I'm in your heart,like a genie in the bottle.

Last Night, I missed 111108); @ 5:48 PM

by Nur Faiqah Shahri

The worst still hasnt come to an end, eventhough the struggles ended for the mid year exams. Im still wasnt really over him); Sadly, Ive tried so hard, people. Im sorry. But this feelings just cant be controlled! I cant help it, not sleeping every night but keep scrolling down the calender and got myself pouring into tears. Last night, Everything come at once! recalling every single moment i had with him ); I realised, when i got scolded for my bill's went high, thats the time when i spent my very most time with him, every night, without fail; with laughters and sweet-talks before i got to sleep. I was struggling to sleep last night, To keep my eyes shut at all times but i cant really pull through, I sat down with the phone on my hand, reading through the messages that he sent, i still keep those in my saved messages..; promises. ); I cried softly that night, not letting anyone know what happened that kept me awake that night); I hugged my pillow tightly letting it all out, each tear that ran down my cheeks really count how much i missed him); the boy that i fell for on 111108. Not knowing he would change so badly till i lose grip of him, i dont know wheres he, his whereabouts, i dont know)); I whispered some prayers for his happiness last night, knowing that God is right beside me, listening to every word ive gotta say.G I know God accompanied my sadness last night and finally got my eyes closed and went to sleep not long at around 3am.....
I typed this poem out, just wanna post it here((;

On this night, I lay down.

Looking at the calender, counting the times we could continue this love story..
God, Please give me this strength to stay on and be with him,
cause this feelings cant be controlled..
Why must our love not be together since i find out that theres no other love other than yours..?
Eventhough this feelings were not meant to be,
But its you that got be sitting right here,
Still sitting on my bed,
waiting for your return,
But just a sentence,
I wasnt really waiting for you, just waiting for your love..
Wait till i close my eyes,
I'll see you in my dreams tonight.....

Okayy, fuck shit, I got up late todayy.
haiyy, Its really a bad day for me luhh cause i got back my exam scripts like, TODAY.
And fuck, first period was Malay, Its reallyreally BAD, Paper 1, i only got a total of 36/70.. oh man, its really damn bad,); Then paper 2, i got 42/60.. was slightly better but still, upsetting, gotta sit for my malay oral tmr.
And malay was one thing, Then was Social Studies, I put such high hopes, thinking my efforts would worth something atleast... But no, Its really bad , I got only 22/50!);
Then after That, got my English Paper 1, Composition, i got 22/30, then Writting, i got 20/30.. a total of 42/60.. Okayy luh. not so bad.
Then was Science(Chems), Section A, I got 12/20, JUST PASS! Section B, 1 and a half/40!! whatthefuck!?, a total of 25 1/2 /60.
The was Physics, Section A, 10/20 ONLY! Total 25/60!
fuck man!
then Maths, Paper 1, 15/60!
Fuck everything ayeee.
kayy, whatever.
Im reallyreally sleepy,
besides, am eating some biscuits.
okayy, enjoyed reading?
This Mid Year Exams just sucks my TOOT! xD
Okayyyyyy! love you readers!