What i detest now is Love,Ego,Friendship. I dont know. I was boiling with anger yesterday. Somehow things just cant go my way. Not that i hate it now that im attached,i aint complaining. Knowing that even if i could make it,will it be joyous like how i was when im with them? I dont know. Sigh, Im just being so egoistic now i guess. Just me and what made me feel okay. So not to let the argument go worse, I decided to just stay. And i did, i know i create disappointment on my bestfriends. I know theres gonna be hatred. I dont know. Dilemma. Im confused in between two things, Love&Friendship. Sigh. Im down. Down with several things gushing into my world. It pushed me down so hard, one thing i did, Breakdown and cry. I had sleepless night yesterday, i couldnt shut my eyes eventhough i'm sleepy. :( I waited and think . Nothing could help me that night, All i have was patience and God by my side. :( Finally i shut my eyes and hoping for a whole new day the next morning when the sun rise, everything remained the same. :( I gotta make things right. And i chosed Love despite knowing that i've made a mistake. Sigh, Hereby, I wanna apologise to my dear girlfriends cause i couldnt make it today,especially the birthday girl,Nabilah. I wanna wish you a Happy birthday :) Hope you guys will have countless joy captured for Nabilah's big day. I love you,girls,still. :( I'm really sorry..
I woke up early, accompanied with no text messages received. I beat myself hard.Guilt starting to build inside of me, i got out of my room and scolded my baby brother who was innocent enough whom asked me to switch on to his channel :( I shouted damn loud, "SHUT UP!". :(
I felt bad though and i cried. I'm so bad :( I hugged myself and crouched in my room,sister was pretty worried knowing that i had not enough of sleep. She kept coming to me and made me feel okay. Thanks sister <3 I'm glad things went well but i'm still not sure about whats my next outcome,Bestfriends :(
Sigh.
I guess till here yeah?:(
Takecare readers,I love you.
Xoxo<3