Like hello Bloggy((;
So loooooooooong since ive updated.
LOL. kayy, so this about it ayee. I'll talk about Wednesday till todayy((;
So yeah, Wednesday, I was alone in the classroom, and people kept asking why i wasnt close with my bestfriend. i was like, speechless. then i saw she coming in the class.. so yeah, Nabilah called me by the back door. so we talked things out, so yeah. things went so clear and finally i knew whats going around me cause i was so naive and cant be bothered cant of thing. so yeah(; im glad this argument ended and we're as close as before. im reallyreally happy about it luh. then yeah, recess ended. so Nabilah and Ashura had to go back to class. So bestfriend just stood infront of me, so yeah, i felt so bad, i held her hand and apologized and i felt like crying, like seriously.
so we're back together((; so yeah, then had sec 3 camp briefing after school. so yeah, Kramjit wasted ALOT of time, i swear! its like 1.50 like that, till 2.30 then we started the briefing! grrrrrr! i swear the trainer was like so funny lorhh! hahah! especially when he pronounced the word, "ItSELF". hahahah! then yeah, i cant wait for the camp!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrr!
HAHAHHAH!!!

Okayy, Thursdayy.
Then yeah, my school shoes got some probs, so i have to get my sport shoes. grrrr! its so small!
and my leg hurts like fuck! thenthen, blablabla, nothing much luh,
so damn boring
then went home. Then yeah, damn upsetting lorh.
He appeared offline, then open a conversation. we chatted like we never used to, before.); then yeah, somehow, i felt like saying how i felt, so i did. i said, I MISS HIM.
then he ignored it and went on talking about his outing on Saturday, yes, i was damndamn annoyed. Besides, it feels like as if, Im the one striving for his love when hes the one who came back. man, whats this?!! grrrr! i got so fed up and just say, "oh,hah". thats all. then he said, if you dont wanna talk then up to you. i was like, ??
haiyy, then i chat with My MuthuSamy;Nazrul! ahaha! then yeah, we talked so damn nonsense lorh. ahahh! he made me laugh my ass off. then he called, since i dont know his number, i picked up, then hes like saying, "hello, whos this ehy?" i was like... HAHAHHAHAHHA! then i hangup the phone. ahhahaha! then he said, ehy why laugh then hangup!?? HAHHA! i was like, laughing my ass off.
then we started calling names.
HAHAH!
then blablabla. okayy, thats so yesterdayy,

so so, Fridayyyy.
thats so today!
LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!
i was like, when i woke up early in the morning, i went smiling away!
hahhahah! thenthen, yeah.
reached school.
Nothing much luh, majority of people didnt come today, almost half the class.
then yeah, i just wanna talk about the last period luhhhh!
CLEANING TIME!!! ;DD



HAHAH! i scrub my table like fuck, and the rag is so smelly lorh! ewwwww~
then, i realised, my table's so WHITE! Im so happy luh! HAHA! okay, so crazzy.
so yeah, done! then went home(((;
i swear today is like soooooooooooooo damn hot.
and its gonna rain soon! claps~
HAAH!
Till here, CANT WAIT FOR CAMP! 3rd to 5th JUNE! ;DDDD
Happy Holidays to ALL! ;D
Love you readers!~~

AM sorry if i didnt blog lately. so far so lonng. i felt lazy to update. I just felt the whole world is really drifting awayyy from me;far away, Friends & Ashraf. I dont know what else to say about friends. Im no more having that confidence that we'll be as close as before. No confidence, Therefore, i felt as if i wasnt myself;now. I felt so anti-social. Not going for recess and just updating my diary in class. Then Anwar was around just now, to accompany me and somehow shared something. so yeah, i told him everything. I realised, myself today wasnt as cheerful as i was, the one that used to laugh so wildly. haha, i miss it. ); and as for Ashraf, I dont know, we fought almost over every single thing, once we're okay, the next we would fight like hell. i hate it. You know, girls love to think too much, and thats what happened. I began to think wayyyy out of the box, yet he cant make it right for me. he'd rather scold me and yeah, showed me no confidence in having to accept him once more. you see, i cant help it anymore luh. So its better this way, I wanna be alone, I dont wish to talk much, I dont wish to create to much noise in class, i'd wished to just shut my mouth and mind my own business. I felt so weird . so so weird. im too feeble. Thats all i could say. );
Me; wasnt like before.

