oh hello.
thats so sweet of FIONA.
thanks babe, u give me the courage:D
ILOVEYOUTOO:D

ohh gosh, ytd wasnt that bad, but ya.. it wasnt expected luh.
yeah, he went to the party.
then, i was so speechless, it feels like, being put aside without knowing.
now i am so confused.
whether to move on or stay and wait for you.
but my heart wont lie.. I stil love you.
but, i had enough hurting others, i dont wanna do it again.
and thats what im facing.
i dont wanna hurt anybodys feeling, i felt bad about it.
and now, what can i do?
it feels like being trapped in the middle of the ocean, there are only left with two routes.
_______ or that guy im waiting for.
i dont wish to hurt anyone.
but i had to think twice.
eventhough, im crying right now while typing out what i felt.
i know, nothing good would happen/
why in the world must i do this!?
whats so good about being alive when you do was just hurting others?
im sickkkk! i really dont know what to do now.
im confused.
i wanna tell that someone, Ashrafe.
i cried ytd coz i can bear to tell you that i treat you just as a good friend..
coz my heart is still waiting on someone.
and i cant lie on that.
i dont wish to say that to you. so i know, u'll feel broken deep inside..
and i donnt want that to happen.
i have to be true,
and thats what ive been mad about ytd.
im know i just so bad!

god, what ive done?!
















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