Sorry iskandar, if i didnt sms u for a number of days, i dont wanna disturb u as u've told ure busy, so ya...
Sorry to the guys i've rejected recently ; Apit and Fauzmi, im swear im sorry, its not that u guys arent perfect or what luh, i thought could wait for that someone but things do change lately. sorry again.
Sorry Weezal, i dont have any birthday presents for you yesterday but Bestwishes from me to you! happy belated birthday, stay long with her!
Sorry shahidah and others, for yesterday thing, u guys shuold have told me earlier instead , so sorry that i cant follow u all , i know u guys had tons of fun with those cute guys :D
Sorry Fauzmi , i didnt reply ur sms-es just now. i told you ready right bout what happened? so.. ya, i'll msg u soon (:
Let me say. Today just sucks the way it seems to be. Let me start. Today, whole family at home. grandma was like wanting to go hospital to see my aunt. mother asked me to send her there. I was like... URGH! i wanna stay at home pls. homeworks undone. Lied to parents that its all finished. but it wasnt at all. packed my bag. super heavy like hell. then get to noe, tmr only have to bring MT and Maths. whatever luh. Then Grandma changed her mind, she wanted to go to my cousin's house at tpy instead. okay , i followed. halfway in the train to angmokio. my brother vomitted. i was like.. Hang on there, reaching. LOL. then alighted at Bishan to go to the toilet nearby, he threwup. then went to eat at mac donalds. lalala, after eating, took taxi to my cousin's place. talked about skinnies and whatever clothes luh while walking. then reached talktalktalk, played with my lil cousins and watched tv. ate a little bit. then went back home. okok, the stupid thing is coming ahead. took the bus 238 to tpy interchange, went to macdonalds to buy macspicy and large fries for sis. bought everything. then brother wanted to eat. i say, 'okay, how abt we just eat at home?" my brother was like one shit, i can see. "okay, u want to eat here then thats it, go eat! we will wait" Fuck, he stared blankly at some other ppl instead of eating, i noe he was showing some attitude. whatever luh bro. "u want to eat or not? if u dont want then move on!" I SAID. he did said something back. so i pushed the chair and walked out myself, leaving my grandma and that DOGSHIT behind. i swear i wasnt in the mood already. i walked fast like nobodys business, forgetting abt my grandma. i was so sick of him. for these years i've been patient towards him, hes just TOO much! and i cant take it already. just tap the card and waited "at least" for my grandma. grandma starts to nagg. BLABLABLA. then this time, that dogshit, scold me some unreasonable words. Hell DOG! u dont dont know the meaning of those words then be it! u dont have to use it. what a stupid dog. i am seriously hating that brother of mine. well i guess, he wasnt my brother at all! ran down the stairs. he started to call me all kinds of things, last ly i shouted infront of the crowd "if youre so clever to go back yourself then GO! i dont even care abt you!" then i walked off. he said back "i dont even need your help, BITCH!" simply no respect! im really so damn fucked up. i swear i was. i went to the very far end . then grandma came to me , with those words as if shes supporting my brother. just the same. whatever, Grandma! u dont even care about all those things he did to you. like for my state, i've never been so rude to you. and still , ure on his side. be it!
i was seriously sticking to my words, im going back myself! the mrt came, i dont even wanna look at that brother of mine, im so stressed up. omg. reached woodlands. he looked at me with those stupid looks of his, EWW! just dont call me your sister, i hate you so much brother, so muchhhh! i feel like slapping your face but i'll get it back in return. ure just the RUDE-ESTT brother i've ever had, i swear.
i know ure very close to hayati; eldest sister, so? doesnt mean im not ur sis right? ouh whatever, go on luh. I know, i wasnt a good sister, i dont love you or what. see yourself first on what u have done! respect me for who i am then i'll respect you the way u want! LOOK! im Ur SISTER okay? not an outsider or what,
from now on, i wont talk to you. i wont! i just wish you dont exist at all. i just cant accept you the way u are. i cant! ure too much man, change !
i swear i cried all the way. too upset on what happened. adding with Fauzmi's . omg.
i've got nothing else to say luh. im so imperfect. not like others , appoint what i see, perfect than ever, i wanted to be the same, but i just cant.
whatever.
"it take 1 second to say "iloveyou" but it takes a lifetime to show it" what i gotta say, Im not prepared for SCHOOL yet!