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Weeeeeeeheeeeee, today was like damn interesting luh, i seriously enjoyed today. good thing i came to school((; So yeah, first thing, Mothertongue and stuffs. oh so boring periods. went to school with lovely; Kristal. MY japanese doll. so cute leh her bangs! i likeeeee! ;DDDThen yeah, reached school and stuffs.
Boredddddd. then yeah, after Mothertongue, went to helpout with george and others for some POA project of business. LOL. sitting there like for no reasons, nobody came to take photo. HAHAH! Thenthen, soon, alot for people came((; was damn excited lorhh;D heheh! thenthen, after all that, went back to class, i took some pictures too! ((; Heheh! Thenthen, i took some photos ;D damn nice lorh;D heheheh! Then blablabla, went back to class for Maths. Boring, so was like laughing awayyy with Kristal while texting my dearest two mummys((; Ashraf's mum and my mummy(; damn funny luhh ;D thenthen, I noticed that matrep;Hariz, cant stop winking lorh, damn siao. i wonder, was he tired? HAHAHHA!! okayy, sortszsz! then yeah after maths was Photo-Taking, i rushed to the toilet with shahidah and got ourself ready. LOL! ahhahahahha!!! then soon reached((; We took photo and blablabla. after school. actually i didnt wanna go for the Mountain Biking but in the end, i did turn up((; it was damn fun luh, i know, Peiling heard enough of my screams, since shes behind me. ahhahah! damn Gross lorh, alot of muds and puddles. EWWWWWWWWWWWW! seriously ewwy! then we cycled for quite long, and got myself so tired but my shoes were sparkling clean yet others got their shoes soaked in the puddle and got it so BLACK. Damn cute luh! hahahah! ;DDD
Then yeaaaaaaaaaah, went back to school. Then went home. Shit, it rained so heavily luhh. i thought i couldnt make to home. yet, i did(; since i brought along my umbrella(; thankgod!
Then yeah, i was soaking wet!!!!
Then reached home, im so exhausted now!
Woohoo, going buy bubbletea soon and top up my damn bloody phone;DD
Till here readers,
I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu guys! :D
Like hell yeah, something weird happened yesterday night and got me not asleep till late at 4am! Ashraf finally texted me, said he regretted and some stuffs. i was like so damn shocked. so yeah, this afternoon, he really pissed me off! fuck siaaa. Can talk nicely mah , good thing i replied. wth!

woohoo, blackshit! (; Lol, so random. Im so not going to school today. Like exactly what im doing now. I woke up as usual, around 5.40am. then after i had my shower, got ready and . lie down on my bed, told my sister, "I dont want go school luh, i want sleeep! " then told my mum, sleeping in her room. then yeaaaaaah(; Green LIGHT! then yeah, texted Kristal, told her that im not meeting her at Novena. So yeah, she begged me to go cause the class'll be so damn quiet. I was like, laughing awaaaaay, haha! Then, Dad outside my room asking, "not going school uh?" I replied, "no." then he asked, "then never sleep uh?". i was like shocked lorh, hahaa!! usually he wont allow me to skip school and stuffs. haha! then yeah, got back to sleeeeep.
I was so So So So so Damn tired. like i swear, then woke up at 11:46am, Then texted Ashraf's mummy((; Without fail lorh, cause yeah, cause i missed him so badly, by texting his mum is making me feel much comfortable;D His mum's so damn cute lorh. But yeah, i wont bother to ask about his whereabouts, got that mindset, to forget himm! trying hard trying hard!!!!! haiyy!
Okayy whatever, finally i didnt miss him badly like what happened until i cant sleep and stuffs. Okay weeee, then woke up, still lazy, i swear i was like one damn pig lorh. Haiyy. okayokay, now just doing nothing much. im so damn bored luhhh!
I missssssss class! ); HAHA! I miss the laughters with kristal! HHAHA!
Okayokay ;D good thing for some people, bet they'll be much happier without having me with them during recess((; happy for them ayeee.
hahaha!
Okayy whatever, Im really like a pig today,
okayy luh shit!
hahahaha!
i want go buy snacks and bubbleteaaaa! xPPP
till here readers!
Love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

