,ya?.
Labels: i trusted you.
love game @ 10:46 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
hello. Yes i'm somehow in good terms with him already eventhough yesterday i struggled very hard last night but i was reluctant to forgive when i did accept his apology cause i was so weak, weak enough to even stand up for my soul. I'm helpless last night :( So yeah,this morning, I felt like crying but there's no point yeah?:( I rushed to school,texted with Kuan Kian! Ooppps,Sorry didnt wait up for you cause i entered school just on time and you're late!!!!!!!!!! :DHAHAHA!
so yeah,I felt really insecure being in school without me having to wake him up for school cause somehow my inner voice just say, "dont be so kind". I dont know i dont knowwwwwwwwwwwww. UGHHH~
Then yeah. school was fine somehow.
around 1136,he texted a long text. I read it, I dont know how to describe how i felt that very moment, its just u-p-s-e-t-t-i-n-g. All i did for the last period was, writing down a poem that fits my situation now. And i kinda like it cause it's just, IT FITS MY SITUATION. whatever:(
Then after school, i met him at Yishun. I dont feel like doing the talking neither do i look right into his eyes cause its simply deprecating enough. We sat somewhere, I dont wanna look at him, my heart's still burning,still aching, still breaking :(
he gave me a pink carebear, i gave in and i talked/laughed like how i used to(but not extremely). I just gave in , im so weak. Im so kind, im so naive, im so dumb, tell me again.
If he were to do the same thing to me, what can i do? Dont ask me :( Probably i'll just let him be with WHOEVER he wants to be with as long as it doesnt hurt me nor do it destroy my whole lovestory. I'm like, 'Whatever' Now.
do what you think its best for yourself cause maybe she SUITS you, Maybe She TOO PRETTY/PERFECT to you like how you always wanted a girlfriend to be. whatever luh, i couldnt care less already. Its just like a repetition my pasts, like a part of it, sighhhhhhhhhhhh. how i wish i was just dreaming, :(
man,
and now, IM MORE AND MUCH MORE UPSET, cause why!?
He's doing things that i DESPISE~
i dont wanna say it down here, ITS JUST UGHHHHHHHHHHH~
getting on my nerves, he doesnt care about how i cared about him, on how concerned am i about him,
I dont think he'd even realise it luhh.
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i dont know,
Still having doubts on this love.
What a love 'game'.
bye :(
Now, i dont believe in Forever.
Now, i dont believe in Forever.
Labels: i still can't believe it., i still have doubts
cry @ 9:35 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Hello.
I'm kinda not-in-my-best-mood now. so yeah. Bear with me yeah?
Oh yeah, that video right above (points up!) Gwen Stefani-4 in the morning.
Listen.
It made me cry last night till my eyes swell and i really cant help it except letting it all out to brother that walked with me till mrt. I story-tell him till my eyes went watery and every word i have to let out, hurts me, a million times. I can't describe how suckish it was, i can't really tell how deadly it was. Sigh.I really dont know,:(
I'm disappointed/upset, I felt so bitter.
sighhh, i dont know luh.
I know im never perfect.
I can never be.
Im sorry.
sigh.
bye :(
sorry short update :-S
Keep stabbing, keep killing my soul, my love's gonna remain the same, just like the first time i saw you. :(
Labels: what am i to you?
finally updated ! @ 12:04 PM
by Nur Faiqah Shahri
In school! "buruk-buruk Bangsat".
Hello people! :) Im baccccccccccccccck :DAfter so long since ive updated. My dad's been a nuisance and he kept making me not to be in contact with the lappy. Assssy.
Okay, So let me update about Last Saturday till today okay?
Last Saturday.
Huhu, Morning was draggy, met baby for awhile and then topped up my prepaid card and rushed back home to get ready to fuck off to Bedok for some Wedding Ceremony. I was reluctant on putting on any kebaya cause its freaking hot! mannnnnnnnnnn.
Then yeah,we got off and while waiting foir Grandma at CauseWay Point ,i saw baby and Papan in the bus 911, i dont know where are they going to, Hahaha. Baby! Very naughty,told me he's going home when he's in the next bus to meet me at Bedok. Eleeeeeh,wanna act only!
When i actually know everything :P
Then hehehee, went back and its already 7 . damn fatigue. Dad wanna bring us to eat Ice Cream; Snow Flake at Marine Parade. :)
Baby waited under my block while im awayyy.
Then i was so satiated man with the ice cream plus Nasi Ayam Penyet with ST12's songs playing out loud. WOHOO~
Then got home and its already late. Met baby for awhile and he wasnt that happy cause he get to meet for awhile only. so yeah :(
Last Sunday.
I woke up early in the morning and met baby around 1pm then off-ed to Northplaza to follow Sister for awhile then off-ed to Woodland mart, Actually me&baby got other plans but since brother tagged along.so we have to just change the plan for that day.
So yeah, after we got back from woodland mart, Went to meet Sister&Papan at 855 there.
