by Nur Faiqah Shahri
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and its 1.38am in the morning, i was like jumping and smiling away after i received a message from A. ); Missed him so badly, didnt know he'd actually remembered our 111108, but he did. Besides, he really thought ive moved on, but somehow somewhere, i just couldnt live without having him by my side); sometimes i felt bad, knowing that theres some others out there, wanting some chances, but i do appreciate every single thing they did, everyone knows its really hard for me to shed tears unless i really do feel like letting it all out, haiyy. so yeah, to make me feel better,
A, I do, Really miss you so much, for thats the reason why i typed out the looooooong sms for you. specially. After so looong i didnt seee ur face or even receive a message from you. Yes, i wanna thank you and i do appreciate that you actually did treasure our relationship in some ways, its okay, im alright, i understand and i know, you're busy in managing time, whether to spend time with me or either your N's. I get it all now, besides, im much mature in thinking now, so probably i knew what went wrong previously in those fights and arguments that were'nt supposed to have happened. I missed everything about you, EVERYTHING honey, your voice, your laughters, your warm hugs, your kisses, your goodnight wishes, your wakeup call, ); haiyy, if only i could meet you, One day, if God's willing, I wished to be close with you, so close till we cant be apart like now. ); I need you, badly. Like seriously, i have enough lying to my own feelings, its enough, even if you're gonna be the worst ex, when i say i love you, i meant it well and it remained the same till now, the times we had, REALLY kills me, it does, alot. Before i close my eyes, and every morning when the sun rises, my first thought, was you . baby, if only we could be muchmuch more understanding and much more mature, i dont think i'll be writing all this down, perhaps i would be hanging on the phone with you all night long. i just cant lose grip of you, but i knew you already slipped off my bare hands, you;re no more there. Though every single day , i was hoping, praying, yearning for you and waiting for atleast A message from you, AT LEAST. Baby, i missed you so much, HAPPY 7th MONTHSARY .
So thats about it, I had it. I missed it. I need it, NOW. But i know, i cant have it in reality, perhaps only in my dreams every night when i get to sleep.
If only theres one last chance, i wished my prayers were answered.
let it go for a moment, time heals everything, patience is what you have now, just waiting for your return, its still, Not the end of the story, 111108.
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