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Okayy, that was the pictures i took during social studies, teacher never comeeeee.((;
thenthen, Yay! I passed my POA luhhh oit! ;DD 57.5/100 (((; HAHAH!!
Was damn jumping like one siao when i received the paperrrr. hahahah!
;DDD
Weeeeeeeeeee, damn happy lorh((;
Okayy thats it, im so damn sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy((;
chatting with lazy pig; Hariz(; HAHAH!
Okayy till hereeeee!
Love youuuuu readersssss!

The worst still hasnt come to an end, eventhough the struggles ended for the mid year exams. Im still wasnt really over him); Sadly, Ive tried so hard, people. Im sorry. But this feelings just cant be controlled! I cant help it, not sleeping every night but keep scrolling down the calender and got myself pouring into tears. Last night, Everything come at once! recalling every single moment i had with him ); I realised, when i got scolded for my bill's went high, thats the time when i spent my very most time with him, every night, without fail; with laughters and sweet-talks before i got to sleep. I was struggling to sleep last night, To keep my eyes shut at all times but i cant really pull through, I sat down with the phone on my hand, reading through the messages that he sent, i still keep those in my saved messages..; promises. ); I cried softly that night, not letting anyone know what happened that kept me awake that night); I hugged my pillow tightly letting it all out, each tear that ran down my cheeks really count how much i missed him); the boy that i fell for on 111108. Not knowing he would change so badly till i lose grip of him, i dont know wheres he, his whereabouts, i dont know)); I whispered some prayers for his happiness last night, knowing that God is right beside me, listening to every word ive gotta say.G I know God accompanied my sadness last night and finally got my eyes closed and went to sleep not long at around 3am.....
I typed this poem out, just wanna post it here((;

Kris Allen-Heartless ; I would say, DAMN NICE! xD

The Virgin-Cinta Terlarang; MAN, I fucking love this song));

ST12-Saat kau jauh; i miss him);

Adamn Lambert-Crying(;

Then yeah, happy watching the videos!
Till here readers;D
I love you guys(;

Isnt he cuteeeeeeeeee?
Hes so damndamn cute luhhh! WOOHOO!
Maybe not going Sentosa todayyy. grrrr! trying to avoid from getting scolding from mum, again. haiyy. so just following her demands); so yeah, rotting at home, just watching some sweet videos in youtube..

Am so crazzzzzzzzzzzzy! Damn cute lorhhh! cannot angkattt! xDDD haha! Woohoooooo! ;DD He really makes my dayy !

FUNNY EMO VIDEO.
Its like, i posted for two times todayyy.
well, now im gonna continue, i went to take some pictures just now, was damn bored((;



So yeah, thats about it((; alot more, but lazy to upload. HAHA!
I wanna say sorry to dearest Kristal, that i cant tag along. maybe next time aite?((;
Okayy till here, Goodnight readers!
;DDD