Then waited for Ajik to come.
Then we sat for awhile and its getting a little bored AND HOTTT~
Then i asked baby to follow me go walk walk at 888.
And so we did, i mean we 'did' . HAHA!!
LALALALALA~
Then got back and Mum was rather SIOW~
so bear with it for awhile and Dad's home -.- oh so sick.
Then he asked brothe rto quickly go cut his hair like its only 7pm -.-
Then yeah, we rushed.
Then baby and Papan came.
I missed baby so much, Aduhh~
Then yeah, we sat downstairs for awhile and fed him some food and went to send some medicine to Nyai's house and we stayed there for awhile,Again -.-
Then, went to Mama shop for awhile and hugged baby really tightly.
and yeah. i thought i wouldnt be meeting him the next day. CLICK->
YESTERDAY.
Morning was draggy cause i slept late cause i had a late night talk with my sister and we kept talking till 1am ! whatthefuck. HAHAA, we planned to make breakfast but unfortunately we were too sleepy. So yeah, i then rushed to school and i was all alone :(
Then reached school, let me sayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
FUCK YOU,BLOODY TEACHER !~_|_
yeah! Im mad like fuck cause of YOU! bloody YOU! I was sent to the front cause you said my skirt was above knee, EH HELLO?! Its just right! it's KNEE-LENGTH. omfg! Why are you getting so annoying man!? You're getting on my nerves. And for that reason, VP aimed on my hair, Wah fuck. Then go to school must be so FREAKING NEAT uh? fuck, it doesnt affects our studies, hell you.
Then had Motivational Workshop, MAN IT SUCKS,so much. Only the part when we had puzzles and games,its fun. But listening to those talks, Nah,Im into my sleep.
I slept throughout and only waiting for breaks and recess. HAHA!
pathetic siakkk. Then during our break, Baby's Mum texted asking whether im with baby. I was SHOCKED eventually. Then Baby's mum called. I was like, HUH?
I thought it's his dad speaking on the other line .
ITS HIM WHEN I HEARD HIS LAUGHTER! mannn, so naughty! uGH!
Then watched some videos in Batam that we recorded, fuck, we laughed like the school's ours.
HAHAHHAHAA.
who cares hehhhh?
Then its 4plus, then we getta do our own stuffs, then at 5, we went out off school.
Somehow i felt his presence somehow.
then i walked down the school,I saw CINAMINAH. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE,GELI SIA.
whatever heh,nk step hot pat situh, tuiiii~
Then saw baby sitting from afar.
I was like, UGH!
Then i went to him and feel like crushing him into pieces.! xD HAHA!
Then CinaMinah watched us, i give her the whathefuck look.
HOHO.
Then Baby sent me home and Grandma invited her to come in and sit for awhile.
So yeah :)
Then i watched him eat and while watching Mr Bean . HAHA!
SO cute! Then we went to bubbletea and baby bought for me my SAPPORO popok! xD
uhhhh,thankyou! :)
hehehehe,
TODAY?
HAHAHA!
didnt go to school cause i dont wanna be a target. Oh no. whatever.
sleeping at home rather than going for the workshop. bullshit.
Huhu, im gonna fetch baby soon at 230
so yeah.
BYE !:)
Then had Motivational Workshop, MAN IT SUCKS,so much. Only the part when we had puzzles and games,its fun. But listening to those talks, Nah,Im into my sleep.
I slept throughout and only waiting for breaks and recess. HAHA!
pathetic siakkk. Then during our break, Baby's Mum texted asking whether im with baby. I was SHOCKED eventually. Then Baby's mum called. I was like, HUH?
I thought it's his dad speaking on the other line .
ITS HIM WHEN I HEARD HIS LAUGHTER! mannn, so naughty! uGH!
Then watched some videos in Batam that we recorded, fuck, we laughed like the school's ours.
HAHAHHAHAA.
who cares hehhhh?
Then its 4plus, then we getta do our own stuffs, then at 5, we went out off school.
Somehow i felt his presence somehow.
then i walked down the school,I saw CINAMINAH. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE,GELI SIA.
whatever heh,nk step hot pat situh, tuiiii~
Then saw baby sitting from afar.
I was like, UGH!
Then i went to him and feel like crushing him into pieces.! xD HAHA!
Then CinaMinah watched us, i give her the whathefuck look.
HOHO.
Then Baby sent me home and Grandma invited her to come in and sit for awhile.
So yeah :)
Then i watched him eat and while watching Mr Bean . HAHA!
SO cute! Then we went to bubbletea and baby bought for me my SAPPORO popok! xD
uhhhh,thankyou! :)
hehehehe,
TODAY?
HAHAHA!
didnt go to school cause i dont wanna be a target. Oh no. whatever.
sleeping at home rather than going for the workshop. bullshit.
Huhu, im gonna fetch baby soon at 230
so yeah.
BYE !:)
