by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Zainal Nadzirul Ashraf. 111108/I can cry, i can smile, i can laugh, remembering the past that cant stop rushing into my mind every single when i set my eye on the sky or when i close my eyes every night. Its still, Unanswered. Its so unreasonable that it ended so fast as if its JUST yesterday when i got hold of him when he said, He'll never leave me. I sealed those words deep in my heart and keep it safe and knowing that it's never fulfilled. Those empty promises. I cant lie, I admit, I still love you so much cause i couldnt pull through. The love i had for you was SO strong that it just cant be expressed in words. Its the heart that matters, i was naive, i was dumb. To have accepted your love so rushingly and really thought you could make me smile so wide but you never. ): sadly, I kept dreaming about you and i was hoping i could grab onto you and be in your arms and feel your touch, like you're right next to me and can never let go. But thats so impossible. Its so hopeless to think that I MIGHT get hold of you once more. But i couldnt, Throughout those months we've been together, building this relationship to a strong and everlasting one, But you never committed anything. Nothing at all. All you could was, Make use of me. And all the time when we meet, Theres never a time when we sat together to talk and have a whole time SPENDING time together. Not by pleasure. Sigh. The way you left me is so hurtful and its too early to let go! ): I never thought from the first time i set my eyes on you, I never thought you'd be the worst nightmare ive ever dreamt of. But sadly, Love, You're never true, Never real. And everytime, i could feel the distance since our 1st break. There you go, have a whole lot of fun searching for girls and lied about our relationship, saying i played with your heart. Whats that love? whats that?Can you figure it out for me? why must you put down a bad image on me when i treated you nicely and NEVER leave your side. Even when my bill's rise up till a few hundreds, I still contact you and used prepaid card, AGAIN. You never have a sence of appreciation when i sacrificed every single thing JUST for you to show you how strong this LOVE i had. But sadly, None of my patience get me what i wanted all along, its something so simple, its YOUR LOVE, my love. JUST YOUR LOVE, nothing more i'd ever asked for. Why love? ): You're so evil, so heartless! ): You're the only guy that tore me up into pieces and i could never get back to myself. The girl who'll never be down by love , with a cheerful smile. Yes, Im the girl, ONLY ON THE OUTSIDE, but im never strong in the inside. Im just too Feeble. Too powerless. Too Hopeless. Too Helpless. I couldnt do a single thing, except praying for your well-being and your happiness. ):
I'd never asked for more, Im nothing to you now.
Only other girls has been on your mind every single time i viewed your tagged profile and glaring at your pictures and kept asking myself, "why cant a guy like you, at least have a good heart? " ):
I dont know what else to say, From what i see, You're just the same. Jerky and never have a sense of faithfulness and never stop making use of girls right away.
sigh. Love, all i wanna see is, YOU, Away from SINS. Thats all i ever wanted. ):
And why am i typing out this long post? Its because, I love you ):
So people, Thats the reason why I remained single till now, im sorry for those i rejected, I REALLY cant lie to myself and to my own feelings. ):
so, Who can i blame for all this disasters in my life?
MYSELF.
For letting him to get a chance to be inside my heart.
Ive learnt everything, But my promise that i still keep, I'll never leave your side.
Im still holding on to it.
Please, change ):