Im damn mad, disappointed, ANNOYED! GRRRRR!
Yesterday was one thing already luh. _________ was given all the journal book from teacher, so yeah. ________ get it all back then ________ can study, while im at home trying my best to get everything into my head. yet, i cant even study a thing! somemore, its D&T, what a disadvantage. Mummy told me to get EVEN. i'll try be strong enough but i was damn down with this thing luh, what a best_______. haiyy, theres nothing i can do luhh. what i know, im just doing my own things now since you're so busy with your guy now. Since im like always a troublemaker to you guys, thats the reason why im just avoiding you guys for now. its not that im wanting a fight or what. i meant it well, i dont wanna be blame for no reasons again for your arguments when i was just helping out. so yeah, its so wrong yeah helping you guys out? fine, Im going with the flow((; Okayy whatever. I know, my DNT is gonna be so damn low for theory, i just did the toning,shading on products which i liked best. It contains only, 6-9 marks? i dont think it'll even gave me a passing mark. Haiyy, what a disgrace); Im so damn disappointed luh. One by one, problems kept passing by, i knew all this are just challenges in life, im going through it slowly.

I was damn bored luh, so i answered this qns! ;D

1) Single, Taken, or Crushing?
♥ Single and Lovin' it!
2) Are you happy with where you are?
♥ Yes, away from all those games.(;
3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
♥ Well, I'll have to consider.
4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
♥ Yes, ALOT.
5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
♥ Yes, if it was for something good.
6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
♥ If they could change? why not?(;
7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
♥ Yes! xD
8) Do you want children?
♥ Duuuhhhh.
9) How many?
♥ 2! ;D
10) Would you consider adoption?
♥ Nope, I want my own CHILD;D
11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to let you know?
♥ By stepping up and telling by themselves would be sweeeeet! ;D
12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
♥ Pretty much, see how far they can go! ;D
13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating?
♥ as in? having two guys in one moment? nope, i'll never wish to.
14) Do you believe love at first sight exists?
♥ YES! stares at eachother's eyes! WOOHOO!
15) Are you romantic?
♥ guess?
16) Do you believe that you can change someone?
♥ If i truly loved that someone, i will;D
17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object where would it be?
♥ Heaven((;
18) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
♥ Nopes;D
19) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you couldn't?
♥ yeah, that somebody);
20) Have you ever broken a heart?
♥ who doesnt? but i was just being too dumb..
21) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other?
♥ Nope, not worth fighting over a guy.
22)What would you say about your last ex?
♥ Hes someone which i dont recognise anymore. "He wasnt himself". okay, whatever.

Gonna take more quiz cause im so damn bored nowwwwww.;D

RULE 1: You opene​d this;​ you gotta take it
RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOW​ED to expla​in ANYTH​ING
unles​s someo​ne messa​ges you and asks!​
LAST PERSO​N YOU
1 You hang out with?​
♥ Kristal;D
2 Who was the last perso​n you texte​d?
♥ Irfan CHICKEN!
3 Last perso​n You were in a car with?​
♥ Familyyy.
4 Last perso​n you went to the movie​s ?
♥ My Ex );
5 Last perso​n you Went to the mall with?​
♥ Familyyyy
6 Last Perso​n you talke​d on the phone​ with?​
♥ Kristal;D
7 You messa​ged/​comme​nted?​
♥ Irfan CHICKEN ;D

