by Nur Faiqah Shahri
I feel like tearing up right now,
I feel like dying every moment whenever i watched my life being this way ):
I felt like breaking down and cry OUT LOUD ):
I just cant describe this horrible feeling ):
Im asking myself, why? Why must this happen to me? Ive been tearing up sheding tears all night in bed, thinking what i done wrong ): I felt so disturbed, disappointed watching people change in a click and there they go, disappear from my side. why?! all the while, Ive been so patient throughout this stupid whole life challenges ive been going through, why cant i ever smile?! And people do know, feelings can never be controlled and i kept it inside of me, Bury it deep so that i wont be too over it. ): Sigh, Ive tried so hard enough, yet i fell, i fell so hard now, this great fall, I can never get up;this very moment. My body's too weak, my soul's never at peace and never had a sense of happiness. Never.
and with every tear that flowed continuously, You popped up in my mind. Nobody's to be blame, Im too hurt, Life's too cruel and people around me just cant APPRECIATE. And they'll never will. and all the while, I just find it so wrong to be caring. Since its soooooo wrong, I wont care no more aite people , better that way kan? (: and now, Mum's angry just because ive got no mood to talk, Make sense a not?! wah fuck.
it doesnt at all.
You're the one who's been opening up my mind and making me feel that sense of love.
and i always scared you would ever leave my side.
and now, I dont wanna be egoistic, instead of thinking about myself,
Its you that i think about.
Hope you'll get the someone you wanted all the while..
and stay happy as always,
i never thought you'd changed so much just to be with her and im so disappointed;
You turned me down, so well.
and i cant bear to do a single thing now,
Helpless, hopeless, disappointing, No point at all.
All the tears and all the no moods,
its cause ive been thinking about you.
You'll never know, so i tell you now.
I do like you.
Yes, you're that kind of unique and a special guy ive ever met,
You know how to treat a girl well enough.
and she;s lucky to be yours.
sigh.
People'll never understand,
and they'll never will.
and i always scared you would ever leave my side.
and now, I dont wanna be egoistic, instead of thinking about myself,
Its you that i think about.
Hope you'll get the someone you wanted all the while..
and stay happy as always,
i never thought you'd changed so much just to be with her and im so disappointed;
You turned me down, so well.
and i cant bear to do a single thing now,
Helpless, hopeless, disappointing, No point at all.
All the tears and all the no moods,
its cause ive been thinking about you.
You'll never know, so i tell you now.
I do like you.
Yes, you're that kind of unique and a special guy ive ever met,
You know how to treat a girl well enough.
and she;s lucky to be yours.
sigh.
People'll never understand,
and they'll never will.
Whats over, gonna put it far behind,
Im scared now, Scared to be this way in future and cry like fuck over things i'll never get.
Dreams has been so far to grab, Its just too near when i closed my eyes every night.
sigh.
yesterday, workshop was filled WITH SHIT.
heres the photos while we slacked.
So ya, im done.
Im pissed,
Im just, not gonna be myself.
Give me few days to get back up on my knees aite (;
Love you readers;
Im scared now, Scared to be this way in future and cry like fuck over things i'll never get.
Dreams has been so far to grab, Its just too near when i closed my eyes every night.
sigh.
yesterday, workshop was filled WITH SHIT.
heres the photos while we slacked.
So ya, im done.
Im pissed,
Im just, not gonna be myself.
Give me few days to get back up on my knees aite (;
Love you readers;
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