Yes, This post is specially for someone that i really cant stop thinking about or even be without him for a second, and its damn unbearable. whatever it takes, baby, if you were to read this post, i just wanna let it all out, about you and me since 1st November when we first started knowing eachother after Hariz passed you my number, yes, its nice knowing you, the first time i met you. i swear i had butterflies in my stomach when i was waiting till you reached. then yeah, i was damn nervous, then i walked to the lift and saw you standing right there.. haha, yes i would like to admit, you're cute(; then yeah, we sat somewhere around there.. you brought along those sweet strawberries, yes, i love it(; i thank you a million times for those strawberries.. then we talked, slowly.. with your pink earstick which i still remember.. haiyy, then yeah, i cant accept you on that date cause' i wanted us to getta know eachother more first.. then yeah. soon, its already around 6? i had to go home, he sent me till the lift and yes, Im glad we met! i remembered when we used to hang on the phone each night till 3am in the morning or more than that, i still do have that sound clip which i recorded(when i said, i didnt record!) haha, when u disturbed your bibik's boyfriend, ohmygod! its reallyreally cute, like i swear, i still do remember all those and im still listening to it every night before i went to bed... but then again, something happened on the end of January after about this JIV thingy, you've changed so suddenly... when i dont know the reaosn why must you be mad about.. yes, i still do have that patience with me... then yeah, we fought so badly over that JIV thing.. haiyy. i still do remember those. then yeah, i went to your house area and played with your lil brother and sister, oh so cute (; then yeah, i get along quite well with them, yes, im happy with that, we took alot of pictures together, mikhail is really so sweet, picked some flowers for me which is still vivid in my mind... then you get some ice cream and forced me to take a bite but then i didnt. HAHA! then mummy saved our picture in her phone.. awww. yesyes, i missed all of that, soon, school started, we met like almost everyday, we walked from admiralty to my block. haiyy. we had so much fun together, then he showed me his year book); thenthen, i remembered when i went to meet him when he needs to do his art, we sat somewhere near the swimming pool and he drew some birds with those different positions you have to go with, haha, yes, you shifted your chair and sat right next to me and held my hand while you drew... ); i missed that so much. damndamn. then, he bought for me snickers, yet i dont want. :P haha! then you sent me to the bustop.. haiyy. then the one that i really cherished deep inside my heart, was on your birthday;19dec08. we went to watch Twilight, my phones still with me eventhough mum;s still mad about my bill, then went to meet you at your block, you held my hand and say. "nevermind, we'll go through this thing together okay?" you smiled. then yeah, we took the LRT then from ChoaChuKang to Angmokio, then we watched Twilight, ); we sat not accordingly.. hahah, then some couple came to us and said we were sitting on their seat, so we went to change place. haha, some scene, the shows really sweet, i still remembered, we turned and looked at eachother and kissed); haiyy. then we took 169 to woodlands, but we didnt stopped at Causeway, so we walked.. we had some little "fights" when i kept on disturbing you. HAHA! then yeah, we sat somewhere beside my house and talked and laughed so loud from 1800 till 1900 like that? yes, i admit, its the longest time i spent with you, i treasure it so much... But then people do change as time comes, less love, everything changed luh, i really cant help it luh, then we fought like almost everyday, from say till night and didnt celebrate our 3rd month and 4th month since we wasnt in good terms, even after that break up we had recently, its not that i want, its really over my limits, my patience just cant tolerate with your nonsense, im sorry. but seriously, i really dont know whats going on now, and i really wanna thank mummy for giving me that hope to not give up and have been there for me whenever i need someone to talk to... But its okay, whats done is done, im not gonna think of moving on with anyone else cause' i dont wish to be in the same situation as i am in, right now. Just stay single((; and yes, You're my last love, too feeble to get a new one. ;D
still, 111108 is going on strong;in my heart, You have my soul(; below are the pictures we took, precious memories.


Dearest Mikhail, I missed you small one);


Supposed to be taking a picture, he turned and said hes not ready.
Sweet aye? missing it so much,

The one you edited so long ago, so damn cute luh! he sent me through msn(;

I always hoped we could be this close once more, if God's willing enough, i wished i could.


You told me, You really loved emo pictures, and you made this as your wallpaper last time........
You asked me to take a picture of you((;

I really wished i could have my spidermonkey);

The picture that really meant alot to me.
So baby, I really hoped you'd cherish me like the way i do cause' i meant my words when i say, "im not like your exes".. may this journey ends here. But deep inside, im still counting the times from the first time ive met you and till now.. i counted our monthsaries at the side, )); But now bby, Just concentrate reallyreally hard on your N levels, its really important, i understand you. Dont upset me once more, Do well! (;

In case, you still havent listened to the song which i asked you to do so, Heres the lyrics, meant for youuuuu.......................
Saw you walk into the room
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me too
It's been two years to the day
Half the time I've been away
I know I'm not there enough but that's gonna change
Cause I'm coming back
To show you that I'm keeping the promise I made

When I'm with you I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you

Yeah we've had our ups and downs
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
Cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
When ever you're not around
When I kiss you I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you

Whatever it takes I'm not gonna break the promise I made
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you

Yeah, when I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
(Make every second count)
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
Yeah

Like i say, when i said LOVE, i meant it well.
so here it is, specially for you.
actually theres a lot more, but im just too tired to type it all out.
I'll miss you baby, Badly..
Till here!
For my spidermonkey<3 i love you...

Heyyy DadaSHYG, Thankyou for giving me the encouragement! ;D Appreciate it alot taw! ;D you're so sweet luh by! GRRR! You last long with Acap taw kayy!
Korang sweeeeeeeeet sangat! :D Any problems, come to me plakk. HAHA!
I LOVE YOU A MILLION TIMES! ;D