8 who are you talking to now?
♥ Singing?((;
Q: Kisse​d someo​ne on your top frien​ds?​
♥ Never? HAHA.
Q: Been searc​hed By Cops?​
♥ Never;D
Q: Been suspe​nded from schoo​l?​
♥ Nope, if im gonna be late again, maybe im gonna go through that. AHA!
Q: Sat on a Rooft​op?​
♥ Nope.
Q: Been pushe​d into a pool with all your cloth​es on?
♥ Nope?
Q: Broke​n a bone?​
♥ Never!
Q: Have shave​d your head?​
♥ Ewwww, no.
Q: Playe​d a prank​ on someo​ne?​
♥ HAHAHA! april fool's((;
Q: Had/​have a gym membe​rship​?​
♥ Nope.
Q: Shot a gun?
♥ Never, But it would be cool!
Q: Donat​ed Blood​?​
♥ Nope.
WOULD​ YOU RATHE​R :
1 Eat or drink​?​
♥ EAT! cause im damn hungry now xD
2 Be serio​us or be funny​?​
♥ Funny is much more preferred.
3 Go to the beach​ or mount​ains?
♥ beach; relaxation((;
4 Die in a fire or die getti​ng shot?​?
♥ Neither? I wanna die naturally;D
ANSWE​R TRUTH​FULLY :
1 Sun or moon?​
♥ I prefer the moon((;
2 Winte​r or fall?​
♥ I prefer the Winter((;
3 Left or right​?​
♥ RIGHT! ;D
4 Black​ and white​ or color​ed?​
♥ colouredxD
5 Do you want to get marri​ed?​
♥ HAHA! YEAH! of course luhh.
IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE YOU :
1. Kisse​d someone?​
♥ nope;DDDD
3. Been poked​ by someo​ne?​
♥ Nope;D
4. Cried​?​
♥ HAHAHA.
5. Gotte​n in a fight​?​
♥ Nopeeeee((;
someone love you ?
♥ How would i know? LOL.

So, how do i looooooook?! Like my SOFFYBUMBUM! :DDDDD
AHAHHA!!

Oh hello bloggy, I wont let my blog be DEAD once more. HAHA!
So weeeeeeeee, I cant really sleep yesterday night, so i stayed up till 3am? then yeah, I only studied for 45mins for Physics.
And yeah, Todays paper.
WAS DAMN GREAT LUHHHHH;DDDDD
weeeeeheeee! LOL. didnt know Physics was damn easy((; i realised all the formulas i studied yesterday are still clear in my mind;D So maybe i did quite well, With MY own efforts;D So yeah, after that was, Recess.
I didnt ate much, just a cake with raisins, EWW!!
i only ate the cake without the raisins on it;D LOL! okayy,
Then yeah, eyecandy doesnt seemed like eyecandy anymore. hahaha.
I dont seem to be looking for any guys now, im settling down;D
Away from this love shit thing. ;D
Love will come around one day, it can wait. it dont have to be now.
everythings soooooooo yesterday, so i cant have it once more.. cause i dont wish to.. ;D
okayy, whatever!
Tomorrow's a big paper, MATH PAPER 1, Like paper 2 was done, BADLY. had to get some marks from this paper 1 tmr! Woohoo!
Okayy, going home around 9 plus tmr? woohoo! so early luhh seyh! ((; happy youuuuuuuuuuuuu!
Cant wait for friday, meeting Afiq, maybe. Not confirmed. scared to meet! IM NERVOUSSSSS!!! Butbut, ive got alot of times to get home and yeaaaaaaaaaah!
scaryyy luh oit. ));
Okayy, phewwww. hope i can face him! ;DD

Okayyyy! Good luck for me TMR!!!!
Gonna sleep now or study?
Maybe i should sleeeeeeeeeeeep!
Good afternoon readers!:P

Its like, I love you, I miss you, I need You.)));
The clock strikes 12 and its 11th of May, we could be 6TH MONTHS baby, 6TH MONTHS.
ive got no comments, Just that,
I just wanna wish you here, through your phone but i cant get you.
you cant receive a message from me. );
Im so sad.
So let me start,
yes, its been 6th months honey, 6th months if we didnt waste it, we didnt threw it away without a last glimpse on it! we fucked it! it ended, and where it all go? If only we were to be having this moment;together. I bet today, this very day, i'll meet you and spend my whole day with you.
sad, i have to be like the boyf in the movie ive told you people, have to be gentle with love, if it means that;'ll bring you happiness, by all means, im willing to let go of you. yes, thats the way i should do things! But i just cant!
trying hard to, with people around me, putting that smile on my face. For them i smile and for you, I have this 111108 still going on strong in my heart.
But its too weak, too weak, without the love in it. i wouldnt have to say, The End.
No, Its not the end for me..
NEVER.
still, im here, with a wide smile, writting this long post for you.
No, Im not waiting for your love.
But im still loving you the way i do.
DO whatever you want, i wont stop you neither do i ever beg for you.
NEVER.
Cause im doing it all for LOVE,
and the reason why,
I LOVE YOU.
Happy 6th months.
haiyy,
Take it all out, im fine now.
thankGod.
Goodnight readers.

