by Nur Faiqah Shahri
Everyday was like nothing to me now . just nothing without him by my side . :(
Im sorry for being so control on you . but just wanna let you noe , I care ! not controlling .
its good enough i care alot about you , but u dont seem to noe , its becoz i love you . I dont wish for you to get hurt or get sick . i dont ever ever ever wish fer that . NEVER EVER ! what i wished for was that we're gonna be together till whenever . but i guess , fate just wont let us . i dont want to bother you now ..
Its really sad to rmb the good times we spent together , time flies so fast .
but now , its just memories , past .. it wont happen again luh .
im sorry if the words i said to you made you changed the way u think about me .
serve me right fer that .
but if u dont wish to forgive me . then . i dunno what else to do .
it really takes time to fully understand something that happened so suddenly .
it really takes time .
coz its like so sudden when everything happened
Well , for yesterday ,
i really cried when u sent me the one last song .
"this is the way that we .. we're not pretending... no hope no love no glory...
no happy ending.. this the way that we love like its forever ..then live the rest of our life but not
Together .. i ..... feel as if in WASTED.. and im WASTED EVERYDAY ."
i swear it does .
its really so meaningful .
Lastly " jus forget the times we spent together and dont wait for me also , just study for now
and maybe have sumone new after your sec 4 life .
i noe it's hard to let go good memories we had together .
i ... too ... cant let it go . i kept on thinking about it .. at school .. anywhere .. it reminds me of you
but its okay , we'll get through it one day ..
Life is nothing without you . when you enter my life , everything starts to change
coz you will always make me smile .
even if its just a glimpse of ur face .
i wont show the sadness and problems im facing now .
i dont need sympathy .
i dont need anything . and i guess i dont need life too .
i just keep it to myself .
but its really true , with you around , during those times ,
i'll always smile without fail .
but for now , smiles written on my face were just fake ones
people dont really noe what i went through except , my close friends
cuzzys , sister amd lastly seri .
Thanks for being by my side and being there for me always
i appreciate it alot .
those advices and jokes you ppl shared with me .
made me smile .
im very lucky to have you guys .
THANKS ALOT :)
Ouh ya , the drawings he gave me on 5th may , is so not gonna be thrown , burnt or what ever .
i wont do all those things to it ,
its really precious to me .
i'll treasure it till whenever i wan it to be .
Woots ! today ,
get to noe my results .. i passed 6 subjects ..
WEE !
and i guess i get 4th in class .
shahidah , im so proud of you . u get 2nd in class noe !
wow ..
juz now , after skool , got some inline skating activity .
it was fun though .
but was super tired of coz
the trainers was like super friendly .
but i like this instructor , hes so so so always disturb me !!
very notty2 !
keep disturbing me on how i skate .
i noe luh its super baddd .
:P
after that the inline skating .went home ,
stopped at admiralty .
and walked back home like the day he sent me home on 5th may .
wahh , its so so so sad .
i swear it is .
i cried while i was walking all the wayy to home .
i miss him :(
Till here :)