Like Helloo Bloggy! ;D
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MUMMYS ((((((((;
I was like wanting to tell you about what i watched ytd night ((; a damn sweet malay movie at suria;Im not Single.
A show about this two young couples that were forced to marry cause of parents. So yeah, the girl had a boyfriend.. they lived in a huge house, always the guy will sleep outside and the girl will sleep in her room herself. its like as it they were'nt married.
then, someday, the boyfriend always come and visit her for awhile and said I miss you lotsa time. Its so sweet luh. then yeah, she went out her boyfriend and went home late at night.. then the husband got mad, cause he have his responsibilities as a husband so he scolded the girl and she went out and cried. Then the husband went to apologise and told her that he also actually dont know the reason why he marry with that girl.. then yeah, the girl told him everything and asked him to understand her situation that she doesnt even have that Love,Care for him.. then she went back to the house and went to her room, Then one day, Her diary got lost and she went so mad about it and blamed the husband when actually he doesnt even know a single thing! so yeah, she asked for a divorce and asked the husband to get lost, the guy being a gentleman just looked down and went out of the house. Not long, the boyfriend came to her house and saw her went on crying.. then yeah, the husband met the boyf that morning and told him everything about the girl and things that he should know and stuffs, then the boyf went to the toilet and then the girl saw, the husband's car keys on the table , a rose and also a card with a huge sum of money, a love letter and also a ring that the girl ever dreamt of buying it.. the girl was so touched, she held the boyf's hand, then the boyf say,If you were to be happy with him, im willing to see you happy and let go of you... then the girl ran out of the house and went searching for the husband, soon they met half-way... Then tehy hugged and the girl confessed that she loved him.. ;DDDDDDDDD
then yeah, they are now such sweet couples;D and the boyf got married with some cute girl;DDDDDD
so yeah, THE END.
So yeahhh ;D its sweet aint it? ;DDD
then yeah, Today went to Grandma's house and ate and stuffs.
i was damn tired todayy, DAMN DAMN i mean.
Then yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
okay, wth, i missed him);
like bady. Boohoo.
Tommorrow, if we were to be together, 6 months));
was it a waste you tell me? haiyy, out of words luhh. );


Okayy luh till here....
takecare, love ya readers!

See this effing hot guyyyyyyy?! ohmygod!
i fell for himmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! LOL!
hahaha! been crazy over his songs and stuffss! super damn hot luhhh! wth!;D


HAHAH! okayokayy! so yeah, todays paper just sucksssssssssssssss to the max-est!
like seriously! i was damn annoyed luhhh! I studied so hard ytd, but my efforts all went down the drain)); haha! okayy, i wasnt so sad about maths.
well then, chemistry was quite okayy luh, can make it i guess?! LOL!
kay luh whatever!
i swear i did some shoppings with FOOD. Like LOL!
;DDDD tmr buying my small sling bagggg! ;D Weeeeeeeeee!
cant wait luh, its like so hottttttttttttttt!
but i may look like a minah.
Okayy, CHRISTOFER INGEL DREW, I LOVE YOU! ;DDD
Like hell yeah!
HAHAHHAHAH!

Okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, im done.
Caloszs!
I love you readers and Christofer's hot! ;D

was like looking at my comments, haiyy, and i saw these.


11/25/2008 5:02 pm




11/24/2008 12:59 am

I was like smiling awayy looking at these comments.. haiyy i just missed it too much mann.. Then yeah, was listening to Alesana-Apology, The last lyrics, "a beautiful last goodbye" aiyoyo. nevermind, im doing great;D
Okayy, so i had Social studies and Malay paper 1 this morning.
went to school with dearest love;Kristal.
then we walked from novena.
so yeah, Malay paper was like, URGHHHH! quite hard luh seyhh. haiyy! I chosed topic on the one you have to continue with, for the karangan. and, the surat rasmi was like screwed up! LOL! but i did studied); LOL!
okayy, then i was kinda pissed off by some things luhh, but whatever luhh.
okayy, then was Social Studies, i wasnt confident at first when Kristal turned and said, "ohmygod, so hardddd?!!" i was like, HUH? WHATTT!??
LOL! then tried doing the questions, it was easy though;D
HAHAHH! funny luh, the Kristal gave me half of her biscuit! ;DLOL! motivation!!!
HAHAHHAH! okayy then, i finished every single thinggggggggggggg! HAHAH! xD
okayy, Then went home with Kristal. Reached home quite early, Like LOL, today i was dismissed earlyyyy! so damn idiot luh. HAHAH!
okayy, then yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Oh ya, IFRAN CHICKEN! Sorrrrrrrrrrrrrry! i had no idea what i dreamt about last night! keep changing channel! LOL! sorrrrry aye! hahaha!
So yeah, thats about it!


I lose myself in anguish for tonight... help me get over you... ));

LIKE A HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST SISTER! :D
Okayyyyyy, Tag replies:
IRFAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN! Thankyou so much! yeah i will cheerupppp! ;D Woohoo!
Kristal! Yesyes, I love you tooooo honeyy! ;D
AyulBACEN- ehy! aperh tak perluuuuuuu? diperlukan sangat okayy! ;D HAHA!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, today!
was abit quite fun kind of thing, Total of 5 Free periods! like wtf! ;D
HAHAHHA! yes, i was damn sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy!
actually my thermometer wasnt working, but i acted out with Kristal! ;D LOL!
hahahahahhaha!
well, nothing muchhhh to updateee luh!
Then yeah, after school. supposed to go for oral but ive got some plaaaans.
So yeaaaaah! Waited for Kristal at Novena.
then took the trainnn home, we laughed like fuck luhh. HAHA! idiot heeer!
Okayy, thenthen, reached home, i was like damn tired uh, so i get some rest after i had my bath. then yeah, i lie down on my bed, suddenly i sleptt! from 3 to 5 like thatt. man, i was so restless luh! i need some rest));
somemore theres test THIS thursdayyy.
Then yaaaaaa, soon, Farhana texted me, saying they're otw in the bus.
so yeah, i got up and get readied. then soon, they reached.
met them downstairs, like we planned ytd. But the plans was then changed.
then, went to meet them downstairs,
banyak budak ITE siyool kat bwh.
then soooooooooon, still sister wasnt back yet. i was like wondering where she is!
then yeah suddenly, all of them shouted so loudly and ran upstairs saying they saw my sister!!! HAHAH! i was like laughing awaaaay luh!
then soon, they hid upstairs, hahaha!
then sister reached, then soon, they sang the birthday sooong.
HAHA! then my sister was like some grandma, LOL!
kena flour all over. HAHAH!
so weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, cut the cake.
upload it tmr!

Happy birthday sis! ;DDDD

Like dear bloggy,
Eventhough just a few days theres been alot of things that kept bringing me disappointments and end up making me cry in my room. haiyy. theres nothing i could do to stop it nor even go through all this pain but i have to accept it cause i know, God is trying to test my patience to see how strong i am, I realised it all, This is my retribution, to what happened last year, 13th May(Long story). disappointments that ive given to someone that wasnt even in the wrong); and now, Im in his shoes and i know how bad he feels and how bad he goes through , right at this very moment. I feel the pain ive got onto him and the hurtful things that ive done, promises that were left undone. I realised it all now. Even last time, i really knew this things were to come in future and it did, God's fair enough. I thank God for being there to let me realise what ive done that hurts someone that wasnt in the wrong)); I deserves this punishment im facing now and im gonna go through this challenge with sincerity. and yeah, one more thing, I realised that Ashraf's much more happier now which i know their relationship could make it far and im reallyreally happy for him(; Therefore, i had to let go though it cuts through deep inside my heart); , thats the way of life and i have to adapt with it. Take it easily, like what he always used to tell me when im having problems(; and this is what i am now, Im going with the flow;D Thanks to the courage of those people around me that never fails to let that smile brighten up everyday when i see them;D Without you guys, i wont be wearing this broad smile im having on my face right now;D
Those people((;
I love you guys,
Kristal-Thankyou so much Honey! ;D For almost everything, you've been there for me like every sec! i appreciate it so muchh! ;D and i love you!!
Shahidah- Thanks for all those sweet words and never ending cheerups you'll put all over me, im thankful to have you around, and i love you!
Irfan(Nafri)- I wanna thank you for every sweet words you have to say out and you even promised that the next will be a great guy, i'll have to consider! thankyou super muchhhhhh my bacen-est abnormal! ;D
Hariz- With your long message you;ve sent yesterday, it really makes me stronger! thankyou so much buddy! ;D
My parents-The lovely ones that have all their attention on me when im downdowndown, they were there by my side when i cried out loudly, Thankyou parents, thats all that i neeed;D
I LOVE YOU, MUMMY&DADDY!:D
Aunty;Mama- Thankyou for the sweet advice, I'll keep those in mind! ;D
Ms.Mai- she never fails to lookout for me eventhough shes not my teacher now, but yeah, I LOVE HER MUCH!
Siblings- The ones, always close to me, my blood, my everything. they'll never leave my side and makes me laugh like one mad girl. THANKYOU ! i love you guys :D
and lastly, Ashraf's Mum,
Thankyou mummy for the encouragement you gave me just this morning! ;D I appreciate your help and for all those advices you;ve given me, You're always there for me when i needed you, therefore, i love you mummy;D

Ayul- The one hahah! never ending laughters, thankyou too! ;D
Just that! Im back on my knees, SLOWLY! :D
I love you people! ;DDDDD

Lessons learnt. enough with the madness i had yesterday that caused me the whole night recalling all those things that brought me nightmares and traumas. Stupid eyebags. Lol.
okayy so yeah todayy(;
went to grandma's house to celebrate uncle's birthday;D
was at home for awhile, while dad and baby bro went there first.
then, got all ready.
set off.
todays really, what i call, Upsetting/disappointing?
then yeah, knuckles went red.
eyes went wet.
lol. whatever
Change the woman to man((;
get it people? guys just sucks my foot:D
okay tiill here. im smiling;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I cried so badly, you made me cry like a baby.
i groan in pain, i feel like screaming it all out.
i didnt know you turned out to be so bad.
Im done, done with everythings that gonna happen in future.
Im helpless,Hopeless,restless,feeble,frustated,sad,disappointed,regrets.
so yeah, i had enough with it.
things were so great.
i thought the love story would go on till the happy endings, but those tears that kept on rolling down, ruined the whole page.... we ended it without any conclusions
.
wheres your proves? Action speaks louder than words.
haiyy, it tells it all.
ive never cried this much, ive never been so restless. ive never reacted so badly. you really pulled me down. Im so weak to get up.
you caused the tears, the sleepless nights, Urghhhhhhhh!
why are you so bad?
this night, i promised to myself,
i wont bother you for life, you hurt me toooo much, i had with it. Ive given you TOO much LOVE. till you got control of me. im nothing now. just nothing.
im so damn helplesssss!);
God, show me the way, bring me up on my knees, let me smile wide.
and my famous last words for you, "God's FAIR enough."
i meant it well.
i wont appear in your life.
i wont recognise you.
i wont wanna see you.
i'll pull myself out from your life, dont have to keep on with those things.
i gave up.
I felt like an idiot to wait for the old you, USELESS&disappointing.

Thanks for Trauma with those fears you;ve put on me.
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